gOne fAr faR aWaY

warning : maudlin post ahead... better give u a headsup. and i admit it. the songs sometimes dictate the posts...




waat?? i like it.

^_^ u can guess who this is dedicated to...

sometimes i wake up from a dream and its like nothing has changed. and for a second i believe that everything is all right. the whole world is just as it should be and we're all still happy and ignorant. and for that one awful moment, i'm at peace with myself. that there's still time. time to set things right. time to choose differently. i'm still a kid, running around with my lil brother. would i do stuff differently? ofcourse. oh boy so much differently. you accused me of being afraid to feel regret. boy u have no idea what your talking about.

i'd dance more.
i'd laugh more. i'd run around more. i'd play more.
i'd give you what you asked for. i'd run faster. hop skip jump higher.
i'd listen better.
i'd laugh louder.....

oh and when that second has passed, and you realize that it was all just a dream and reality is a far far cry from .......
and i look out the window and i'm surprised. the sky is a brilliant blue and the birds are a-singin, the world a-spinning, the flowers a-bloomin. i walk out the house and i'm surprised no one notices. that they'r not staring at me. i look exactly the same and no one can tell.

and other times its different. the dream that is. its not the past but the future and once again things are different. and once again you have a reason to be happy. a reason for your soul to Laugh Out Loud. a reason to skip while your walking. to twirl around holding hands. to jump and try to touch the sky. to eat sticky candy and grin and run away. to play in mucky mud and try to race a buffalo plowing the fields [ trust me its fun! ]. to pretend your a knight that can slay the dragons [ uh no princess dreams for me :P ] to hug a tree to sing and dance to your old OLD maid [ and scare the bejeezus out of her. but the best part is when SHE joins you ]. to blast loud music in your village and play the air guitar.

but its all mixed up. you can't go back in the future. you can't be that kid again. who was so clueless and so self important. who thought the universe revolved around this world. who's biggest problem was how to get out of eating baingan and who's only thought was how to get the next book fix. who'd run into the fields in the middle of the night just to see the stars [ coz u just can't see them in the cities ] who'd wait patiently for hours in a banana plantation waiting for that butterfly to sit on her hand and then finally give up and chase the butterfly all over. who could make 60 yr old ppl dance to little mermaid songs.

oh well < shrug > its still a wonderful life

^_^


ps: sometimes i get maudlin.. u'll just have to wait for it to blow through.

note to self: where'd u go. fort minor