pAiN in YoUR LiVEs

By the time i finally crawled out of the woodwork and blinked my sleepy eyes at ppl around me, the world sure had changed.

for one thing, i found i had graduated.

for another, 213 of the ppl in my 345 list ( orkut ) were mad at me for missing their b'days.
{ oops! sorry. can i make it up to next year? i can wish you twice if you want }

the rest of the ppl in my list were busy wishing i wud crawl back into the woodwork, the same way i got out.
{ mebe i will. if you give me $10. if begging does not work , blackmail sometimes does }

u know that pain you have by now? (after reading all this) no no not the one in your a**. thats not me. thats the bush adminstration.
no no no not the raging one in your head. thats your job.
yeah ... thats right, the one in ur neck. yup, thats the one. THAT's me.
yeah. gimme ten bucks and it'll go away.

oh. so sorry. u were expecting a point to this post? or mebe some story?
did i mention that i have a target of 133 posts in the next 2 months????
oh must have slipped my mind.

QoD taking classes to graduate to QoCD

cOunT

I had 154 posts last year

i need 155 this year. that will denote progress.

won't it?

so, now & then you'll find these filler posts once in a while.

this is post number 22.

sigh... i have a long way to go don't i ?

sOunD adViCE

'USEful' advice i've been given in my life -

yr 1998 act 4 scene 12
moving from all girls high school to co-ed college.
after breaking the news to dad's bro, he glares at me -
~"you better watch your step. i know 'people' in mangalore city {ooooh sinister!! }. one stray step off the path lady and ur out of that college. u better not let our family name be dragged in the mud." { NO idea wat was going thru his head... }

yr 1999 act 1 scene 5
the all girls high school headmistress when signing some form
~"don't stare at the boys in ur co-ed college. i heard your always doing that"
{ waaaaaaaaaaaaat?????? ack !!! those days, i thot guys were made from snails and puppy dog tails and smelly socks .... } { nothing happened in the next 9 yrs to change that opinion :P }

yr 2000 act 3 scene 26
i go to a random ajji {grandma} to tell her i'm leaving mangalore for engineering. off to a hostel in mysore. so she looks at me with a gimlet eye {prob the only occasion in my life i'll need this adjective} -
~"don't run off with a scheduled caste guy and get married in the najangud temple."
{ OK ajji }

yr 2006 act 16 scene 3
i tell my best friends i'm off to US for my MS. they look at me -
~"don't turn into a hippie and work at a gas station around the country to support your drug habit"
{ damn it! you know me too well }

some random one's along the way
~"u shud keep in touch with friends. its important to have these connections."
then i didnt get a call from her for the next 6 years. she wudnt pick up the phone when i called her either. { sounds familiar? mebe i'm talking about YOU }

~"ok,you find your own guy. just make sure he's vegetarian..... and a hindu.... and a brahmin....and is from our city....and can speak tulu."
{ wat?? }

~"i found this guy. you have to 'talk' to him. just don't... talk."
{ i can't even begin on this one. mebe, i answer a call, and nod my head }

sUpeR wOmEN i meEt

its true, its nice to meet new people and butt heads with them.

met this female yesterday and spoke to her for more than a couple of hours.
it was an... errr.... interesting experience.

huh, wats the biggie you think ? well. think bitch. no actually super bitch.
yup i think ur pretty close.

ok so , she's the girl who has to move out, so i can move in. lets call her M. like james bond evil villain kind of M.
and then there's my future roomate A. ( another A !! ) now A just gets steam rolled by M.

so yesterday i moved in. and locked horns with M.

hey ! they don't call me spawn of the devil for nothing. i've been friends with the best super B's of the planet. and just coz i prefer to emulate a sleepy sloth, doesn't mean i like ppl to walk over me.
NO WAY, a slip of a girl half my size tries to sell her old stuff to me for twice the price she probably paid for it. hey ! do I have 'sucker' tatooed on my forehead?

and she has the gall ... the GALL to say she needs to find a sucker for her dining table. thats right after she tries to sell her dining table to me.
oh yeah
i'm steamed.

i'd really like to sock her one.
and while i'm flexing my fingers, let me tell you this
if she thinks she can steam roll over me, like she does A, i'm gonna flatten her.
soprano style.

{ oooh rubbing my hands together , this can get very good. i've been a goody goody girl for too long this time :P ...}
stay tuned.

wEekeND aWay

apparently A is getting away this weekend.
with friends

what worries me is she's busy winking as she's telling me this
u know.
like this
;)

wat the heck is A.D, the baby of the group winking for????
and apparently they'r renting a beach house ( i got more winks for that )

by now , i'm wondering wats happening in ipswick ( i can't spell , you already KNOW that , ok ? )

then she asks if i drink.
i say ofcourse i do.
:-|
complan.

and then. and then ( sputtering ) she calls me a SATI SAVITRI.

hey, what do u think A is upto out there???

LoST TiMe

since you guys are hounding me. ( yeah doesn't sound so nice when i write it down, now, does it? )

where have you been? what have you been upto ? where did you go all these months???
aaargh enough with the questions already !!

i'll tell you , i'll tell you.

i was HIDING.

no no... not from you.
you, i can handle.

i was hiding from 'some' ppl. 'some' ppl who had nothing better to do then pester me.

'how old are you?'
'isn't it time you got hitched?'
'biological clock, tick tock'
'your not getting any younger, you know' { dude, i'm hiding. not brain dead }
'you should think about the future' { let me get my walker }
'time's a flying. you can't afford to ignore it'
'if you don't grow up, you'll never get married, grow old, and die all alone'
{ this to the background music of somber sad voilins }
'the neighbours daughter got married' { let me crack the champagne }
'there's this nice bangalorean boy....'
'there's this nice london boy....' { after 2 weeks }
'there's this nice boy in california....' { yet another 2 weeks }
'have you lost weight?' { oh boy, here we go again }
'stop having breakfast, you don't need it'
'stop having lunch, you don't need that too'
'actually u can stop dinner too, you don't.....' { ok. someone notify the authorities. i'm a medical marvel. alive on air }
'you need to grow up' { ya ya, stickin my tongue out at them }
'i know this perfect new diet. u only need celery and carrots...'
'you need to grow up, get married, have kids. preferably in the next 3 months'
'send me shaadi.com photographs'
'lose weight in 3 days and send me photographs i can show this guy in...'
'there's this nice boy in seattle...' { 2 months later }

and so on. and so on. and so on.

NOW , can you see?

LefT oUT ?

its 6:30 on a saturday morning. its when the most important questions of my life plague me...namely.... WHY AM I AWAKE???

i try to check, if those people who complained i was never online, have mailed me.
nada. zip. now having satisfied that i exist, they have gone back to ignoring me.
aaargh.

ok so i start checking orkut. lets see what my friends have been upto all these months i went AWOL.

married.
engaged.
married.
married with kids.
oh wait!! ..nope , married.
ooooh i have a scrap... let me see....she writes that out of two of my lost friends, one is married with kids and the other just married.
and so on....

guys, girls. it makes no difference. younger friends , older friends , no difference.
gud lord !! i have died and gone to hell ????

its just like the curse. one day u wake up and half of the ppl u know are married, on the way to be married or contemplating marriage.
though contrary to the curse, i do NOT feel left out, sad or do NOT feel like joining that state.

i feel like moving to siberia and finding this really cool cave, and moving into it.
stay away.

no really stay away, what if your marriage state is contagious?
ack ! stay away !!

siberia ! here I come. hide those polar bears willya?

bEtTEr LaTe thAn neVEr

i have sorely vexed my friends... i know. coz i haven't kept in touch with them for such a long time. am sure they feel i've dropped off the corner of the earth.

actually i've vexed a lot of people.
but then there was a reason.
so you have to bear with it. mebe it'll make it easier to imagine me buried in a cave upto my ears in an old quilt. waiting for 2008 to finish. which is what it is exactly.

am just waiting for this year to be done...

so.
i'll see you in 2009.

is it possible for someone to boycott and entire year ? just you watch me :P

oh had a spot of gud news , while writing this post. so mebe u'll spot me ...early bird of spring and all, but in my case , make that early bear of winter...

what? winter is here already ??? hey! its time to hibernate again !!
see ya in 2009 ^_^

dE pErFecT gUeST

u know the perfect guest is one who isn't. I mean he's perfect coz he's no longer a guest ? make sense?
oh hush when did i ever....

so in the course of the last couple of months, i've been the not so perfect guest. coz ive been ... there ... u know.
actually i think i'm a pretty decent house guest. well for one, i'm toilet trained.
{ hey. its a difficult skill to acquire :-/ } { doesnt say much for me , if i have to list THAT as one of my gud qualities... i know... }

but seriously. i'm a gud guest aren't i ?

i try to stay out of ur way,
am willing to help wash dishes,
i accompany u if u want to go out,
am willing to listen to u rant ( if u wish to rant ),
i eat all your food,
put things away in the wrong cupboard,
reorganize ur kitchen , so u never find ur stuff,
find and finish ur hidden stock of junk food and chocolates,
leave all jar lids open, lose ur remote, make u do my laundry,
run up your phone bill....
oooops mebe i shudn't be compiling this list.

oh by the way , mornin!
don't go to the loo yet we're out of toilet paper. and soap...and ... errr...toothpaste.

ps: this post is dedicated to A, R and G.
now all i need is an H :P

kiTcHeN oN fiRE

i'm trying to display my culinary skills. since i seem to be moving from one newly wed couple's house to another, i try to mitigate the disaster of my presence by giving the new brides a break and cooking a bit.

cooking is ofcourse an optimistic term. if thats what u can call my antics in the kitchen...

so we cook. me and my friend. most times i help. and a couple of days back we made rajma. now you know my soft corner for this dish, and seeing that she didnt want to cook the next day, i had the obviously brilliant idea of cooking a lot of food.
and now.
Now you can guess what happened next. we cooked a lot of food. i mean a LOT of food :-/

so now we've been eating rajma for the last 4 days and.... sigh...mebe it'll get done tomoro.

