R's brain has turned into complete mulch.
apparently she is now crying over her fiance's absence.
gawd wat happens to women when they fall in love ??? do they all turn into direct train wrecks?? why ???
she's just knows him from the last 2 weeks and now??? she's weeping buckets at his leaving..
and she baked a cake for him !!! and sent it in the courier !! too much !!! i know that stingy, miserly female would never have done it for anyone else...
in her place i might not have done it either... baking is a lil too much huh ...
and i can't believe this was the same girl who scorned the rest of our roomies for being too mush !! she kept saying how she could never understand it. and blah blah..
hmmm i think when the serious types fall in love, their brains turn into complete sod !!! i can't imagine. was i like this too ?????
sadly i think yes. lol
oh well atleast someone is eating some cake...
Friday, October 19, 2007
aNoTHeR wEeKeND oF fUn
am off on another jaunt. this one is infinitely more painful than the one i had last week.
its crazy. i have to be in school at 5:30 tomoro. i can't even imagine at what time i have to get up so that i get here at that time.
groan... why am i always getting into such scrapes.
don't worry you'll get a LOT of stories... this time i'll be stuck in 4 airports over the weekend AND with no one to call and annoy...
u can imagine i'll be doing some serious random typing :P
its crazy. i have to be in school at 5:30 tomoro. i can't even imagine at what time i have to get up so that i get here at that time.
groan... why am i always getting into such scrapes.
don't worry you'll get a LOT of stories... this time i'll be stuck in 4 airports over the weekend AND with no one to call and annoy...
u can imagine i'll be doing some serious random typing :P
pArTY TimE
there's always something going on isn't there?
ok ppl its time to break out the champagne bottle.
Mr Sept is getting married !! to a very nice mysore girl it seems ..
aaaha !!! seems like Mr S has not lost anytime at all !!
apart from the broken heart from his rejection.... (sorry can't say that without grinning :D ) lets all stand up and congratulate the chappie. Angel guy as we call him affectionately is about to get hitched. surely he deserves a pat on the back ??
now coming to the point as to how i came to know this, ever since Mr S rejected me, apparently its 'hot' news in m'lore. ESP his reasons for doing it. why people are SO jobless in m'lore is beyond me. bank managers no less !
isn't it funny ? you walk into a bank to withdraw some money for your monthly telephone bill and your friendly neighbourhood bank manager says - "have you heard? the guy who rejected your daughter is getting married to XYZ"
ROFL man nothing can be funnier !!
apparently everyone thinks its their duty to inform me of his life events.
i DO NOT understand why they think i wud be interested. but heck now that i know....
mebe i shud do the jiggle dance ??? some ppl are just plain wierd. keep giving us wierd pieces of info we wud never need. god bless them ! how wud we ever be entertained otherwise???
:D
ok ok comin back to the gala wedding.
this is nice. another sap bites the dust. albeit the first time i've been so super informed about the guys life. bit like a brittney spears syndrome eh? in ur face info, even if ur not looking for it !
on the home front , everytime i call my mom? (bless her soul, i know i always say that before i rip her case right off the shelf, u'll just have to bear with it. pretend your talking to a dyslexic person. no offense to dyslexic people..) she gets almost hysterical in making sure i don't talk to Mr S anymore.
ok OK i am not gonna talk to him. get a grip woman. jeez. after all now he's gonna be a married man .. the last thing i want is an accusation from his fiancee that i'm upto something.
like THAT has not happened before.....
NOT the me being upto something people !! me being ACCUSED ! jeeeez man. knock it off
:) its only funny on this side of the atlantic...
but in the midst of all the professed shyness of angel guy and the champagne you all are busy drinking, we have to admit, Mr S turned out to be pretty slick.. and pretty sneaky huh.
no hints at all.
and all those declarations of how we were still friends ??? tsk tsk..
sneaky sneaky...
hey but anyways. congratulations Mr Sept. u cudn't have done better
let me nurse the broken shards of my non-existent heart with a vodka ...
:P
ok ppl its time to break out the champagne bottle.
Mr Sept is getting married !! to a very nice mysore girl it seems ..
aaaha !!! seems like Mr S has not lost anytime at all !!
apart from the broken heart from his rejection.... (sorry can't say that without grinning :D ) lets all stand up and congratulate the chappie. Angel guy as we call him affectionately is about to get hitched. surely he deserves a pat on the back ??
now coming to the point as to how i came to know this, ever since Mr S rejected me, apparently its 'hot' news in m'lore. ESP his reasons for doing it. why people are SO jobless in m'lore is beyond me. bank managers no less !
isn't it funny ? you walk into a bank to withdraw some money for your monthly telephone bill and your friendly neighbourhood bank manager says - "have you heard? the guy who rejected your daughter is getting married to XYZ"
ROFL man nothing can be funnier !!
apparently everyone thinks its their duty to inform me of his life events.
i DO NOT understand why they think i wud be interested. but heck now that i know....
mebe i shud do the jiggle dance ??? some ppl are just plain wierd. keep giving us wierd pieces of info we wud never need. god bless them ! how wud we ever be entertained otherwise???
:D
ok ok comin back to the gala wedding.
this is nice. another sap bites the dust. albeit the first time i've been so super informed about the guys life. bit like a brittney spears syndrome eh? in ur face info, even if ur not looking for it !
on the home front , everytime i call my mom? (bless her soul, i know i always say that before i rip her case right off the shelf, u'll just have to bear with it. pretend your talking to a dyslexic person. no offense to dyslexic people..) she gets almost hysterical in making sure i don't talk to Mr S anymore.
ok OK i am not gonna talk to him. get a grip woman. jeez. after all now he's gonna be a married man .. the last thing i want is an accusation from his fiancee that i'm upto something.
like THAT has not happened before.....
NOT the me being upto something people !! me being ACCUSED ! jeeeez man. knock it off
:) its only funny on this side of the atlantic...
but in the midst of all the professed shyness of angel guy and the champagne you all are busy drinking, we have to admit, Mr S turned out to be pretty slick.. and pretty sneaky huh.
no hints at all.
and all those declarations of how we were still friends ??? tsk tsk..
sneaky sneaky...
hey but anyways. congratulations Mr Sept. u cudn't have done better
let me nurse the broken shards of my non-existent heart with a vodka ...
:P
Thursday, October 18, 2007
nOt noW
go away. its that time of the semester.
mid term.
go away. :(
oh but mebe u shud come again some other day.
mid term.
go away. :(
oh but mebe u shud come again some other day.
