mAKinG iT hAPpeN - 4

oooh this is gud. ppl are asking questions. questions are gud.

ofcourse it helps if u already have the answers.
you don't really believe me do you, when i say i've been thinking of this for the last 15 yrs??

1. 30 yrs down the line i do not imagine myself sitting in an office. with a phd or a MS or a MBA. i don't see myself in a career. in meetings. coding. not coding. heck i can't even imagine myself doing it 2 yrs down the line. it doesn't matter. if i try to picture myself working in a company on any level of the rat race, i feel like ... well lets not get graphic. i haven't even had brkfast yet.
ask any of my closest friends, i'd have told them that at 40 i wanted to be teaching. IN INDIA not the US. so my life long goals are pretty much aligned to wat i'm trying to do now or is it the other way around. nyways i've always wanted to teach.
so 30 yrs down the line i see myself in a classroom, or already having started an NGO or a school or some such thing.
that one is a no brainer and hands down, i have the answer.

2.its for the experience. and the exposure and etc. and thats going on my cover letter too.

3. hmmmm yeah. i'll get back to this later. to the q i mean.

4. i c wat ur saying here. but lets think about it. what problems? marriage? wat? i don't get it. wat problems do i have that i'm running away so drastically? now wud u have the same question if i said i was going to india to do this?
ok so when i went to inteview in this company in NY for a job. one of the questions they asked was if we won a million dollars in the lottery, wat wud we do with the money. i was the only non-geek present, who said i'd start a school in a remote village. actually, i'd use the money to start a model of a low cost self sufficient school, that cud be maintained by the community. and then that model cud be replicated around the country. basically appplying the microfinance model to education? yup yup and you'd probably have to think about how part of the school programme would include the education of the parents of the community. well more than education it wud be educating them about making informed choices. [ heyy thats gud. thats going on my business plan when i finally get round to it ]

so i don't understand what u mean my problems. my question to u is. i have problems?? and i need to run away from them??
see marriage is not a problem. its a choice. now i'm not running away form marriage by going to africa. that's real stupid. :D it also sounds hillarious. and now we can come back to prev point. well.
i don't know. all i'd say is tough luck. obv the pool wud get smaller. but the pool is already very tiny. see everyone has a vision about how they're life shud be. right?
but
"ur dreams are only limited by your imagination."

so maybe i can't find someone who thinks this way. and who understands. well tough luck. maybe marriage is not for everyone. [ don't tell my mom. she's definitely gonna get hysterical if she finds out i blogged this out :P 'waaaaat you put it online where anyone can see it?? omg take it out take it off' ]
but till now most of her machinations to get me married off has consisted of hare brained schemes of -
"just shut ur mouth and don't talk to much. u can do wat u want after ur married" [ !!:O ]
"and don't tell them ur hare brained idiot notion of how you'd rather adopt than have kids" [
well i never said i'd never have kids. i mean if he had real kool DNA i was impressed with.... he he :D ]
"and don't tell them u plan to leave a high pay lucrative job to become a teacher"
"and don't tell them u want to go back to school" [ to get a second degree in psychology. mebe. i'm still considering it. doesn't look like its happening though ]
"they're all crazy ramblings of a child. you'd never be here if it wasn't for me pushing you" [ more's the pity i'd say ]

so am i a poet? am i fool? am i a hopeless dreamer with fantastical ideas? its possible that i am.
my aunt said 25. she expected me to get my head on straight at 25. to finally grow up. well i'm 25 now.... and one month. NOW do you believe me, now that i'm finally 25?? and not pretend i'm just a foolish kid with impossible dreams??

and i have a question to u.
do you think more people don't do this kind of stuff, coz they're afraid? afraid of rocking the boat. of the unknown. of stepping out of their comfort zone? coz of fear?? these are excuses. cop outs.
so i might fail. failing is ok. when i've atleast tried honestly. don't you think? and well ive been lucky. i don't have circumstances like an ailing parent or huge debts. obv i wudnt drop such things. do you really think ppl are free to make any choices they want? no.
u need to be lucky to be able to really make true choices.
everyone has to find a balance with wat they'd like to do and wat life allows them. well i'm lucky if they both align.


but then again. i don't have a job offer yet. so lets see.