aPiNG aWAy

Man , soon i'll need a new category for these kind of posts :-/

was talking to a couple of friends about their experience when talking to their 'propsects'. some stories were horrifying, some were hilarious and some were just plain sad !

and what wierdos they were !! ok so here's an updated list if you don't want to marry someone. say the word and you can have the other person run screaming in the opposite direction :-/

1. We have too much in common
2. You haven't dressed up enough to meet me
3. I really like you, but i'd like to date for a year before I decide for sure
4. I'm drinking in a bar with a blonde friend of mine. Your too old fashioned to understand american friendships { this was so wierd I didn't even understand what he was trying to say }
5. I need you to be the GM of my family business in India and meet me in the US once in 3 months for about a week. { wtf ???!!?? }
6. I went on a date last week, it didnt work out. how do you feel about a winter wedding ?
7. I don't have time, we can speak only once in a week and that too only if I''m free, which i can't say when I'll be.

and so on...

good lord, do we see a pattern ?? obviously men are devolving into apes now.

toO LaTe aND iN tHE dArk

insomnia attacks.

jeez will you look at the time ? its freakin beyond midnight even in hawai.
the sun has long left my adopted temp country of residence.

i can't sleep. is it the meds? the stress? the weather? the emotional trauma???? { someone finished that last piece of cake i wanted... }
i just can't. and i get up real early too.... sigh.

man i'd give your right leg for some restful sleep. notice how generous i am in offering your leg.. see?

anyways, R notices a change in me. horror of horrors, i can actually stand kids now. infact what's even worse is that i actually find some kids cute. while she insists its my long dormant biological clock ticking, i insist its just a temporary aberration. come on. do YOU think its my biological clock ? do mutant freaks have biological clocks??

somebody please shoot me.

no i mean it. somebody please shoot me. right in the head. perhaps its the long summer i spent with my cousins. hey they weren't half bad. pretty cute too....

oh crap here I go again !!! panic attack !!! when did this happen??? when did i learn to entertain kids, and deal with them and not run screaming from them like a chicken with its head cut off ????

oh no
oh no
oh no.

now that you mention it, the other day when i went with R to the library, i automatically homed in on the child rearing section ....

oh no
oh no
oh no

quick .... somebody get the gun. quick, before it gets worse !

nO moRE crAZy tALK

my friend tells me , not to waste anymore of my life on formal education ( source A.A hey look i quoted you !!! ) and i have to admit, he does make sense.
That surprised me. no no , not that part that he actually made sense ( har de har , don't worry A.A i'm on ur side this time, even if what they say is true... no no they don't say anything THAT bad about you.. well ... actually.... nyways lets get back to the point, or as FM said Need :P )

so i thot of getting another degree, instead of my grandoise plans of doing my phD. and was just mentioning it to my friend, while he says i'd be better of kayaking or horse riding...

oooh me and outdoor sports. that right there is an interesting picture :-/
mebe i'd do it. if i really hated mother nature... mebe we can all go camping and pray we don't burn down half the forest. wud be a miracle. ( if we didn't )


oooooh thats enuf crazy talk for today.

dE riNgiN nEVeR sToPS

nowadays when people actually manage to get me on the phone, they'r pretty surprised.
wow u picked up your phone ! wow ur not dead.
wow your alive. wow hows it that you called???

else its always, you never answer call. you never return calls. your never online.
you never keep in touch.. etc etc etc yada yada yada

and if i did ?
if i spent all my time online? staring at my eternally empty inbox waiting for your one call???
what would you ask me? how i was?
i'll tell u now. i'll either say i was fine. or i'd whine all about how crappy my life was ...

yipee ! wat a fun way of spending a sunday afternoon !!

ok so i chose to log off everything and actually have a life. is that so bad ????
mebe i just didnt want to talk to you. mebe all i wanted was a book and a lil peace and quiet.

ha ! didn't think of that didja ???

uh oh. my phone's ringing again... quick throw it out the window ....

a gOoD sTArT fOr dE dAY

ok just to prove i attract all the morons in the world ... read this.
yes it happened today. no i have no real clue who he is. for all i know he's a stalker.
and yes this IS the reason i hibernate.....

for the record lets call him FM - friggin moron.
i'm as usual QoD.
the stuff in flower brackets is what'm thinking at that time ....
and if you recognize yourself as FM, man i'm sorry but ur too whacked out !!!


********************

FM: hi QoD
me: hi
FM: where r u now. busy?
me: hey how do i know you?
FM: YOU there??
me: sorry cudnt tell from the id
FM: yar i am your junior at sjce
me: oh ok ok. sorry. thot u were my classmate, coz u hav the num 82 in ur id
FM: wat. r u from 82 born people
me: yeah
FM: wats your date of birth
me: lets forget that. so where r u now?
FM: bangalore. lets come to the point { oh whats the point?? }
me: where r u working?
FM: Am not working re. JOB less.. thats the point
me: oh ok
FM: what about you
me: yup me too.right now.waiting to join
FM: where. which industry? or what
me: engg
FM: QoD i heard you did your ms
me: yes u heard right
FM: ohhhhhhhhh. you are funny yar { am feeling pretty gud now, he obv recognizes a gud sense of humour when he sees one }
FM: k i wanted some guidance about that QoD R u busy with some work
me: ya i'm a regular laugh riot
FM: i have seen that you were so fat { WTF???? not feeling so good now am I??? }
and cute also { huh mixed signals to brain. am I happy?? or angry ??? }
me: huh
FM: always
me: wat? wat???? { HUH ??!!?? wat going on here ??? }

FM: what you said
what? I wanted to know your domain in ms and also the scope of research in medical domain
me: image processing { decided to let it go }
FM: Good. you will be of more use for me than { use?? USE ?? }
if oyu dont have any probs { why would i have problems??i live to be of USE }
can you guide me Image processing in what area you did?
me: wow are u a guy?
FM: what do you mean? i dint get you
me: i mean are u a guy or a girl. i can't tell. my responses may vary depending on that :-| { i know ur a moron, but are u a guy moron or girl moron ?? }
FM: Am 100% male
me: well thats gud for u { oh now that explains it all doesn't it ?? }
FM: whats the difference
me: nothing i'll tell u later
me: i dont think i can be of any use to u { caps on USE }
u shud find someone else. prob some thin and ugly person
FM: i am not asking you to be my guide.. in the sense academic
me: yes that is not at all possible. were u in jce?
FM: i asked you about some idea. initial idea
FM: yu are really...
me: i am really??? really wat? { you just go ahead with that sentence.. }
FM: i dont want to scold
me: oh u dont?well i dont want to listen either. well anyways i don't take kindly to being called fat !
FM: oh sorry for that
FM: i didnt mean that you are reall too fat. yu were at that time
me: oh then i guess its fine { yeah as if }
FM: it was just a comment. dodnt take it serious
me: oh ok. now that uve clarified it. sure { i am now on a roll .... }
FM: come to the need

me: need? ok { cudn't care less about your needs.. but whatever... }
FM: tell me. QoD. Hellooooo. r u there QoD. i am in a cyber cafe yar.cant wwait for long time
me: sorry. hey ok getting serious. u shud ask some one else
seriously { coz i'm seriously bored with this conversation }
FM: why
me: or mail me with ur questins and i'll answer i thiink that will save u time. { anything to get rid of you now.. }
FM: k. how much time can you spend now
me: i have to go now....
FM: just ten minutes. can you give me. ten minutes. now.for now
me: ok ok jeeez get a grip man. ok ask away.
FM: later i ll mail with some more doubts { theres a later also??? oh man }
me: ok
FM: k. lets do
me: huh?do wat? { stalker alert !! stalker alert !! }
FM: image processing .. yours { same as above ! same as above ! wake up brain , dammit wake up !!}
me: wat??
FM: nothing out of the point.k
me: huh
FM: i ll get tempted if gals do speak like this.let us be in line. { waaaat ??? }
me: oh yeah let us { huh. friggin pervert }
FM: i asked something
me: u did?
FM: image processing in what area?yours
me: man seriously. do i know you? i feel i would have remembered a character like you
FM: hey. you might have seen me somewhere
me: ok
FM: other than that we dont know each other.
me: ok
FM: speak about the topic. i have your little time. its fine if you can spend some more time also
me: listen man. u tell me what you want to get into. i'll try to explain the process
i dont have time to speak about my stuff { bored. annoyed, getting pissed }
FM: i want to some medical research
me: i have to go now. well i'm not into medical research. so i have no friggin clue
ok bye. gtg

********************
jeez

and this is a normal day for me.....

fOrgiVEneSs iS a mYth

if i ever got married ( ugh just thinking about it gives me the hives.. )
and if my husband cheated on me (?!) , what would i do?

would i sic some egyptian curse on him? would i ask the gods above to shrivel up his... ahem... u know.... and fry them in oil and make him eat them ???
blech!

or mebe i'd get my famous assasin to do it for me ???

or mebe i'd just keel over laughing, coz i'd find the whole thing funny. hillarious. yeah yeah i'm just a laugh riot. i mean i KNOW my life is a farce, ok? what else would i need to prove it???

would i be angry??? probably for a very very short while. i wudnt get mad, i'd get even. i'd stick him for every penny he got. take the house and the boat ( oh yeah there'd be a boat allright ) and leave.
mebe leave with a hunk. since i'd have the boat, i might be able to get someone to come with me. someone with nice abs.

ok is it only me, or is this story getting too detailed????
:P

wOrLd iS nUTs

ok i HAVE to graduate now. from Disaster Queen to CATASTROPHE QUEEN.

i mean. i am so FAR beyond having minor or major trouble in my life....i'm well into
suffering calamities and catastrophes. and the only reason, i can't find a more
appropriate word is coz , i DONT EFFIN know any.

ok i think u got the part that i'm a bit frustrated.
you have NO IDEA what happened to me today. I MEAN TRUST ME. you have NO IDEA.