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
fAlLiNG iNtO iT
I'm in love.
its wierd. ofcourse it is. after all these years. cupid has struck.
right.
its a different matter that i feel like shooting a lightning bolt at cupid. i don't need love to complicate my life. its jinxed as it is ! i wasn't looking for this. u know that.
u've read all the rants and the raves i've been on against emotional mush ?
and yet when it strikes.... it defies all logic.
i think of it everyday. every minute. its constantly on my mind. it? i mean the object of my affection. i know its hopeless and yet hope lingers on refusing to die.
every phone ring, my heart skips a beat... every time i refresh my inbox, i'm waiting... i can't focus. i can't concentrate ( not that i cud conc much before.. but we'll overlook that) i wasn't like this. how did it happen. i thought i was immune....
OK OK. i can't do this anymore !! bleaaaaaeeeech.
if u believed a word of that , then ofcourse ur a nincompoop.
i'm not in love u idiot. ugh.
all that mush. i have this saccharine taste in my mouth and a sudden urge to wash it away with some checmical hazardous acid. that shud take the taste right out of my mouth. infact that shud take away my mouth.
though i have to say , its an interesting topic to observe. sappy people who say theyr in love... and the way they behave.
I SAY we shud put them in lil cages and observe what they do :P
OK OK am kiddin ... am kiddin...
i have just too many ppl around me ( they may not be able to take me on singlehandedly , but together they cud squash me to a pulp , and not considering there are 2 in the place of one now.. ) who cud threaten bodily harm for me, to actually expand on my theories...
but seriously? did u believe that ??? have you learnt nothing in the last one year???
lol
~Q of D
its wierd. ofcourse it is. after all these years. cupid has struck.
right.
its a different matter that i feel like shooting a lightning bolt at cupid. i don't need love to complicate my life. its jinxed as it is ! i wasn't looking for this. u know that.
u've read all the rants and the raves i've been on against emotional mush ?
and yet when it strikes.... it defies all logic.
i think of it everyday. every minute. its constantly on my mind. it? i mean the object of my affection. i know its hopeless and yet hope lingers on refusing to die.
every phone ring, my heart skips a beat... every time i refresh my inbox, i'm waiting... i can't focus. i can't concentrate ( not that i cud conc much before.. but we'll overlook that) i wasn't like this. how did it happen. i thought i was immune....
OK OK. i can't do this anymore !! bleaaaaaeeeech.
if u believed a word of that , then ofcourse ur a nincompoop.
i'm not in love u idiot. ugh.
all that mush. i have this saccharine taste in my mouth and a sudden urge to wash it away with some checmical hazardous acid. that shud take the taste right out of my mouth. infact that shud take away my mouth.
though i have to say , its an interesting topic to observe. sappy people who say theyr in love... and the way they behave.
I SAY we shud put them in lil cages and observe what they do :P
OK OK am kiddin ... am kiddin...
i have just too many ppl around me ( they may not be able to take me on singlehandedly , but together they cud squash me to a pulp , and not considering there are 2 in the place of one now.. ) who cud threaten bodily harm for me, to actually expand on my theories...
but seriously? did u believe that ??? have you learnt nothing in the last one year???
lol
~Q of D
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
dE PreZ iS iN dE bUiLdiNG
it was awesome. amazing and fantastic at the same time.
ok so anyone could call me a cynic and they would be right. i am one. a terrible terrible cynic. i refuse to go gah gah and i won't be impressed easily. but TODAY !!
u'll never guess what happened !!
its 2:30 and the prez ( i'll still call him the prez even if he no longer is .. )
walks into my lab for a demo !!! well not mine ofcourse, but of the ppl who work in our lab !
he wants to see what we do !!
i have to admit. biometrics is a COOOOL field. iris recognition, face recognition and deal with these long enough , and guess what?? some of the mission impossible kind of things are gonna rub on us !!!
it was so cool. and i just hung back and gawked at him. there was a whole entourage with him. and it was nice to see so many indians.
he asked a couple of questions. and once he was done, on his way out he caught me gawking at him and smiled ...
all i could do was grin back at him.
so he asks .. "what are you doing here?"
"masters."
"and have you selected your thesis yet?"
"gulp .. yes..am doing research under Prof M"
he seemed pleased. well i know he's not pleased that i've found my non existant thesis topic. but then mebe he was pleased to see the number of indian students.
how far we have travelled. the money we're pouring into these places. money we know we're investing. sure of recovering it.
how does it feel to be the father of a country and see your children doing well ?
to know your people are slowly waking up to the right potential of what they can truly achieve.
so not all of us are bill gates or not all of will start a google/yahoo/ oracle whatever.. but then enough of us do. and the rest of us aint doing so bad after all.
its the huge middle level thats gonna fix all the problems aint it?
and i wanted to tell him so much. i wanted to tell him , that none of us out here had forgotten home. that we all wanted to go back. for a definite reason. that we wouldn't forget the motherland. and somehow , some of us would find a way to give back. i wanted to tell so much.
ofcourse he had to leave in a hurry. but i have to admit.
today .....
even my cynicism had to shut up.
i was just in awe.
i had met the president of india !!
in my research lab !! now THAT has to be an experience for the memory book!!!
ok so anyone could call me a cynic and they would be right. i am one. a terrible terrible cynic. i refuse to go gah gah and i won't be impressed easily. but TODAY !!
u'll never guess what happened !!
its 2:30 and the prez ( i'll still call him the prez even if he no longer is .. )
walks into my lab for a demo !!! well not mine ofcourse, but of the ppl who work in our lab !
he wants to see what we do !!
i have to admit. biometrics is a COOOOL field. iris recognition, face recognition and deal with these long enough , and guess what?? some of the mission impossible kind of things are gonna rub on us !!!
it was so cool. and i just hung back and gawked at him. there was a whole entourage with him. and it was nice to see so many indians.
he asked a couple of questions. and once he was done, on his way out he caught me gawking at him and smiled ...
all i could do was grin back at him.
so he asks .. "what are you doing here?"
"masters."
"and have you selected your thesis yet?"
"gulp .. yes..am doing research under Prof M"
he seemed pleased. well i know he's not pleased that i've found my non existant thesis topic. but then mebe he was pleased to see the number of indian students.
how far we have travelled. the money we're pouring into these places. money we know we're investing. sure of recovering it.
how does it feel to be the father of a country and see your children doing well ?
to know your people are slowly waking up to the right potential of what they can truly achieve.
so not all of us are bill gates or not all of will start a google/yahoo/ oracle whatever.. but then enough of us do. and the rest of us aint doing so bad after all.
its the huge middle level thats gonna fix all the problems aint it?
and i wanted to tell him so much. i wanted to tell him , that none of us out here had forgotten home. that we all wanted to go back. for a definite reason. that we wouldn't forget the motherland. and somehow , some of us would find a way to give back. i wanted to tell so much.
ofcourse he had to leave in a hurry. but i have to admit.
today .....
even my cynicism had to shut up.
i was just in awe.
i had met the president of india !!
in my research lab !! now THAT has to be an experience for the memory book!!!