ok i can't tell you much. but u would have probably guessed that it HAD to do with
the WHOLE EFFIN MARRIAGE thing.
ok so here's the deal. heavily edited .... i'm supposed to be talking to this ... ahem... guy. well jerk mebe a better word for him, but lets decide that later...

and then after 'talking' to me for 2 weeks and after 2 weeks of 'oh i think ur nice' kind of crap, he goes of for the weekend and was apparently a bit indiscrete.
and then ofcourse he has to be 'honest' and tell me about it.

hah !
wonderfull.

to all my moronic relatives who have been so vocal about how the world is filled
suitable 'propsects' from my community .... all i wanted to do right then was show all of them the middle finger.

i mean
coooooommmmmmmmmmmmmeeeee oooooooooooonnnnnnnnnn.

this is what you so optimistically say is arranged?????

what kind of pre process checking do you do???
jeeeeeeeeez man.

i feel like kicking someone's gonads. and you all know who is on the top of the list for that !!!!

fLyiNG oVeR dE cLouDs

i had to move. for the second time. and finally i'd be where i was heading all along. but u know me, things are never that simple.

so i missed my flight, by a friggin 3 minutes.
and then i waited a cool 3 hours. well i didnt let all of it go to waste. i read the remaining part of my book. sad i know.


on the way over, i looked out the window. and guess what? guess what?
we were over the clouds and .. and there was the moon right over there, lighting up the clouds. and it was like flying over silver cotton. or some such wierd thing.
ok i'll try to describe it to u.
see, there was no city lights to dim the moonlight. and it was really really bright.
and then... and then...it lit up all the clouds and formed valleys and shadows and lit plans and so on.
good lord it was the most beautiful thing i had ever seen in my entire life !! jeez man. maybe i shud be glad i missed my flight.

dRunKeNneSS iS cOntAgiOUs

the first time i went to a pub. well many.
actually we went club hopping. many pubs and a disc to top the evening of.

ofcourse i didn't drink.
jeez man, can you imagine the disaster i could have visited on the world, if drunk ??

so i spent the evening observing my increasingly drunk friends, video taping their antics and gawking at the rest of the whites.

i did enjoy most parts of the evening. the limo, the loud offkey singing of old hindi songs, the hand in hand stroll down the streets and finally the dancing. ofcourse it was a bit odd. since i was the only single person in the disc, nay perhaps in the entire city of denver out for the night... i did get elbowed a couple of times. some frantically dancing female did try to sock me in the eye a couple of times...
sigh.. what i wudnt give for electric stunner sometimes..
:P


the best part of the day was the next day. now did that make any sense?? perhaps not. did i mention the getting drunk through osmosis part? i did feel that sometimes.... it was a very pleasant sensation. the only indication that something was wrong was when i was laughing. and didnt stop. :-/
well anyways, the next day i was able to clearly give everyone a detailed account of their actions the previous day. including the guy who pretended to be an airplane and flew around the room. :P

hey, who needs to drink to have fun ? watching all you drunks is good enough for me
;P

kHudA jaAnE

another report of a tragedy. this time a friend's friend. went swimming with a group of friends in baroda. and well.. didnt make it. i think a 21 year old lad.

now all of you who know me , know i DO NOT deal well with such news. mind goes into instant shit down. and i really don't know what to tell what my friend. except that i'm sorry for her loss.

but then i'm reminded of a lot of things i'm sorry for. last year a classmate of mine had a similar fate. at the time i was up to writing some sort of eulogy for her. i think. but this time my mind is such a blank i can't even do that. i can't think of the horror of the parents. the rest of their lives they would spend saying 'if only'.

i think those are the worst words in the english language.

urgh.
i wish i was an ostrich.

liFe iN mOroCCo , mOviES aNd mE

now that you know that i'm in colorado right now, ( with friends that i love a lot :P {shameless flattering } ) my lifestyle has definitely improved. i watch atleast 4 movies a week. unfortunately not all of them good.
i watched this movie bachna haseeno whatever. the movie was okie dokie. but then i love this song. you must have heard it. khuda jaane. once i get a good youtube link i'll probably post it.
if you haven't heard it, then... hah ! finally i know something before you ! yeah for me !!

i just love the melody ...this composer rocks !!

and then i watched dark knight. and you know i've always been a little in love with batman ( is it only me or did you notice i use the 'L' word too much nowadays ??!?... the effect of my hosts ??!? )
this movie was pretty good too. i don't really remember much of the first movie except that i really liked batman and was drooling throughout the movie. hmmmm come to think about it, i wasn't drooling all that much this time, but mebe that was because most of the scenes had the joker in a close face shot and man he was good. i mean bad.. i mean a good bad guy ( make sense? but then when did i ever... )

and so there were the movies.. now about the morocco thing. naah am too lazy to write about it right now. mebe the next post.

ciao

rEacHiNg thE heAVenS

man its been a long break. and when i say long.. its been really long..
like-the-time-taken-to-have-a-baby kind of long...

whoa ! i didn't have a baby. where did you get that whacked out idea from ? ( thats me trying to include some american slang (really ?!?) )
anyways ive been around a bit. not a whole lot mind you. just a bit.

some people thought i was dead. some people thought i was in depression. some even came home to check if i had absconded and i had to really work hard to convince my family i hadn't turned into a hippie. my phone was off, i was offline from all social networking sites and for a few days i even stopped checking my email.
why ?
just because.
and i have to admit.
it was heaven.

man i wish i was born a hundred years earlier.

well the world didnt't stop spinning. ofcourse most of my friends left me ( as in just gave up on me and now they refuse to talk to me.. ) and my family .. sigh.. lets not go there yet. i think the only thing my mom has NOT yet done is call the national guard.
oh well.

anyways, after bouncing around a bit, am now in colorado springs with friends.
newly married friends.
ahem.
yes it is EXACTLY what your thinking. :D ok ok now Mr X my friend from colorado springs is gonna read this, so i gotta be on my toes. hey i love ya Mr X. and thanx a million for having me over ! and congrats on your wedding !! :)
but still it is EXACTLY what your thinking.

well you guys know me, ( well you should, go read all my previous posts.... now. )
and you know i'm the symbol of hallmark kind of love. the original mushy cupid and pink bunnies and cuddly puppies kind of love.
YEAH RIGHT.

but seriously. its nice to see people happy and am really glad i'm here.
besides the place. is AWESOME.
ok i haven't seen much except for the sky. but what a sky !!!

its AWESOME folks. now this place is a flatland. with blue mountains in the horizon. and you don't have any tall buildings to hamper your view of the sky. so trust me when i tell you that the sky is amazing. ( really need some new adjectives don't I ? ) there are clouds of all shapes and colors and then the rainbows. wow let me not pontificate ( jeez where do i get these words. what a geek ! ) on the rainbows.
did i mention that i love looking at the sky.

oh btw many people hate me now for dropping off the face of the earth. in my defense. i had my reasons. they may not make any sense to you, but they exist.
and i'm NOT telling you. they are my reasons. MINE. so BACK OFF. ( sorry the prozac is acting up again ... :-/ )
suffice to say, i think i'm back.
i think.
you'll know when/if you see my next post.

anyways i want to end this post, with wishing my newly married friends all the happiness in the world. may their world sparkle like....like... hmmm give me a minute here.. like the stars of the universe (???!)( hey gimme a break, thats the best i can do here ). but the wishes are sincere and stay.
and i love the colorado springs sky.
and i'm happy to be back to write my dignified articles ( ?random crap ) which you are smart enuf (?? stupid enuf) to read.

oh well .. yaaaawn... its sooooo gud to be back
:)
QoD

doN't eVer fOrGEt

its been years
i had forgotten

the laughter.. the ribbing, the teasing, the cycle stand

i had forgotten

the exams , the cribbing, the classes, the notes passed, the hostel

its been years
i had forgotten

the birthdays, the gifts, the perfumes and the sari

the fights, the making up after the fights

the picnics, the trips, the flat tyres ( mostly mine), the chocolate milk shakes,the songs
lord the continous singing :P

too many years
i had forgotten

the hope , the laughter, the waiting to finish college, the jobs, the 10 buck masala dosas

the 13 masala papads, the canteen chai, the gazillion fwds, the wierd emails

it has been years
i had forgotten
good lord so many years..

how could i forget? mostly the laughter , always the laughter ...
must never forget, coz i dont think ive laughed like that and laughed so much in years...
too many years..

mY b'DaY

it was the best of times

it was the worst of times


one of the most poignant starting lines in a book and perfect to describe my week.

my b'day week. i had my b'day a couple of days back and i gave myself the best gift possible. a complete hibernation from the world. i didnt check my email, didnt care about my phone. i didnt come online and didnt reply to emails. it was like i dropped off the face of the earth. and i have to admit , it was glorious !

strong words :-/ but i wasn't depressed or sad or didnt feel despondency.. oh hell i can't spell. i was content to read my books. to sleep, eat and read my beloved books. granted they had to be done online. i listened to peaceful music and i didnt have to deal with anything i didnt want to.

in a way it was a brief respite. i know i have to get back to it tomoro. the world. i cannot hide forever. but it was a good break. i know i need a longer.

sometimes i've thot assylums are probably the best places in the world for sane people. how can people ever get bored with solitude. if they have books that is?

i can say my 25th b'day was awesome. coz i spent all night reading and then all day sleeping. yes i can say that it was truly bless'd.

aaaw jeez i gotta go back to school tomoro... until the next break i can have ....

kiLlEr beEs

in exactly 3 days it will be one whole yr since i came to this .. place.

now i wish i cud pontificate ( a new word i learnt from another fav prof ) about how i never realized how time flew and all that. but the truth is. i WAS aware. every excruciating minute of it. every day i was aware of the minutes i spent away from home and as snoopy says, the mere comprehension of actually having spent a yr out here makes me wanna bang your head on the nearby wall.
ok ok snoopy didnt say that, but its just sounds way cooler if i quote him.. ya know?

i think i have reached the pinnacle of success in my life. why? coz i have started a blood feud with this annoying... person. actually i seem to have started blood feuds with many annoying... persons. except that this one is different. this one is hates me too. the rest are just nincompoop dodos who dont know a blood feud when it hits them in the face.
ha ! u blundering fools atlast i have an arch enemy worthy of my time.

ok i admit it. all the hibernation seems to have got to me. i'm wierder than usual. must be all the disney cartoons i've been watching lately.
yaaaawn , okies back to sleep. i tell ya. bears have got the right idea.

u shud read this comic strip everyday. agnes. its funny. i mean its as funny as calvin sometimes. kids that have a killer sense of irony. that and chocolate chip cookies make life worth living :P

mOnrOViLle

so i try to go shopping. and what happens ???
we get lost.
well not lost.

but we got off the bus about i/2 hour away from the bus stop and ... and than wat !!
we trudged the rest of the way, singing wayward songs... and seeing our life pass us by.. boy was it freezing. and there we were walking in the middle of a snowstorm and trying to keep our limbs from falling off.

it was funny.

well the gud news is that i finally have a coat. woohoo.
and my fees for next sem will be paid off !

woohoo !

i'M dOne

stick a fork in me, am done !!
whew its been a tough couple of months. like we said .. ( thats me and my multiple personalities.. yup they'r back )

wooohooo !! am done. and i don't even care a damn about the coming cold and long winter months !!! :P

so what if i got crazy morons around me who call me unspeakable names !! so what if i got work ahead of me and no chance of a break. so what if my colleague next to me in the lab is trying to turn me into a true blue christian ??? so what if my mother back home is desperately trying to off me. well not kill me, no. but trying to get rid of me. well u know...

so what ??/
a lesser person might despair ! but not me !! woohoo. am done.

ouch. i just tripped over the chair while i was doing the single-boy-am-i-glad-to-be-done dance.

QoD

cOnVerT

its always strange, when a well meaning christian tries to convert you.
i mean has it happened to you yet ?? u shud try it sometimes.

they'r very friendly folk you know. and i think its part of they'r thing. u know get more sheep. all very noble ofcourse. but not helping the global balance at all.
its sad that these gentle people, are so mixed up. i mean i'm sure they'r a fine folk, but its ridiculous. them trying to convert everyone around themselves.

unfortunately for my shepherd friend, i am a lil too opiniated to be swayed. and besides i'm part agnostic, part fanatic when it comes to this one topic.
no way am i falling for some cockammammy story on how one religion is better than the other. if you want my opinion ( and am sure u do.. yeah right )
there's one god and if he didnt exist it wud be necessary to invent him. its just one giant coping mechanism , and if you got time and your interested i got this fabulous idea on how energy is concentrated and becomes god and how our brains control our reality...

thats what happened you know...
i ended up giving the poor guy a lecture, on how all gods are one. and the universe is just made up of energy. i did get a ride home though.
mebe that was time well spent for him..

wiErD fRiENds

so a friend of mine pings me after a long time..
just to say hi.

i got an exam due the next day. right? so am a bit terse. i mean i'd LIKE to get all chummy with you pal , but hey take it up with my prof. or mebe my moronic project teammates who decide they'd rather party than do anything else ...

ok ok its just the frustration talking..

anyways
so he pings me. (yes its a he, we have now established that)

"hey"
me: "hey"
"how you doing?, by the looks of your blog, your not doing well"
me: eh what ?
"yeah your pathetic "
me: "whaaaat ?, excuuuse me". "oh are we doing that now??" "ok i think your a **&%^%* &*%^$ *&@%&&!"

lets just say you don't want the rest of the conversation. its def PG rated. :P
i mean whats with these wierdos??? ofcourse the more pertinent question is. what the heck are they doing on my friends list ?
:)
its funny. oh come on u know its funny. just like that time you told me you had carpal tunnel syndrome, i thought it was a joke and i insisted you type out the entire chapter 3 back to me just for kicks... ok that was not that funny...

but then seriously. wats with guys ?? are they born morons??? and the explanation was
"you jumped the gun i was just saying your circumstances are pathetic."

yeah like that helps a lot.

with the mood i'm in right now. i could just kick someone's ass. mebe yours. mebe the chinese guy sitting next to me. i don't know. i could just do it ya know.

iT's hErE

sigh , its here... the snow. too early.. much too early.

i got only one thing to say

whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy


aaaargh, i need to sleep.

just finished the demo yesterday, it wasn't that bad, not as bad as i thought it would be...feel like my term hols have already started ! yikes hakf the day is already gone !! ok gotta get back to work... see ya in 2 weeks


^_^


its the home stretch...

fiNaLs aRe hEre

being a person with OCD , doesn't help at all... ok ... so i started the story from the middle , but isn't that the best way to tell a story ???
start at the middle, go any which way you please based on a random prob generator and then hit the beginning somewhere along the way....

if your lucky, your listeners will be so muddled you can then ask them for lunch, then they might just look dazed and hand you the money.. or bring you lunch. either ways your good. ;P

ok i've started rambling again, not a good sign..this is what happens , end of sem..

this week has been gud, all my old friends started pingin me , one by one.. u know .. friends from my old gang.. reminds me of how close we were. ok we used to bitch a lot. but its like the siblings thing.. u know like brothers and sisters.. have you watched that show? we're all like that...

yeah i miss them, and i don't know when i'd get to see them again ... everyone keeps asking me how come i'm not going home.. i don't know. the thought never crossed my mind. am sure when next summer i'll look equally puzzled. hey what do i do at home? when i got research piled up all around me out here.. mebe its coz i JUST CANNOT imagine booking a two way ticket to go home..

but all thats besides the point.. so everyone is going home..for the winter.. for the christmas.. hols and cheer and all that bunk..
thats nice.

even ppl who went 6 months ago are going home.. thats nice..

last 2 weeks of school and things are heating up. its great. but this sem was pretty slow compared to last sem.. don't even rem the last month of spring.. but here i am, excruciatingly aware of each minute...
well its the last sem of crazy subjects i hope.. nowhere closer to the answer than when i started out.. but then we don't want to start talking about that ! wrong time wrong place..

ok ok
am going
have rambled enough for today.
you'll get a disaster update after all the exams are done :P

have a gud dec folks.. 07 is almost over and boy was it a ride !
QoD

hArd tO sTAy aWaKE

pufff ... uffff

man either i am really outta shape, or I've lost it. i cudnt walk much today... from the bus stand to school. am not that bad usually. i can usually make it to class.

think its the old problem thats come back. i think i'm really sick. no no ! not that way u perverts.
i mean i think i'm ill. one of the worst things is i can't go running home to mommy now. i gotta somehow survive out here..

its not that bad. lot of ppl get sick. no am not trying out for the martyrs awards...
not being brave or anything. ofcourse i am incredibly stupid. never take my pills when i shud. just too forgetful. more imp things in life. like sleeping and gazing up at the ceiling. i need to get out of my room. had enuf of it...

yaaaawn am tired. i need to sleep. bunked classes today. to sleep. 3 more weeks ppl ... 3 more weeks..

bLaCK FriDaY

i went shopping today and the whole mass consumerism ? it drove me nuts !

it was insane ! the place just sucked the energy out of me !! i cudnt believe the ppl running around , buying stuff as if it was paper clips.. no seriously !! u shud have seen the bags.. and am sure half the stuff they wudnt even need.
talking about stuff ppl don't need, you shud meet my roommate. i contend that ppl don't need half the stuff they own. and if you've seen her, you've probably seen it all... now seriously tell me. does anyone really care that i don't have more than 20 shirts and invariably repeat them after 20 days... considering that i go home only once in 3 days now.. i don't think it even matters....
i don't think i need that many clothes or shoes or jackets.. i don't need color coordinated stuff.. pink shoes for pink bags ? and matching earrings to boot ??? jackets in different shades of colors ?? and socks to match ??? who the heck cares !! and is that the only way to make yourself feel better?

having better stuff. applying gunk to our faces. wearing pretty jewelry ....ugh ! granted once in a while i DO like to dress up and feel nice. but thats more of a novelty. i wud rather feel better about myself if i solved complex code. or if i got a 100 in all my assignments .. THAT is more important right now. somehow. if i did a thesis worthy of some research.. that wud be way too cool..

THAT is important...

i have to admit. i caved. completely in a couple of hours. lost my bag. roamed half the mall searching for it... looking very forlorn , coz i had bought this ONE THING and then promptly lost it.found my bag. came home and slept for 5 straight hours. i bought one pair of shoes. woohooo my one victory against shopping :P
yeah yeah i know its pathetic ...
i think i'll go back to the time tested model ... get my mom to shop for me !!!
it can't go wrong.. ofcourse occasionally i do end up with bright purple tank tops ...or fiery green skirts...or shoes that i wudnt be caught dead in...or shirts that i wud rather see burnt, than worn by anyone... ( ok ok i know awright !)

sigh.. i really need to buy my own stuff don't i ? go to a shop and peruse through millions of racks of clothes .. oh curse the variety that exists for females !!! aah well mebe purple IS my color ??? mebe i cud learn to love yellow shirts ???

ugh !

hey my code in 551 now works !!! now i wonder if it wud work better if i moved from the pure eigensubspace to a discriminant subspace. or mebe i shud really try multiclass support vector machines...

ps: happy thanksgiving again folks.. hope u still have ur mind after the mind numbing shopping spree !!!

sTuDentS oF tOdAY

i like this ...

its kinda creative ...





what is it ???? to be student today ???
i bet ya that cmu is whole lot different.. study only 3 hours a day !! and work only 2 !! thats unheard of out here..
me?
i completely cut my eating times. i eat at my desk when i find food...
i cut my sleeping time. i sleep bout 5 hours a day on average...

i spend atleast 15 hours studying+working+homework+meetings and the rest ofcourse just goes...
1.5 hours chatting on gtalk
3 hours class
0.5 hour email
3 hours on internet
1.5 hr commuting

do the math !!!
i got 29.5 hours in my day !!!