tO DieT oR diE eAtiNG ?
what is it with people nowadays?? or am i hopelessly outnumbered on this one.
so many females who were kind of normal before,
have gone completely whacko.
theyr on this dieting spree. now don't get me all wrong and get tied up in a knot. what i mean is, well theyr dieting for the WRONG reasons. perfectly healthy females who are starving themselves so that they can get married.
listening to the blessed mater, apparently its a normal thing.
girls 'shud' do that.
and guys fall for the whole 'song and dance' routine.
poor saps.
coz most of them don't know the first thing that goes through a gals head once he's hooked. ( as in engaged/ amrried whatever )
its
"gr8 ! now i can eat"
and they don't stop. ever.
which is like so wierd. coz if ur a guy and u think this girl is reasonably skinny and u marry her. 6 months down the line, ur wondering where she went.
probabaly inside this other person waddling next to u.
coz the female doesnt stop at what she was before...
she just goes on and on with a vengeance... probably to make up for all those days she starved.
luckily for all you guys, these kind of girls are getting scarce. nowadays they atleast try to starve themselves for a while after the wedding also. mebe they 'SAY' health. but deep down u know why they'r doin it.
but the whole thing is so fucked up.
ok ok i agree we snack on too much junk and our health would be a lot better if we actually did something bout it. ok ok i agree its me and not you. but i'd rather be healthy for ME. and any 'person' around me who makes THAT a condition for .... anything. deserves to have their 'b***s' cut off.
people. get a life.
ofcourse now the seriously obese? i don't know what they'r thinking either. but i'm not talking about them. and they are a whole different story. i'm talking of the kind of normal females .... who go anorexic 6 months before the wedding??? just so they can find the perfect guy. well , the one's who start a sudden spate of skin care involving gram flour, cucumbers, mud(??!!)...
people tell me i live in never never land. if i don't do something soon, i'll turn into a pathetic spinster, and die alone.
boooyah !
the logic is so convoluted. getting anorexia just so some ass can agree to marry you is probably the worst piece of advice you can give a young female.
but mebe thats only me and i'm missing something here.
i just can't see it. u know its like looking at those wierd stereo images that are supposed to show us something. i just can't see it. no matter how long i stare at the picture.
why ?
so many females who were kind of normal before,
have gone completely whacko.
theyr on this dieting spree. now don't get me all wrong and get tied up in a knot. what i mean is, well theyr dieting for the WRONG reasons. perfectly healthy females who are starving themselves so that they can get married.
listening to the blessed mater, apparently its a normal thing.
girls 'shud' do that.
and guys fall for the whole 'song and dance' routine.
poor saps.
coz most of them don't know the first thing that goes through a gals head once he's hooked. ( as in engaged/ amrried whatever )
its
"gr8 ! now i can eat"
and they don't stop. ever.
which is like so wierd. coz if ur a guy and u think this girl is reasonably skinny and u marry her. 6 months down the line, ur wondering where she went.
probabaly inside this other person waddling next to u.
coz the female doesnt stop at what she was before...
she just goes on and on with a vengeance... probably to make up for all those days she starved.
luckily for all you guys, these kind of girls are getting scarce. nowadays they atleast try to starve themselves for a while after the wedding also. mebe they 'SAY' health. but deep down u know why they'r doin it.
but the whole thing is so fucked up.
ok ok i agree we snack on too much junk and our health would be a lot better if we actually did something bout it. ok ok i agree its me and not you. but i'd rather be healthy for ME. and any 'person' around me who makes THAT a condition for .... anything. deserves to have their 'b***s' cut off.
people. get a life.
ofcourse now the seriously obese? i don't know what they'r thinking either. but i'm not talking about them. and they are a whole different story. i'm talking of the kind of normal females .... who go anorexic 6 months before the wedding??? just so they can find the perfect guy. well , the one's who start a sudden spate of skin care involving gram flour, cucumbers, mud(??!!)...
people tell me i live in never never land. if i don't do something soon, i'll turn into a pathetic spinster, and die alone.
boooyah !
the logic is so convoluted. getting anorexia just so some ass can agree to marry you is probably the worst piece of advice you can give a young female.
but mebe thats only me and i'm missing something here.
i just can't see it. u know its like looking at those wierd stereo images that are supposed to show us something. i just can't see it. no matter how long i stare at the picture.
why ?
hOuSTon CaLliNG
U know what's funny?
Uh oh
u know the story is gonna be wild everytime i start this way right? Ok so i'm at the Houston airport. The flight is delayed. The airport is like a fish market. People sitting on the ground. People sleeping on their bags. Ok not people. Its me. I admit it. Its ME. I'M Sleeping on my bag.
Ok ok I’m sitting straight now. Jeez.
So now I’m sitting here on this crummy seat. With my feet propped up on my suitcase. Typing away. Looking around me at all these weird people. Now u can’t argue much with that ok? All these people are weird !
Most don’t know what to do with the extra time they have, so they end up eating. And its not good food either. It’s junk food. Hmm that makes me want some fries. Mebe I should get some...
ok ok i won't get it. jeez man gimme a break.
houston was nice. interesting place. went for a company dinner that sucked BIG TIME!
the place was nice i guess.
oh who am i kidding??? it was this fish place. the whole place smelt like a fish place. there was squid and tuna on the table. somehow the waiters thought it wud be REAL cool to place 3 dishes of tuna around me.. the only vegetarian in the group. and somehow the people AROUND me , decided against any of it.. so the net result was the rest of the tables had their stinkin fish cleaned up early and plates taken away, while i had to stare morosely at the pink-white thing while i was TRYING to have my asparagus salad.
yup that was the only thing on the menu. asparagus salad. let me tell u. that i'm a big fan of salad. infact i like it better than normal food most times.
but this was just a bunch of random leaves. couple of tomato slices and 2 huge.... HUGE... onion rings.
blech !
u can imagine i was waiting for the dessert after i had the tomato pieces.
and then what ??
well they get desserts for the table !
everyone shares in the desert !!!
eeeeeeeeeeeeeewwww
after what people have been eating all night ?? i'm not gonna share my dessert with anyone.
ugh ! double ugh !
so thats what i did. cut my fudge brownie and i had it. on a small plate.
etiquette be damned !
now i have a question on that. can they refuse to give u a job just coz u have this really hard to eat brownie and you use a knife and fork to eat it like a steak ?
i mean come on man.
it was some real COOL dessert.
and i wasn't gonna pass up the chance for it.
but then ... sigh oh well guess it was worth it.
other than that. houston was ok. guess the summers are really bad but then ppl survive don't they ? and then 3 years in that company, you get to travel all over the world ! and they don't just say it. i actually met ppl who had been travelling all over the planet. bout every couple of years.
awesome huh ?
i think i'd seriously consider if i got a chance from this place.
i think i wud.
but then whhat wud i tell M??? hmmm guess prof will just have to wait. gotta meet him tomoro. no idea why he's called a meeting... am so screwed in my course work this sem!! groan don't even wanna think about it. but enough of that.
toodles !