and trust me when i say this.. i dont work as hard as some people do...
now am so starved for time. that i stay back in school and save up on that one hour of commuting...

hApPy pLaCEs

i'm in love

love with a song.

happens once in a while.
i think its the insane need of a human to be in love with something or the other.. i was thinking of all my posts.. naaah i don't have the patience to read them..
i was thinking of that one day when i was enjoying the sun and the skies...

and the blue blue sky and thinking of the song i was in love with.

hey, if ppl can irrationally fall for someone ... i can fall for a song can't i ?
no not the singer. just the song. not even the voice of the song, but the song. its existence in the world proves that beauty can be wrought out of nothing. and as long as ppl continue to cr8 such beauty there is hope yet for mankind :P

ok call me a hopeless romantic. but only in this regard !!! ha ! just coz i believe there is hope yet.
close ur eyes and listen to the song... and imagine ... blue blue skies...
and birds.. blue birds flying lazily across that sky. of white puffy clouds. and then imagine that you cud sing with a voice straight from the heavens and that u sat on a mountain top with a rusty ol' guitar and strummed to ur hearts content...

and there'd be a lake nearby where the sky wud be reflected perfectly ...
oh wait i think i got a picture which resembles this slice of heaven :P




so imagine ur there, u've got a cup of chai... and ur singin this song.

now u know i'm in love.
in love with a song .......

sOmEwHERe

perhaps you've heard this song before ... perhaps you've not.

but there's something in this guys voice that moves us..
apparently he's dead and died at a young age.. reminds me of a friend we lost over the summer....



reminds us that there is some beauty in the world after all , and anyone can create it..

god bless ya'll over the hols and be safe...

QoD

laST stAnD

Its the last couple of days before the sem ends...
last 2 weeks to be exact. don't even know where the days went. i swear it was all a blur..

its time. to take a stand before the approaching enemy .. to stand firm and look at it in the eye and not give an inch...

OR throw your weapons to the ground, hold on to your hat for dear life and run as fast as you can. now is NOT the time for yapping, silly ! get going. run ! before he can get you...
:P

oh well i was born a coward.. i cudnt stand exams.. or final demos..
last night i slept in my lab. looks like i'm moving into the lab....
Prof was right, this is turning into a nightmare.

i don't know how much will get done... and i don't know if its worth my sanity. but am sure glad i dropped that course, though i wish i had taken a mini in the first half... then i cud have afforded to fund myself next semm and wudnt have had a course hanging over my head.....

but thats enuf of whining. i need to make sure my shoes are in order so i can make a dash for it....
:P

wish me luck ppl.. and gud luck to u too.. if uve got something major coming up as well...

iNtErviEW bEgOnE

i hate interviews. i don't perform well , as a general rule... I know something , i freeze up. and completely go blank. u know those interviews where they just want you to keep trying till u get somewhere? man those are soooo not for me ...
i keel over and fall apart. and its really a sad sight !! pathetic. a grown woman falling apart.

one of my worst interview questions was "what is a sine wave" and i started dumbly at the female. WAT A DORK !! ofcourse i knew wat a sine wave was. and by all means she was a biology major. perhaps that was her toughest math question. but for the life of me i could not come up with an answer. i just froze completely and to add injury to insult i had travelled miles for that interview. a couppla hundred.

so the saga continues out here. i hate interviews and normally would avoid them like the plague.

hey i can work dammit. with all my modesty , let me tell you that i can work. day and night and my results aint that bad either. i clip on at a decent pace.
but interviews? just had my first telephonic interview and i have to say, some of the questions were really silly if i had done my basic preperation. no no, thankfully i was not asked to explain a sine wave, but i was asked explain how the z transform is mapped graphically to a fourier transform

aaaaaack.
and i was like .... uuuuuuhhhhh what do you mean?
and obviously he explained and i was like.. man i shud know this stuff.

damn.
but then ... if i think about it a bit, its like i'm sabotaging myself at every
point.
mebe i DON't WANT a job. mebe all am doing is pretending to try and keep failing so that i got a legit excuse for not working.. so that i dont feel guilty..

ugh....too..... much... psychology.
brain... overloadin......

ofcourse the pathetic part is , if u really really wanted to get in. its pretty easy to get into half these places.. all u had to do was read a couple of things before the interview to get the brain working. and review some basics...
which ofcourse. am too lazy to do. think i gave about 8 interviews so far. it looks more and more like my undergrad.. the gud thing about mathworks is , they didnt ask me if i had a personal web page. thats the gud thing.
i hate companies that ask me if i have a personal web page...

mY sChOoL

woweeeeeee

here's something i never knew !!

My dept. ok ok the ece dept of CMU ? is ranked 4th for phd !!!
WOW
i mean. think again. WOW we beat MIT.

read it here
College rankings

we came in 4th in the electrical and 8th or so in the computers section.
THIS IS AWESOME !

and we didnt do so bad in other areas also.. 6th in robotics. infact we are the only school that shows up twice in the computers list ??? (but mebe i had myopia :P)

I am sooo proud of my school today !

on another note i think i got some gud news...
i think i got a phd seat in florida. its a small school ...in many ways a complete opposite of cmu.. but then i think i won't lose my sanity there. AND i may not go bald.
now thats surely an incentive !!!

:P

wiERdOs LikE mY fRieND

what kind of madness is this

you should read this - Arbit Articles

now sometimes we are overcome by some weird desire to embarrass the heck out of our fellow tortured creatures... and when that urge comes we shud just go and bang our heads against the wall... Dr acharya, thnx for the kind words.. and consider banging your head against the wall so that you don't repeat it !!!
:P

yeah yeah i cant take a compliment gracefully..

eAt oUT

Its been a while since i actually wrote something..
all of one week.

seems like one my blessed mater stops annoying me, i don't have much grievance with the universe.

now what i did notice is this... there are some people and then there are some people..
amazingly vague isn't it? :P
well there is this guy. he's sitting next to me right now in class... and i feel amazingly clandestine, posting this with him right next to me .. :P
but i think in 2 months of school, he's spent every single day eating free food in school. every SINGLE day.

not bought food a single day. not cooked not shopped. every single day find out where you get free food, in school .. and then go have it.

amazing. u just have to appreciate some people who get around. you just have to.

cOmE oN oVeR

i like this song even if the video is a bit weird and more like the home video version

so i don't feel so great nowadays.. and i'm trying to make myself feel better by listening to such kind of music...
but its a nice song... was always a fan of rob thomas :P

TrOuBLe wiTh a T

am exhausted would do anything for a good nights rest where i don't have to worry about grades homeworks projects the future , correction the increasing black hole that seems to be my future... yaaaawn

it seems like once you start staying late beyond 5 in the college then time just flies.

supposedly time flies when your having fun, but it also flies when your in deep deep trouble.

had another one of those today. think i royally blew it. i don't know what i was blabbering. i'm sure that's not what i want to do either. why do we even apply to these extremely inappropriate positons?
why do they even call us???

wierdness just scaled new heights in my life.

on the other side of the globe a friend of mine , L has gone nuts. she is in deep... DEEP trouble and boy did she dig her own grave.
this is just not good.

NigHT

it must be beautiful night outside. it must be.

i wudn't know coz ive spent the last 12 hours inside my lab. and all i can see of the outside world is a tiny slit through the window. this is a nice slow song don't you think? i just remembered that no matter how much i crib and no matter how much i whine,
some things are still good.




i was asked a question, are you a 'tiger' or a 'eyeore'
and for those who ARE puzzled i'm obviously referring to Winnie the Pooh !

i think this is an excellant question.

oh by the way found this hillarious link out here
you MUST read it.. i think the guy is SO spot on !! gud to find the guys are finally catching on ;P

iNcuRioUS

some people have left us for good. i can't imagine anyone with that much self discipline and with such low levels of curiosity.

I mean if someone had asked me specifically NOT to do something. i think that would be the first thing I'd do.

I mean come on.
If someone says don't read my blog... you just gotta ! right?
i mean u just gotta !! and requests me damned !!

i wudn't be able to stop twitching otherwise !\
oh well self restraint was always a remarkable trait i admired in others but could never practice ;P
and boy have i gotten into trouble for that !

dAnCE

a song i came across ...
and just to get the previous blogs of my front page :P

this is a dedication to all my friends who got engaged recently ! ;P
A, R and P.. cheers !!

here's to you :D hope u have a gr8 journey ahead ...

nEw YoRk neW yORk

New york is amazing. It instantly reminds you of the sex and the city show, u know what I mean?
All ladies dressed up in Jessica parker kind of clothes. People everywhere walking where they gotta go. Shops all over. Clothes, shoes, just STUFF. Awesome stuff no less. Expensive stuff. Old old buildings, brand new glass one’s. a hand jutting out of a 18th story window holding a cigarette. Rooftops that have mini trees jutting skyward. Snippets of sky between buildings. So many buildings. 40 stories high 70 gettsomething. In your heart. Being an engineer you gotta feel something. So much was done with just our imagination. Call it awesome or call it evil, but its something man dreamt up and built. And the sheer energy of the place ! coming from Muscat, mangalore, mysore, Bangalore, Pittsburgh. This place is unique. More like Mumbai. Since ive never lived in Mumbai I guess I can’t really tell which has more restless , pent up energy. But I guess both of us need a place like this. A buzz giving place. Where everyone comes and dreams big and does something of their lives. I guess we need a couple more too. Bangalore is trying, but I don’t know if it can ever be this way. Ther’s too much resentment. Too much frustration. They don’t embrace chaos as they seem to in Mumbai. It’s a sleepy place forced to become a bustling city. And everyone hates it. But in NY and Mumbai. Everyone loves it. Every single person living here. Loves it.
And the people look thev’e come straight out of a catalogue.
i had an interview in a company. The buzz at that place was just too much ! I felt like ugly betty coming to work for the fashion magazine !! literally !
is ny for me?? I don’t know. I thought I was always the dreamy kind of person, the person who loves to sit alone and ponder and write a verse here and there??
But I also get bored easily. And I need a constant adreline rush in my life.
So is this the place for me?? I don’t know. Well I haven’t got the job offer yet. And just wanting SOME job has nothing to do with getting one. There is so much parallelism I can draw from the other side of my life it almost hurts my sides. From laughing too hard I mean :P