~QD
Uh oh
u know the story is gonna be wild everytime i start this way right? Ok so i'm at the Houston airport. The flight is delayed. The airport is like a fish market. People sitting on the ground. People sleeping on their bags. Ok not people. Its me. I admit it. Its ME. I'M Sleeping on my bag.
Ok ok I’m sitting straight now. Jeez.
So now I’m sitting here on this crummy seat. With my feet propped up on my suitcase. Typing away. Looking around me at all these weird people. Now u can’t argue much with that ok? All these people are weird !
Most don’t know what to do with the extra time they have, so they end up eating. And its not good food either. It’s junk food. Hmm that makes me want some fries. Mebe I should get some...
ok ok i won't get it. jeez man gimme a break.
houston was nice. interesting place. went for a company dinner that sucked BIG TIME!
the place was nice i guess.
oh who am i kidding??? it was this fish place. the whole place smelt like a fish place. there was squid and tuna on the table. somehow the waiters thought it wud be REAL cool to place 3 dishes of tuna around me.. the only vegetarian in the group. and somehow the people AROUND me , decided against any of it.. so the net result was the rest of the tables had their stinkin fish cleaned up early and plates taken away, while i had to stare morosely at the pink-white thing while i was TRYING to have my asparagus salad.
yup that was the only thing on the menu. asparagus salad. let me tell u. that i'm a big fan of salad. infact i like it better than normal food most times.
but this was just a bunch of random leaves. couple of tomato slices and 2 huge.... HUGE... onion rings.
blech !
u can imagine i was waiting for the dessert after i had the tomato pieces.
and then what ??
well they get desserts for the table !
everyone shares in the desert !!!
eeeeeeeeeeeeeewwww
after what people have been eating all night ?? i'm not gonna share my dessert with anyone.
ugh ! double ugh !
so thats what i did. cut my fudge brownie and i had it. on a small plate.
etiquette be damned !
now i have a question on that. can they refuse to give u a job just coz u have this really hard to eat brownie and you use a knife and fork to eat it like a steak ?
i mean come on man.
it was some real COOL dessert.
and i wasn't gonna pass up the chance for it.
but then ... sigh oh well guess it was worth it.
other than that. houston was ok. guess the summers are really bad but then ppl survive don't they ? and then 3 years in that company, you get to travel all over the world ! and they don't just say it. i actually met ppl who had been travelling all over the planet. bout every couple of years.
awesome huh ?
i think i'd seriously consider if i got a chance from this place.
i think i wud.
but then whhat wud i tell M??? hmmm guess prof will just have to wait. gotta meet him tomoro. no idea why he's called a meeting... am so screwed in my course work this sem!! groan don't even wanna think about it. but enough of that.
toodles !
~QD
Sunday, October 14, 2007
aNd iN tHE miDdLe oF tHiS
and in the middle of all my craziness of school and job hunting and my mom i have some people who just refuse to sit quietly.
now what is it with some people who have to spread nasty stories about us at home.
hey ! call me crazy, call me insane, call me a feminist chick who shouldn't be touched by a ten foot pole. i DON'T mind.
infact i'll even take it as a compliment.
heck u can even call me fat to my face. i won't punch you. I promise.
but don't do what some morons did. thats just not plain nice. and like i tell N , you should ALWAYS play nice.
dude, you don't wanna play mind games with females. and this could be a warning to all guys out there.
never ever try to play mind games with crazy chicks. its proven that the average female is far far devious than you can EVER ...... EVEr imagine. just don't cross her.
u know those wierdos who talk to you all nice and cute and then go around telling whacko stories to people. its even ok if u tell people who i don't know and who'll never see/ hear of me again. but in m'lore???
M'LORE???
that city is like THE city of gossip. things come back a full circle and people people people... u have no idea how much trouble you can get into in f***in m'lore just coz of one stupid story.
walk away before i punch you man. walk away.
now what is it with some people who have to spread nasty stories about us at home.
hey ! call me crazy, call me insane, call me a feminist chick who shouldn't be touched by a ten foot pole. i DON'T mind.
infact i'll even take it as a compliment.
heck u can even call me fat to my face. i won't punch you. I promise.
but don't do what some morons did. thats just not plain nice. and like i tell N , you should ALWAYS play nice.
dude, you don't wanna play mind games with females. and this could be a warning to all guys out there.
never ever try to play mind games with crazy chicks. its proven that the average female is far far devious than you can EVER ...... EVEr imagine. just don't cross her.
u know those wierdos who talk to you all nice and cute and then go around telling whacko stories to people. its even ok if u tell people who i don't know and who'll never see/ hear of me again. but in m'lore???
M'LORE???
that city is like THE city of gossip. things come back a full circle and people people people... u have no idea how much trouble you can get into in f***in m'lore just coz of one stupid story.
walk away before i punch you man. walk away.
Saturday, October 13, 2007
mAiL iN
well am off again on another, jaunt .. this time to houston.
i swear this semester has been as random as ever !
ok so i'm starting a mailing list, and i think that promises to be just as random ...
a whole bunch of ppl kept liking my quotes of the day so much, that i think i'll now send one out everyday.
well if you wanna join. any of the 4 who aren't in it- ( yes !! now the count has gone up to 4 !! ) well drop me a email. if you don't know who i am and want to join , (bless ur soul) drop me a comment and i'll add u..
we'll probably have a CnH or Garfield strip attached to it as soon as i can figure out a painless way of doing it everyday :P
u know the most annoying conversation starter ever ?? the habit of saying "wassup ?"
well NOTHING. i just wish ppl were more inventive.
here's a random quote for today
“I guess I just prefer to see the dark side of things. The glass is always half empty. And cracked. And I just cut my lip on it. And chipped a tooth.”
:P
have a gud day and i'll prob mail in from houston. be sure that after i bomb my interview , i WILL be writing something just to relieve my stress....
i swear this semester has been as random as ever !
ok so i'm starting a mailing list, and i think that promises to be just as random ...
a whole bunch of ppl kept liking my quotes of the day so much, that i think i'll now send one out everyday.
well if you wanna join. any of the 4 who aren't in it- ( yes !! now the count has gone up to 4 !! ) well drop me a email. if you don't know who i am and want to join , (bless ur soul) drop me a comment and i'll add u..
we'll probably have a CnH or Garfield strip attached to it as soon as i can figure out a painless way of doing it everyday :P
u know the most annoying conversation starter ever ?? the habit of saying "wassup ?"
well NOTHING. i just wish ppl were more inventive.
here's a random quote for today
“I guess I just prefer to see the dark side of things. The glass is always half empty. And cracked. And I just cut my lip on it. And chipped a tooth.”