All I can say is that its been an interesting experience. And here I am in another airport bound for another interview. In my sandals. I mean literal bathroom slippers in a salwar. Hey I can traipse across America in my salwar if I want to. Isn’t what this place is all about. Freedom?? ;P to look as scruffy as you want to and no one cares. So I’m in my salwar and if I didn’t have that I’d wear my scruffy shoes and my dirty jeans and I’d go. Coz I really can’t deck up for a flight halfway through America. Tired doesn’t even begin to describe it. And something happens you know. That distracts you.

mEetiNg sOmeOnE

You know wats surprising? The geeky people have girlfriends. No , its not surprising that they HAVE girlfriends. What’s surprising is all those girls look the same! Ok , so I don’t know if this is something weird that I noticed or just some weird thing about the universe.. but I could swear that the last 4 guys I met? Their girlfriends all looked alike. The more I tried the more confused I became. They all had the same hairstyle and I think that’s what threw me off. Research says if everyone on the planet had the exact same hairstyle, we would find it real darn near impossible to recognize people. That’s the human system for ya. Now, don’t get me wrong. These girls were pretty. Much prettier than I can ever claim to be, but they all looked like they were churned out from a factory.
Weird huh ?

But what do u do when ur civilization churns out generic models of people. People who are all the same. One indistguishable from the other ? well I guess the question is , are we losing our personalities? Are we blending in too much with each other and going from a black and white world to just plain brown?

Girls are funny creatures. Guys are not funny creatures , guys are just plain weird ! :P
Ok ok I may be a bit biased and heaven knows I don’t do chick lit. but I like to think guys think a lot less than girls do. They don’t have complex emotional analysis happening in parallel in their brains at every situation. They don’t search for hidden meanings to situations. Well the majority don’t ! I’m sure u’ve come across the occasional touchy guy who gets offended real easily coz he ‘thinks’ you’ve ‘meant’ something when all you were doing was simply cracking a real sad joke.
Now am not saying guys aren’t sensitive. Peel away the layers and damn near everyone is. I haven’t met a single person till date who did not have their sensitive side. I just think some people are better at hiding it than most. And that we don’t show it to all people we like. We just show it to some people. How we choose that set of people? well mebe those folks were just plain unlucky :P
Then ofcourse there is the other side of it. Just coz the entire population on this planet has their sensitive side, does not mean they’r equally sensitive TO other people. We’ve all met real jerks in our lives. And if I said they had a sensitive side too, u’d probably spit in my face. But trust me they do. They just never learnt to bother much bout other people. Mebe that’s why together takin all of them into account, we have the weirdest bunch of friends. Geeks, total opposite of geeks, people who are forever broke, people who are stinkin rich, Misers, extreme spendthrifts, jerks, show offs, etc etc

oh where was i going with all this ???

fRiENds

A is back ^_^ from india .. and everyone bring out the bubbly coz this time a really close friend is engaged..
well almost engaged, but then any excuse to celebrate right ??
:)

its nice to have our friends back..

yipee

tV sHOwS

its late night, am surfing through the channels and guess what i come upon ???
this crazy show where this lady is.. a reality show mind you where this lady is gonna decide who is gonna be the love of her life.

ofcourse what's different you ask ??? lol the funniest part is she's trying to decide and the contestants are both men and women !!!
ROFL.
man i have to admit i watched the show for a while and it was SO FREAKIN FUNNY !!!

ha ! the crazy stuff they show on tv these days !! and ppl watch it !!

bLue bLUe sKY

if there's one reason I'd ever move to Texas, it would be for the sky. coming from New York, the first thing i notice when am riding through the dreary landscape, easily notice is the sky. completely blue with clouds across like cotton wads.. or cotton candy. white cotton candy.

its just so vast. u can spend hours gazing at the sky. its plainly awesome. impressive. and so so blue.

sure New York will impress you with its engineering... thats impressive.
but here?
there's only the sky and sometimes it strikes me. mebe its enough.

mebe that's all i need. thats what i'm missing.

bUsy sUNdAY

this time i was worried. i was really cutting it a bit close.

here i was, with no phone charger in NY. no internet. no battery charge left on my phone. about to go to houston.
this is how it started. the plan was

a cab would pick me up from the hotel. i'd catch a flight to houston from JFK airport and a cab would pick me up from the houston airport and drop me off at the houston hotel. ok sounds good. everything was arranged.
the only prob was i didnt have either of the cab numbers on me. i didnt have internet to check any info. i didnt have the boarding pass. i was not sure i was SUPPOSED to catch the flight at JFk ??
the only thing i knew. LUCKILY that i was catching a jet blue flight. luckily.

so there i was standing in the lobby of the hilton in NY with a voucher. who do i call ? where's the first cab ???
ok so i asked the concierge. ok she knew who to call. and she called and i got the cab.

next problem, am i even supposed to go to JFk ??? i know i had said that but i had just glanced through the flight plan the previous day. in a rush. i cud be blinking wrong !!

man that was a tense 40 min ride. ok i walk to the jet blue counter and the entire queue i'm wondering if theyr gonna tell me i'm in the wrong airport...
wth !

anyways i get the ticket. ok gud. am in. high five !!
:P

ok now am calm for the next 4 hours in the flight. as we reach houston i reember. i don't have my phone anymore. and i don't know where to go.
uh oh

so i land and get my bags. i see a sign that says taxi.

is it a taxi thats coming for me??

is it a limo ??? who knows where i shud stand???

i go wandering around a bit. waiting here , waiting there. no sign.

uh oh,
no internet. no emergency number i can call. no phone to call from.

before the last of the battery dies on my phone, i switch it on and remember the first number i can find. its the only texas number i have. coz i figure that someone may allow me to use their phone, to call one number. u know like in a police lock up.
ok so i memorize this one texan number i know, austin actually. ofcourse calling this number is a lil sticky. asking for help from this person is a lil sticky. avoids me like the plague. probably doesn't like me all that much.
but will do. desperate times call for desperate measures. :-/

ok in case i missed the limo who's number i don't have. do i know where i'm supposed to go ?? in houston ???
hmm its not the mariott. thats where i stayed the last time... hmm i was sure its a place thats name starts with an H. mebe i cud ask someone for a list of all hotels that start with an H...
and while these thoughts are running through my head and am convassing the area for a friendly face who's phone i cud borrow. my plan was to call this person, ask him to login to my email and check the details in my inbox... gud plan huh? luckily i didnt need it.

luckily i had like 20 sec of phone battery left and this driver called me. the limo driver.
and thats how i got here. now

hotel derek.
starts with an H ?? ha !

so much for my memory. i can just see myself roaming the streets of houston searching for a hotel that starts with H.
how do i GET Into these scrapes????

i shudn't be allowed outside my house in public.

i have NO IDEA what i'm doing across seven seas in a strange country without enough money.

well atleast i'm in. u shud google the hotel derek. its an AWESOME place ! and for the first time in 3 hotels i have free internet. YAHOO !!
more posts WILL follow.

coz i got no phone. and nothing else to do ;P

giRLs iN lOvE

R's brain has turned into complete mulch.

apparently she is now crying over her fiance's absence.

gawd wat happens to women when they fall in love ??? do they all turn into direct train wrecks?? why ???
she's just knows him from the last 2 weeks and now??? she's weeping buckets at his leaving..

and she baked a cake for him !!! and sent it in the courier !! too much !!! i know that stingy, miserly female would never have done it for anyone else...
in her place i might not have done it either... baking is a lil too much huh ...

and i can't believe this was the same girl who scorned the rest of our roomies for being too mush !! she kept saying how she could never understand it. and blah blah..
hmmm i think when the serious types fall in love, their brains turn into complete sod !!! i can't imagine. was i like this too ?????
sadly i think yes. lol

oh well atleast someone is eating some cake...

aNoTHeR wEeKeND oF fUn

am off on another jaunt. this one is infinitely more painful than the one i had last week.

its crazy. i have to be in school at 5:30 tomoro. i can't even imagine at what time i have to get up so that i get here at that time.

groan... why am i always getting into such scrapes.

don't worry you'll get a LOT of stories... this time i'll be stuck in 4 airports over the weekend AND with no one to call and annoy...
u can imagine i'll be doing some serious random typing :P

pArTY TimE

there's always something going on isn't there?

ok ppl its time to break out the champagne bottle.