:P
have a gud day and i'll prob mail in from houston. be sure that after i bomb my interview , i WILL be writing something just to relieve my stress....
Friday, October 12, 2007
uH oH, nOt aGaiN
I thought i had brains.
apparently NOT.
instead i have discovered i have MULCH in my skull.
what did i do KNOW??? groan u don't wanna know..
actually its so funny its pathetic... or the other way around...
i sent an entire bunch of Mr S emails to a lot of ppl. wtf ??? will you stop laughing???? its NOT FUNNY !! actually it is.. this proves how screwed up my head is right now. i blame the lack of sleep and the weather. can i get by ONE day without blaming my troubles on someone else?? apparently NOT.
now leave me alone while i crawl under a rock and give a call to my brain which is apparently on vacation. somewhere.
guess i owe Mr S and apology. sorry S.
ugh!!
why do i do these things. can't i just have ONE normal day??? instead of one crisis after another??? groan... i need some chocolate.
apparently NOT.
instead i have discovered i have MULCH in my skull.
what did i do KNOW??? groan u don't wanna know..
actually its so funny its pathetic... or the other way around...
i sent an entire bunch of Mr S emails to a lot of ppl. wtf ??? will you stop laughing???? its NOT FUNNY !! actually it is.. this proves how screwed up my head is right now. i blame the lack of sleep and the weather. can i get by ONE day without blaming my troubles on someone else?? apparently NOT.
now leave me alone while i crawl under a rock and give a call to my brain which is apparently on vacation. somewhere.
guess i owe Mr S and apology. sorry S.
ugh!!
why do i do these things. can't i just have ONE normal day??? instead of one crisis after another??? groan... i need some chocolate.
Thursday, October 11, 2007
bUT sTilL ...
Well considering that I don't use my brain for most of the things I do ...
then it makes sense that I'm writing, doesnt it ??
:P
ok u have to read the Hitchhikers Guide to the galaxy.. i have isolated this strange depression that has descended on me as the onset of withdrawal symptoms from NOT reading a book from a really really long time. phew ! long sentence ..
One can ofcourse sense the madness setting in.
now lets think bout why the hitchhikers guide is the greatest book ever...
especially the eternally depressed android.
lets.
think that is.
ok am done. lets move on.
R is comin to town. R has grown incredibly mushy after the engagement.. but then, one is allowed to grow incredibly mushy during the first couple of weeks on one's engagement.. so i guess one must make allowances for R. also R is getting cake !! and that goes a long way in tolerating all kinds of mushiness.
i am hearing strange noises from my housemates room next to mine. i am NOT a fan of thin cardboard walls i have to say. no no u pervert ! not those kind of noises..
i don't know.. what the heck were YOU thinking???
but i think she's crying.. or is that maniacal laughter. with some females its impossible to tell.
i wonder how guys live years and years with some of the females i see around me.
( now i KNOW no one cud live with me for yrs and yrs.. so i'm included in that list incase u think me too conceited.. )
but think bout it, one female in the lounge today..
"I am sooo proud of myself (why wat did u do ??) .. i actually guessed the area you live in just by hearing your area code.." (wtf??? there are max 3 areas around school.. and this makes u proud of your achievements?? - does that mean i deserve a nobel prize for listening to you yap , without smashing something over your head ???)
this dame really annoys me. she butts into my conversation with someone else without any ..... and then starts blabbering random crap.
some people reaaaaallly annoy me. heck sometimes "I" annoy me.
yeah i get annoyed pretty easily.. i guess...
anyhoooo
i find my life infinitely more peaceful without my phone. dang !! i shud have thought of it sooner...
then it makes sense that I'm writing, doesnt it ??
:P
ok u have to read the Hitchhikers Guide to the galaxy.. i have isolated this strange depression that has descended on me as the onset of withdrawal symptoms from NOT reading a book from a really really long time. phew ! long sentence ..
One can ofcourse sense the madness setting in.
now lets think bout why the hitchhikers guide is the greatest book ever...
especially the eternally depressed android.
lets.
think that is.
ok am done. lets move on.
R is comin to town. R has grown incredibly mushy after the engagement.. but then, one is allowed to grow incredibly mushy during the first couple of weeks on one's engagement.. so i guess one must make allowances for R. also R is getting cake !! and that goes a long way in tolerating all kinds of mushiness.
i am hearing strange noises from my housemates room next to mine. i am NOT a fan of thin cardboard walls i have to say. no no u pervert ! not those kind of noises..
i don't know.. what the heck were YOU thinking???
but i think she's crying.. or is that maniacal laughter. with some females its impossible to tell.
i wonder how guys live years and years with some of the females i see around me.
( now i KNOW no one cud live with me for yrs and yrs.. so i'm included in that list incase u think me too conceited.. )
but think bout it, one female in the lounge today..
"I am sooo proud of myself (why wat did u do ??) .. i actually guessed the area you live in just by hearing your area code.." (wtf??? there are max 3 areas around school.. and this makes u proud of your achievements?? - does that mean i deserve a nobel prize for listening to you yap , without smashing something over your head ???)
this dame really annoys me. she butts into my conversation with someone else without any ..... and then starts blabbering random crap.
some people reaaaaallly annoy me. heck sometimes "I" annoy me.
yeah i get annoyed pretty easily.. i guess...
anyhoooo
i find my life infinitely more peaceful without my phone. dang !! i shud have thought of it sooner...
nOtHiN nEW toDaY
there's nothing new to read. brain shut down for annual maintainence.
come back another day.
[eom] over and out.
come back another day.
[eom] over and out.
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
sMilE aNd wAvE eVerYoNE
since a lot of people are asking me about Mr Sept. and since we have not officially said our goodbyes to him yet.
i'd like to take this very public forum to help clarify a few things..
Mr sept is long gone. (coz now its october :P ok ok PJ !! am i not allowed even one ??)
we had a few differences.. mostly that of a few 100 pounds .... ( too less too much ?? who can tell ??? :D )
my poor mother in the process has gone mad. (bless her soul but spare me the drama woman) i have told those at home that i have lost my phone and cannot be contacted for the next 2 months.
aaah atlast some peace !!!
so everybody... pls stand up and smile and wave your hands and say goodbye to Mr Sept. our star of the series and the person who spawned off so many of our more beloved posts...
:P
well this shud take care of anymore future 'propsect' don't u think ?
lol
well well.. did someone mention the devil's spawn ??? right ho ! and get back to work u mangy currs...
i'd like to take this very public forum to help clarify a few things..
Mr sept is long gone. (coz now its october :P ok ok PJ !! am i not allowed even one ??)
we had a few differences.. mostly that of a few 100 pounds .... ( too less too much ?? who can tell ??? :D )
my poor mother in the process has gone mad. (bless her soul but spare me the drama woman) i have told those at home that i have lost my phone and cannot be contacted for the next 2 months.
aaah atlast some peace !!!
so everybody... pls stand up and smile and wave your hands and say goodbye to Mr Sept. our star of the series and the person who spawned off so many of our more beloved posts...
:P
well this shud take care of anymore future 'propsect' don't u think ?
lol
well well.. did someone mention the devil's spawn ??? right ho ! and get back to work u mangy currs...
Tuesday, October 9, 2007
dEciDe nOW
its crazy when we hafta make those choices that could change our life.
u know.. deciding which color shirt to wear. this wudn't ruin ur life.. mebe..
but deciding which job to take, which school to go to, who to marry. these are touch decisions man. and usually if ur like anything like me, you'll hate to make them too.
u never know if ur making the biggest mistake of your life...
u never know if u should be running in the opposite direction...
these are just really really annoying moments.
now ofcourse if you were anything like me ( and thank the gud lord ur not !) u'd just procrastinate till someone makes the decision for you. mebe sleep. mebe have a coffee.
mebe sit by a lake and look at the stars???
ofcourse u don't know what i'm talking about do u ?? only one does...
and mebe its time u (like me) decided a couple of things right now.
like - its high time we had some chocolate mousse.
yummm !!
u know.. deciding which color shirt to wear. this wudn't ruin ur life.. mebe..
but deciding which job to take, which school to go to, who to marry. these are touch decisions man. and usually if ur like anything like me, you'll hate to make them too.
u never know if ur making the biggest mistake of your life...
u never know if u should be running in the opposite direction...
these are just really really annoying moments.
now ofcourse if you were anything like me ( and thank the gud lord ur not !) u'd just procrastinate till someone makes the decision for you. mebe sleep. mebe have a coffee.
mebe sit by a lake and look at the stars???
ofcourse u don't know what i'm talking about do u ?? only one does...
and mebe its time u (like me) decided a couple of things right now.
like - its high time we had some chocolate mousse.
yummm !!
dOes tHis bLoG mAke mY bUtT loOk fAT?
so studies say having fat friends make us fatter.
too bad , for my friends.. all of them are skinny and guess i'm making them fatter by the minute.
if u want you can read the story
here
ofcourse this came out a while ago, but i thought of posting this today..
why u ask ???
well don't. u don't wanna know.
on another note, due to a couple of minor disasters in my life , my mother .. blessed woman as she is, now thinks i shud get plastic surgery done. whoa !!
wait there a second. don't u think thats a tad drastic ??
well there's a lot of psychology i can throw at u, and say that its not good, yada yada yada.. but ofcourse who can reason with the original essence of madness.
aah well looks like i'm banned from home forever. okies. i'll just wait for her to pass to the gr8 wide pastures beyond...
plastic surgery ... hmmmm.... i wonder... when we become as desperate as to consider that, then perhaps thats the time to get out the people in white coats. or the bourbon.
too bad , for my friends.. all of them are skinny and guess i'm making them fatter by the minute.
if u want you can read the story
here
ofcourse this came out a while ago, but i thought of posting this today..
why u ask ???
well don't. u don't wanna know.
on another note, due to a couple of minor disasters in my life , my mother .. blessed woman as she is, now thinks i shud get plastic surgery done. whoa !!
wait there a second. don't u think thats a tad drastic ??
well there's a lot of psychology i can throw at u, and say that its not good, yada yada yada.. but ofcourse who can reason with the original essence of madness.
aah well looks like i'm banned from home forever. okies. i'll just wait for her to pass to the gr8 wide pastures beyond...
plastic surgery ... hmmmm.... i wonder... when we become as desperate as to consider that, then perhaps thats the time to get out the people in white coats. or the bourbon.
Monday, October 8, 2007
dEsTinY
have you ever thought of your destiny ?
where we were supposed to end up ? how we would be 10 years down the line ??
yes yes we know that what happens always happens for the best. and yes we all know that we shouldn't speculate too much on the future.
and yet.... don't u sometimes think idly of where life would take you and how petty all the things you were worried about now, would seem so silly to us in the future???
sure we've made mistakes. we act stupidly when we should behave with great dignity.
we fight with people when we should show gr8er understanding.
we waste so much time when we should actually be working, procrastinate and crib when we should be focusing.
ok ok , i know its only me. i really should stop using the "we" word shouldn't i ??
:P
sorry force of habit.
anyways getting back to the topic.
imagine yourself 40 years down the line. imagine where and what u'll be doing. who you'll be doing it with. who'll be around you.
imagine the life you always wanted and ponder over it for a while. is that what you really want ? or something others want for you ?
if you've never thought bout this before. well now is an excellent time to think buddy.
u know only one thing is true in the universe
"this too shall pass ..."
ps: i swear i think i'm getting more and more random everyday.
where we were supposed to end up ? how we would be 10 years down the line ??
yes yes we know that what happens always happens for the best. and yes we all know that we shouldn't speculate too much on the future.
and yet.... don't u sometimes think idly of where life would take you and how petty all the things you were worried about now, would seem so silly to us in the future???
sure we've made mistakes. we act stupidly when we should behave with great dignity.
we fight with people when we should show gr8er understanding.
we waste so much time when we should actually be working, procrastinate and crib when we should be focusing.
ok ok , i know its only me. i really should stop using the "we" word shouldn't i ??
:P
sorry force of habit.
anyways getting back to the topic.
imagine yourself 40 years down the line. imagine where and what u'll be doing. who you'll be doing it with. who'll be around you.
imagine the life you always wanted and ponder over it for a while. is that what you really want ? or something others want for you ?
if you've never thought bout this before. well now is an excellent time to think buddy.
u know only one thing is true in the universe
"this too shall pass ..."
ps: i swear i think i'm getting more and more random everyday.
Saturday, October 6, 2007
sO whErE iS tHE lOve
that question mark.
i never knew.
and this song.
i never knew.
ther's a lot on my mind. though i don't think i'm gonna tell you anything about it. so just enjoy the song.
have a gr8 weekend !
i never knew.
and this song.
i never knew.
ther's a lot on my mind. though i don't think i'm gonna tell you anything about it. so just enjoy the song.
have a gr8 weekend !
Tuesday, October 2, 2007
hOw tiMe fLiEs
aaaaaaaaaaak
its already october !! where did all the time go ???
wats happening?? someone slow down my life !!
only 3 more months and 2007 is over...
ok panic attack in full swing. help !
its already october !! where did all the time go ???
wats happening?? someone slow down my life !!
only 3 more months and 2007 is over...
ok panic attack in full swing. help !
dOn'T yOU aLsO hAtE iT
when someone copies ur entire homework and then u realize they got a 100 while you got a 98 ?
tHe aVerAGe LiAr
so i cant lie to save my life. atleast i can't lie consistently.