Mr Sept is getting married !! to a very nice mysore girl it seems ..
aaaha !!! seems like Mr S has not lost anytime at all !!

apart from the broken heart from his rejection.... (sorry can't say that without grinning :D ) lets all stand up and congratulate the chappie. Angel guy as we call him affectionately is about to get hitched. surely he deserves a pat on the back ??

now coming to the point as to how i came to know this, ever since Mr S rejected me, apparently its 'hot' news in m'lore. ESP his reasons for doing it. why people are SO jobless in m'lore is beyond me. bank managers no less !
isn't it funny ? you walk into a bank to withdraw some money for your monthly telephone bill and your friendly neighbourhood bank manager says - "have you heard? the guy who rejected your daughter is getting married to XYZ"
ROFL man nothing can be funnier !!
apparently everyone thinks its their duty to inform me of his life events.

i DO NOT understand why they think i wud be interested. but heck now that i know....
mebe i shud do the jiggle dance ??? some ppl are just plain wierd. keep giving us wierd pieces of info we wud never need. god bless them ! how wud we ever be entertained otherwise???
:D

ok ok comin back to the gala wedding.
this is nice. another sap bites the dust. albeit the first time i've been so super informed about the guys life. bit like a brittney spears syndrome eh? in ur face info, even if ur not looking for it !

on the home front , everytime i call my mom? (bless her soul, i know i always say that before i rip her case right off the shelf, u'll just have to bear with it. pretend your talking to a dyslexic person. no offense to dyslexic people..) she gets almost hysterical in making sure i don't talk to Mr S anymore.

ok OK i am not gonna talk to him. get a grip woman. jeez. after all now he's gonna be a married man .. the last thing i want is an accusation from his fiancee that i'm upto something.
like THAT has not happened before.....
NOT the me being upto something people !! me being ACCUSED ! jeeeez man. knock it off
:) its only funny on this side of the atlantic...

but in the midst of all the professed shyness of angel guy and the champagne you all are busy drinking, we have to admit, Mr S turned out to be pretty slick.. and pretty sneaky huh.
no hints at all.
and all those declarations of how we were still friends ??? tsk tsk..
sneaky sneaky...

hey but anyways. congratulations Mr Sept. u cudn't have done better
let me nurse the broken shards of my non-existent heart with a vodka ...
:P

nOt noW

go away. its that time of the semester.

mid term.

go away. :(

oh but mebe u shud come again some other day.

fAlLiNG iNtO iT

I'm in love.

its wierd. ofcourse it is. after all these years. cupid has struck.
right.

its a different matter that i feel like shooting a lightning bolt at cupid. i don't need love to complicate my life. its jinxed as it is ! i wasn't looking for this. u know that.
u've read all the rants and the raves i've been on against emotional mush ?
and yet when it strikes.... it defies all logic.

i think of it everyday. every minute. its constantly on my mind. it? i mean the object of my affection. i know its hopeless and yet hope lingers on refusing to die.
every phone ring, my heart skips a beat... every time i refresh my inbox, i'm waiting... i can't focus. i can't concentrate ( not that i cud conc much before.. but we'll overlook that) i wasn't like this. how did it happen. i thought i was immune....

OK OK. i can't do this anymore !! bleaaaaaeeeech.
if u believed a word of that , then ofcourse ur a nincompoop.
i'm not in love u idiot. ugh.
all that mush. i have this saccharine taste in my mouth and a sudden urge to wash it away with some checmical hazardous acid. that shud take the taste right out of my mouth. infact that shud take away my mouth.
though i have to say , its an interesting topic to observe. sappy people who say theyr in love... and the way they behave.
I SAY we shud put them in lil cages and observe what they do :P

OK OK am kiddin ... am kiddin...
i have just too many ppl around me ( they may not be able to take me on singlehandedly , but together they cud squash me to a pulp , and not considering there are 2 in the place of one now.. ) who cud threaten bodily harm for me, to actually expand on my theories...
but seriously? did u believe that ??? have you learnt nothing in the last one year???

lol
~Q of D

dE PreZ iS iN dE bUiLdiNG

it was awesome. amazing and fantastic at the same time.

ok so anyone could call me a cynic and they would be right. i am one. a terrible terrible cynic. i refuse to go gah gah and i won't be impressed easily. but TODAY !!

u'll never guess what happened !!

its 2:30 and the prez ( i'll still call him the prez even if he no longer is .. )
walks into my lab for a demo !!! well not mine ofcourse, but of the ppl who work in our lab !
he wants to see what we do !!
i have to admit. biometrics is a COOOOL field. iris recognition, face recognition and deal with these long enough , and guess what?? some of the mission impossible kind of things are gonna rub on us !!!

it was so cool. and i just hung back and gawked at him. there was a whole entourage with him. and it was nice to see so many indians.
he asked a couple of questions. and once he was done, on his way out he caught me gawking at him and smiled ...
all i could do was grin back at him.

so he asks .. "what are you doing here?"
"masters."
"and have you selected your thesis yet?"
"gulp .. yes..am doing research under Prof M"

he seemed pleased. well i know he's not pleased that i've found my non existant thesis topic. but then mebe he was pleased to see the number of indian students.
how far we have travelled. the money we're pouring into these places. money we know we're investing. sure of recovering it.
how does it feel to be the father of a country and see your children doing well ?

to know your people are slowly waking up to the right potential of what they can truly achieve.
so not all of us are bill gates or not all of will start a google/yahoo/ oracle whatever.. but then enough of us do. and the rest of us aint doing so bad after all.
its the huge middle level thats gonna fix all the problems aint it?

and i wanted to tell him so much. i wanted to tell him , that none of us out here had forgotten home. that we all wanted to go back. for a definite reason. that we wouldn't forget the motherland. and somehow , some of us would find a way to give back. i wanted to tell so much.

ofcourse he had to leave in a hurry. but i have to admit.
today .....
even my cynicism had to shut up.

i was just in awe.
i had met the president of india !!
in my research lab !! now THAT has to be an experience for the memory book!!!

tO DieT oR diE eAtiNG ?

what is it with people nowadays?? or am i hopelessly outnumbered on this one.
so many females who were kind of normal before,
have gone completely whacko.

theyr on this dieting spree. now don't get me all wrong and get tied up in a knot. what i mean is, well theyr dieting for the WRONG reasons. perfectly healthy females who are starving themselves so that they can get married.
listening to the blessed mater, apparently its a normal thing.

girls 'shud' do that.

and guys fall for the whole 'song and dance' routine.

poor saps.

coz most of them don't know the first thing that goes through a gals head once he's hooked. ( as in engaged/ amrried whatever )
its
"gr8 ! now i can eat"
and they don't stop. ever.

which is like so wierd. coz if ur a guy and u think this girl is reasonably skinny and u marry her. 6 months down the line, ur wondering where she went.
probabaly inside this other person waddling next to u.
coz the female doesnt stop at what she was before...

she just goes on and on with a vengeance... probably to make up for all those days she starved.

luckily for all you guys, these kind of girls are getting scarce. nowadays they atleast try to starve themselves for a while after the wedding also. mebe they 'SAY' health. but deep down u know why they'r doin it.

but the whole thing is so fucked up.
ok ok i agree we snack on too much junk and our health would be a lot better if we actually did something bout it. ok ok i agree its me and not you. but i'd rather be healthy for ME. and any 'person' around me who makes THAT a condition for .... anything. deserves to have their 'b***s' cut off.

people. get a life.
ofcourse now the seriously obese? i don't know what they'r thinking either. but i'm not talking about them. and they are a whole different story. i'm talking of the kind of normal females .... who go anorexic 6 months before the wedding??? just so they can find the perfect guy. well , the one's who start a sudden spate of skin care involving gram flour, cucumbers, mud(??!!)...
people tell me i live in never never land. if i don't do something soon, i'll turn into a pathetic spinster, and die alone.
boooyah !

the logic is so convoluted. getting anorexia just so some ass can agree to marry you is probably the worst piece of advice you can give a young female.
but mebe thats only me and i'm missing something here.

i just can't see it. u know its like looking at those wierd stereo images that are supposed to show us something. i just can't see it. no matter how long i stare at the picture.
why ?

hOuSTon CaLliNG

U know what's funny?

Uh oh

u know the story is gonna be wild everytime i start this way right? Ok so i'm at the Houston airport. The flight is delayed. The airport is like a fish market. People sitting on the ground. People sleeping on their bags. Ok not people. Its me. I admit it. Its ME. I'M Sleeping on my bag.
Ok ok I’m sitting straight now. Jeez.

So now I’m sitting here on this crummy seat. With my feet propped up on my suitcase. Typing away. Looking around me at all these weird people. Now u can’t argue much with that ok? All these people are weird !
Most don’t know what to do with the extra time they have, so they end up eating. And its not good food either. It’s junk food. Hmm that makes me want some fries. Mebe I should get some...

ok ok i won't get it. jeez man gimme a break.
houston was nice. interesting place. went for a company dinner that sucked BIG TIME!
the place was nice i guess.

oh who am i kidding??? it was this fish place. the whole place smelt like a fish place. there was squid and tuna on the table. somehow the waiters thought it wud be REAL cool to place 3 dishes of tuna around me.. the only vegetarian in the group. and somehow the people AROUND me , decided against any of it.. so the net result was the rest of the tables had their stinkin fish cleaned up early and plates taken away, while i had to stare morosely at the pink-white thing while i was TRYING to have my asparagus salad.

yup that was the only thing on the menu. asparagus salad. let me tell u. that i'm a big fan of salad. infact i like it better than normal food most times.
but this was just a bunch of random leaves. couple of tomato slices and 2 huge.... HUGE... onion rings.
blech !

u can imagine i was waiting for the dessert after i had the tomato pieces.
and then what ??

well they get desserts for the table !
everyone shares in the desert !!!

eeeeeeeeeeeeeewwww

after what people have been eating all night ?? i'm not gonna share my dessert with anyone.
ugh ! double ugh !

so thats what i did. cut my fudge brownie and i had it. on a small plate.
etiquette be damned !


now i have a question on that. can they refuse to give u a job just coz u have this really hard to eat brownie and you use a knife and fork to eat it like a steak ?
i mean come on man.
it was some real COOL dessert.

and i wasn't gonna pass up the chance for it.

but then ... sigh oh well guess it was worth it.

other than that. houston was ok. guess the summers are really bad but then ppl survive don't they ? and then 3 years in that company, you get to travel all over the world ! and they don't just say it. i actually met ppl who had been travelling all over the planet. bout every couple of years.

awesome huh ?
i think i'd seriously consider if i got a chance from this place.

i think i wud.

but then whhat wud i tell M??? hmmm guess prof will just have to wait. gotta meet him tomoro. no idea why he's called a meeting... am so screwed in my course work this sem!! groan don't even wanna think about it. but enough of that.

toodles !
~QD

aNd iN tHE miDdLe oF tHiS

and in the middle of all my craziness of school and job hunting and my mom i have some people who just refuse to sit quietly.

now what is it with some people who have to spread nasty stories about us at home.
hey ! call me crazy, call me insane, call me a feminist chick who shouldn't be touched by a ten foot pole. i DON'T mind.
infact i'll even take it as a compliment.