If half the people i lied to compared the stories i try to tell, then boy am I gonna be in trouble. Thats why its fortunate for me that I don't do much of that. lying i mean.
U shud ask A. a simple thing that has to be done which we don't want to broadcast and it takes a major battle plan and strategy. minutes and minutes of counter planning and synchronizing stories. and in the end what happens??
I go and blab a completely different story to the first person who cross examines me.
aaaaaaak !!!
back to the drawing board ! the entire plan has simply fallen apart !!!
every plan is only as strong as its weakest link and i'm as strong under fire as a wisp of cotton candy...
ofcourse the sad part is that for 'normal' people what we're doing isn't even worth pondering about....
lol
ofcourse my lab partners seem to be extremely proficient in these activities. the excuses they come up with are extremely creative ! whoa i wonder how they do it??
on another note, i never seem to learn from my mistakes. had an interview today and i swear i must be the first person to land at an interview without even a pen and just myself. half way through i realized i had NO grey/black folder, NO copy of my resume and NOthing in my head.
thanx bulletin board for letting me know 5 minutes before my interview ... actually if it wasn't for you , i might have never realized till the end of the interview.
but it was remarkably easy to shake everyone's hand.
aah well. if only one lived and learnt instead of just lived.
If half the people i lied to compared the stories i try to tell, then boy am I gonna be in trouble. Thats why its fortunate for me that I don't do much of that. lying i mean.
U shud ask A. a simple thing that has to be done which we don't want to broadcast and it takes a major battle plan and strategy. minutes and minutes of counter planning and synchronizing stories. and in the end what happens??
I go and blab a completely different story to the first person who cross examines me.
aaaaaaak !!!
back to the drawing board ! the entire plan has simply fallen apart !!!
every plan is only as strong as its weakest link and i'm as strong under fire as a wisp of cotton candy...
ofcourse the sad part is that for 'normal' people what we're doing isn't even worth pondering about....
lol
ofcourse my lab partners seem to be extremely proficient in these activities. the excuses they come up with are extremely creative ! whoa i wonder how they do it??
on another note, i never seem to learn from my mistakes. had an interview today and i swear i must be the first person to land at an interview without even a pen and just myself. half way through i realized i had NO grey/black folder, NO copy of my resume and NOthing in my head.
thanx bulletin board for letting me know 5 minutes before my interview ... actually if it wasn't for you , i might have never realized till the end of the interview.
but it was remarkably easy to shake everyone's hand.
aah well. if only one lived and learnt instead of just lived.
Friday, September 28, 2007
nUtHin uP mY sLEevE
something's up.
but i'm not telling you what till i figure it out completely.
and till then .... you'll just have to wait.
ok u get a clue. its not wat your expecting and you'll know what it is in a month.
ha ! thats all your getting.....now u'll just have to be patient...
;P
awright awright... this is what mood i'm in right now. ok ?
but i'm not telling you what till i figure it out completely.
and till then .... you'll just have to wait.
ok u get a clue. its not wat your expecting and you'll know what it is in a month.
ha ! thats all your getting.....now u'll just have to be patient...
;P
awright awright... this is what mood i'm in right now. ok ?
Thursday, September 27, 2007
sLicE oF hEAveN
outside my window...
ok let the crib fest end. life aint that bad after all.
its been raining all day and now that its stopped, you should look outside my window,
no no not yours. look outside mine. the sun will set soon and large masses of clouds move lazily across the skies. The sky is still blue with a hint of gold creeping over the horizon... The Cathedral of learning is right outside my window and its framed by gold on the left and grey bluish clouds on top...
"For so gr8 a treasure , words will never do ...."- some random song
oh well, for all the shit we go through in life, sometimes u have to stop and admit that there are grander things going on. there is beauty in the world , much more of it than we probably deserve ... should i talk bout God? do i even dare enter that right now???
I have a huge bay window which i keep open even though it glares into my eyes. and right now I could spend hours looking at the clouds moving across the expanse.
and then ofcourse the train comes through and shatters my reverie.
aaaah well back to work...
ok let the crib fest end. life aint that bad after all.
its been raining all day and now that its stopped, you should look outside my window,
no no not yours. look outside mine. the sun will set soon and large masses of clouds move lazily across the skies. The sky is still blue with a hint of gold creeping over the horizon... The Cathedral of learning is right outside my window and its framed by gold on the left and grey bluish clouds on top...
"For so gr8 a treasure , words will never do ...."- some random song
oh well, for all the shit we go through in life, sometimes u have to stop and admit that there are grander things going on. there is beauty in the world , much more of it than we probably deserve ... should i talk bout God? do i even dare enter that right now???
I have a huge bay window which i keep open even though it glares into my eyes. and right now I could spend hours looking at the clouds moving across the expanse.
and then ofcourse the train comes through and shatters my reverie.
aaaah well back to work...
Wednesday, September 26, 2007
toO mAnY cOmPLaiNts
so you think i crib too much ?
well u wud too, if you were in my position...
"hi ma, whats it.. i got class now in a while"
"nothing much. how r things."
"things are fine..." {am on my gaurd now.. its 5 in the morning in india and there better be a gud reason for this call}
"how r talks with that guy ??"
"what talks? oh that.. oh we're ahead of schedule...."
"you are" {all excited}
"yeah sure...we might even come up with a new plan to fight global warming BEFORE Nov end." {i say dryly}
"ohhhhh stop acting too smart. am sure ur doing the same with him also.... i was just thinking bout u two...he's sooo cute. i feel like he's my son.
infact i wish he cud be my son in law, but he's too good for you..."
"whoa !! back up a minute.. whats that again ???" {i had tuned out in 2. 67 sec and was rudely woken up..}
"if thats what you think, why the heck did u ask me to talk to him in the first place???"
"becoz i really want him as a son-in-law"
"waaaaaaat???? u must be crazy.. " {i'm temporarily speechless...she's obviously lost it.. poor woman...}
"yeah, see if u can get him to say yes. i think u shud lose bout 20 pounds before you guys meet. try not to eat" { notice its not try not to eat TOO MUCH... its try not to eat}
"WHAT? that has to be the worst advice ever !! wat do u mean try not to eat..." {this is getting so ridiculous its actually funny.. though am THIS close to losing my temper}
" and wat do u mean GET him to say yes???? am i supposed to knock him on the head and hypnotize him or something????"
"I mean, why dont u NOT eat for bout a week or 2. am sure u'll lose those pounds in no time. "
"Ofcourse you are."
"am sure u can convince him... u should flirt a little.... "
"Thats RIDICULOUS.. your TELLIN me to do stuff like that ??? aaaaaaaaaaak !!!! eeeeeew i dont want to talk bout this with YOU !"