heck u can even call me fat to my face. i won't punch you. I promise.

but don't do what some morons did. thats just not plain nice. and like i tell N , you should ALWAYS play nice.
dude, you don't wanna play mind games with females. and this could be a warning to all guys out there.

never ever try to play mind games with crazy chicks. its proven that the average female is far far devious than you can EVER ...... EVEr imagine. just don't cross her.

u know those wierdos who talk to you all nice and cute and then go around telling whacko stories to people. its even ok if u tell people who i don't know and who'll never see/ hear of me again. but in m'lore???
M'LORE???

that city is like THE city of gossip. things come back a full circle and people people people... u have no idea how much trouble you can get into in f***in m'lore just coz of one stupid story.

walk away before i punch you man. walk away.

mAiL iN

well am off again on another, jaunt .. this time to houston.
i swear this semester has been as random as ever !

ok so i'm starting a mailing list, and i think that promises to be just as random ...
a whole bunch of ppl kept liking my quotes of the day so much, that i think i'll now send one out everyday.

well if you wanna join. any of the 4 who aren't in it- ( yes !! now the count has gone up to 4 !! ) well drop me a email. if you don't know who i am and want to join , (bless ur soul) drop me a comment and i'll add u..

we'll probably have a CnH or Garfield strip attached to it as soon as i can figure out a painless way of doing it everyday :P

u know the most annoying conversation starter ever ?? the habit of saying "wassup ?"
well NOTHING. i just wish ppl were more inventive.

here's a random quote for today
“I guess I just prefer to see the dark side of things. The glass is always half empty. And cracked. And I just cut my lip on it. And chipped a tooth.”

:P

have a gud day and i'll prob mail in from houston. be sure that after i bomb my interview , i WILL be writing something just to relieve my stress....

uH oH, nOt aGaiN

I thought i had brains.

apparently NOT.

instead i have discovered i have MULCH in my skull.

what did i do KNOW??? groan u don't wanna know..
actually its so funny its pathetic... or the other way around...

i sent an entire bunch of Mr S emails to a lot of ppl. wtf ??? will you stop laughing???? its NOT FUNNY !! actually it is.. this proves how screwed up my head is right now. i blame the lack of sleep and the weather. can i get by ONE day without blaming my troubles on someone else?? apparently NOT.
now leave me alone while i crawl under a rock and give a call to my brain which is apparently on vacation. somewhere.

guess i owe Mr S and apology. sorry S.
ugh!!

why do i do these things. can't i just have ONE normal day??? instead of one crisis after another??? groan... i need some chocolate.

bUT sTilL ...

Well considering that I don't use my brain for most of the things I do ...
then it makes sense that I'm writing, doesnt it ??
:P

ok u have to read the Hitchhikers Guide to the galaxy.. i have isolated this strange depression that has descended on me as the onset of withdrawal symptoms from NOT reading a book from a really really long time. phew ! long sentence ..
One can ofcourse sense the madness setting in.



now lets think bout why the hitchhikers guide is the greatest book ever...
especially the eternally depressed android.
lets.

think that is.

ok am done. lets move on.

R is comin to town. R has grown incredibly mushy after the engagement.. but then, one is allowed to grow incredibly mushy during the first couple of weeks on one's engagement.. so i guess one must make allowances for R. also R is getting cake !! and that goes a long way in tolerating all kinds of mushiness.

i am hearing strange noises from my housemates room next to mine. i am NOT a fan of thin cardboard walls i have to say. no no u pervert ! not those kind of noises..
i don't know.. what the heck were YOU thinking???
but i think she's crying.. or is that maniacal laughter. with some females its impossible to tell.

i wonder how guys live years and years with some of the females i see around me.
( now i KNOW no one cud live with me for yrs and yrs.. so i'm included in that list incase u think me too conceited.. )
but think bout it, one female in the lounge today..

"I am sooo proud of myself (why wat did u do ??) .. i actually guessed the area you live in just by hearing your area code.." (wtf??? there are max 3 areas around school.. and this makes u proud of your achievements?? - does that mean i deserve a nobel prize for listening to you yap , without smashing something over your head ???)
this dame really annoys me. she butts into my conversation with someone else without any ..... and then starts blabbering random crap.
some people reaaaaallly annoy me. heck sometimes "I" annoy me.

yeah i get annoyed pretty easily.. i guess...
anyhoooo

i find my life infinitely more peaceful without my phone. dang !! i shud have thought of it sooner...

nOtHiN nEW toDaY

there's nothing new to read. brain shut down for annual maintainence.

come back another day.

[eom] over and out.

sMilE aNd wAvE eVerYoNE

since a lot of people are asking me about Mr Sept. and since we have not officially said our goodbyes to him yet.

i'd like to take this very public forum to help clarify a few things..
Mr sept is long gone. (coz now its october :P ok ok PJ !! am i not allowed even one ??)

we had a few differences.. mostly that of a few 100 pounds .... ( too less too much ?? who can tell ??? :D )

my poor mother in the process has gone mad. (bless her soul but spare me the drama woman) i have told those at home that i have lost my phone and cannot be contacted for the next 2 months.
aaah atlast some peace !!!

so everybody... pls stand up and smile and wave your hands and say goodbye to Mr Sept. our star of the series and the person who spawned off so many of our more beloved posts...
:P

well this shud take care of anymore future 'propsect' don't u think ?
lol
well well.. did someone mention the devil's spawn ??? right ho ! and get back to work u mangy currs...

dEciDe nOW

its crazy when we hafta make those choices that could change our life.

u know.. deciding which color shirt to wear. this wudn't ruin ur life.. mebe..
but deciding which job to take, which school to go to, who to marry. these are touch decisions man. and usually if ur like anything like me, you'll hate to make them too.

u never know if ur making the biggest mistake of your life...

u never know if u should be running in the opposite direction...

these are just really really annoying moments.

now ofcourse if you were anything like me ( and thank the gud lord ur not !) u'd just procrastinate till someone makes the decision for you. mebe sleep. mebe have a coffee.
mebe sit by a lake and look at the stars???

ofcourse u don't know what i'm talking about do u ?? only one does...
and mebe its time u (like me) decided a couple of things right now.

like - its high time we had some chocolate mousse.

yummm !!

dOes tHis bLoG mAke mY bUtT loOk fAT?

so studies say having fat friends make us fatter.

too bad , for my friends.. all of them are skinny and guess i'm making them fatter by the minute.
if u want you can read the story
here

ofcourse this came out a while ago, but i thought of posting this today..
why u ask ???

well don't. u don't wanna know.

on another note, due to a couple of minor disasters in my life , my mother .. blessed woman as she is, now thinks i shud get plastic surgery done. whoa !!
wait there a second. don't u think thats a tad drastic ??

well there's a lot of psychology i can throw at u, and say that its not good, yada yada yada.. but ofcourse who can reason with the original essence of madness.

aah well looks like i'm banned from home forever. okies. i'll just wait for her to pass to the gr8 wide pastures beyond...

plastic surgery ... hmmmm.... i wonder... when we become as desperate as to consider that, then perhaps thats the time to get out the people in white coats. or the bourbon.

dEsTinY

have you ever thought of your destiny ?
where we were supposed to end up ? how we would be 10 years down the line ??

yes yes we know that what happens always happens for the best. and yes we all know that we shouldn't speculate too much on the future.

and yet.... don't u sometimes think idly of where life would take you and how petty all the things you were worried about now, would seem so silly to us in the future???
sure we've made mistakes. we act stupidly when we should behave with great dignity.
we fight with people when we should show gr8er understanding.
we waste so much time when we should actually be working, procrastinate and crib when we should be focusing.

ok ok , i know its only me. i really should stop using the "we" word shouldn't i ??
:P
sorry force of habit.

anyways getting back to the topic.
imagine yourself 40 years down the line. imagine where and what u'll be doing. who you'll be doing it with. who'll be around you.
imagine the life you always wanted and ponder over it for a while. is that what you really want ? or something others want for you ?
if you've never thought bout this before. well now is an excellent time to think buddy.

u know only one thing is true in the universe

"this too shall pass ..."

ps: i swear i think i'm getting more and more random everyday.

sO whErE iS tHE lOve

that question mark.

i never knew.

and this song.

i never knew.

ther's a lot on my mind. though i don't think i'm gonna tell you anything about it. so just enjoy the song.



have a gr8 weekend !

hOw tiMe fLiEs

aaaaaaaaaaak

its already october !! where did all the time go ???

wats happening?? someone slow down my life !!

only 3 more months and 2007 is over...

ok panic attack in full swing. help !

dOn'T yOU aLsO hAtE iT

when someone copies ur entire homework and then u realize they got a 100 while you got a 98 ?

tHe aVerAGe LiAr

so i cant lie to save my life. atleast i can't lie consistently.
If half the people i lied to compared the stories i try to tell, then boy am I gonna be in trouble. Thats why its fortunate for me that I don't do much of that. lying i mean.

U shud ask A. a simple thing that has to be done which we don't want to broadcast and it takes a major battle plan and strategy. minutes and minutes of counter planning and synchronizing stories. and in the end what happens??

I go and blab a completely different story to the first person who cross examines me.

aaaaaaak !!!
back to the drawing board ! the entire plan has simply fallen apart !!!
every plan is only as strong as its weakest link and i'm as strong under fire as a wisp of cotton candy...

ofcourse the sad part is that for 'normal' people what we're doing isn't even worth pondering about....
lol

ofcourse my lab partners seem to be extremely proficient in these activities. the excuses they come up with are extremely creative ! whoa i wonder how they do it??


on another note, i never seem to learn from my mistakes. had an interview today and i swear i must be the first person to land at an interview without even a pen and just myself. half way through i realized i had NO grey/black folder, NO copy of my resume and NOthing in my head.
thanx bulletin board for letting me know 5 minutes before my interview ... actually if it wasn't for you , i might have never realized till the end of the interview.
but it was remarkably easy to shake everyone's hand.
aah well. if only one lived and learnt instead of just lived.