"btw you should be careful.. he's a good judge of character..."
{i interrupt ... by now i'm shouting.. which means i'm hopelessly not getting through to her...}
"WHAT the heck is that supposed to mean.. i have a perfectly fine character even if someone wanted to judge it... why the heck are u askin me to be CAREFUL?? infact its gud if ppl judge properly. and besides what about me judging characters.. doesnt that count?????"
" no no do u always have to get so touchy.. i just meant , you shud speak sense....{wat? now i dont speak sense anymore??} , and u should think before you speak..{ and i dont think before i speak anymore??? can this conversation GET any worse???}....
{she drones on and on...}
"ok so let me get this straight. you dont want me to talk what i think. you dont want me to look the way i am... are you sure u dont want to exchange me for someone else, so that u can get him as your son in law???? are u INSANE ??? I got class !!"
click
aah well , guess this counts as the crazy of the day....
well u wud too, if you were in my position...
"hi ma, whats it.. i got class now in a while"
"nothing much. how r things."
"things are fine..." {am on my gaurd now.. its 5 in the morning in india and there better be a gud reason for this call}
"how r talks with that guy ??"
"what talks? oh that.. oh we're ahead of schedule...."
"you are" {all excited}
"yeah sure...we might even come up with a new plan to fight global warming BEFORE Nov end." {i say dryly}
"ohhhhh stop acting too smart. am sure ur doing the same with him also.... i was just thinking bout u two...he's sooo cute. i feel like he's my son.
infact i wish he cud be my son in law, but he's too good for you..."
"whoa !! back up a minute.. whats that again ???" {i had tuned out in 2. 67 sec and was rudely woken up..}
"if thats what you think, why the heck did u ask me to talk to him in the first place???"
"becoz i really want him as a son-in-law"
"waaaaaaat???? u must be crazy.. " {i'm temporarily speechless...she's obviously lost it.. poor woman...}
"yeah, see if u can get him to say yes. i think u shud lose bout 20 pounds before you guys meet. try not to eat" { notice its not try not to eat TOO MUCH... its try not to eat}
"WHAT? that has to be the worst advice ever !! wat do u mean try not to eat..." {this is getting so ridiculous its actually funny.. though am THIS close to losing my temper}
" and wat do u mean GET him to say yes???? am i supposed to knock him on the head and hypnotize him or something????"
"I mean, why dont u NOT eat for bout a week or 2. am sure u'll lose those pounds in no time. "
"Ofcourse you are."
"am sure u can convince him... u should flirt a little.... "
"Thats RIDICULOUS.. your TELLIN me to do stuff like that ??? aaaaaaaaaaak !!!! eeeeeew i dont want to talk bout this with YOU !"
"btw you should be careful.. he's a good judge of character..."
{i interrupt ... by now i'm shouting.. which means i'm hopelessly not getting through to her...}
"WHAT the heck is that supposed to mean.. i have a perfectly fine character even if someone wanted to judge it... why the heck are u askin me to be CAREFUL?? infact its gud if ppl judge properly. and besides what about me judging characters.. doesnt that count?????"
" no no do u always have to get so touchy.. i just meant , you shud speak sense....{wat? now i dont speak sense anymore??} , and u should think before you speak..{ and i dont think before i speak anymore??? can this conversation GET any worse???}....
{she drones on and on...}
"ok so let me get this straight. you dont want me to talk what i think. you dont want me to look the way i am... are you sure u dont want to exchange me for someone else, so that u can get him as your son in law???? are u INSANE ??? I got class !!"
click
aah well , guess this counts as the crazy of the day....
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
mAsSes aND hOrdES
so we had a career fair right?
and these are real bloodbaths. u know that right? u rem the time u went to school...
oh come on u rem.... uve just suppressed the memories coz they were so traumatic
well u remember...
hordes of companies.. even bigger hordes of students and then after that the inevitable cross examination they put u through.. no no not the companies...
its the students..
"so did u get any calls"
"not yet, did you?"
"hmm yeah , bout 6 companies have shortlisted me for interviews.. i'm not sure bout 2 of them .. blah blah" {and all this while you try not to look bored, frustrated or try not to hack them to death with a stapler lying next to you}
"so what about you"
"hmm nope no calls." { ur fast sinking into the pit of gloom}
"oh dont worry, i'm sure you will" {she's really trying to be helpful? or pushing me further in the pit of gloom ?? passive agressive at its best.}
"did you apply to XXX , i did and got a call from them next sat for an interview. why didnt you apply to them??"
awright AWRIGHT already, they didnt want me ok? is that what you wanna hear?
are u TRYING to push me over the edge? coz if you are , ur succeeding very well lady. i ahve to hand it to ya... - all this running through my mind as i give this incredibly dirty look to that female and slowly walk away.
really the school shouldnt have so many staplers lying around...
and these are real bloodbaths. u know that right? u rem the time u went to school...
oh come on u rem.... uve just suppressed the memories coz they were so traumatic
well u remember...
hordes of companies.. even bigger hordes of students and then after that the inevitable cross examination they put u through.. no no not the companies...
its the students..
"so did u get any calls"
"not yet, did you?"
"hmm yeah , bout 6 companies have shortlisted me for interviews.. i'm not sure bout 2 of them .. blah blah" {and all this while you try not to look bored, frustrated or try not to hack them to death with a stapler lying next to you}
"so what about you"
"hmm nope no calls." { ur fast sinking into the pit of gloom}
"oh dont worry, i'm sure you will" {she's really trying to be helpful? or pushing me further in the pit of gloom ?? passive agressive at its best.}
"did you apply to XXX , i did and got a call from them next sat for an interview. why didnt you apply to them??"
awright AWRIGHT already, they didnt want me ok? is that what you wanna hear?
are u TRYING to push me over the edge? coz if you are , ur succeeding very well lady. i ahve to hand it to ya... - all this running through my mind as i give this incredibly dirty look to that female and slowly walk away.
really the school shouldnt have so many staplers lying around...
aND hoW iT stArTs
i get up in the morning and already the thought of the day ahead is beginning to get up on my nerves.
so many things running through my head and the main ditty is how i need some sleep.
i just need some more sleep, and i know half my frustrations will disappear... but i also know that this entire sem will be this way.. i know a couple of things bout myself though..
i'll survive. and when the going gets really tough, i'll promptly fall asleep !!
lol
oh man this sem is gonna kill me !
so many things running through my head and the main ditty is how i need some sleep.
i just need some more sleep, and i know half my frustrations will disappear... but i also know that this entire sem will be this way.. i know a couple of things bout myself though..
i'll survive. and when the going gets really tough, i'll promptly fall asleep !!
lol
oh man this sem is gonna kill me !
Saturday, September 22, 2007
iDenTiFY
I think i just id'd the biggest source of confusion in my life...
yup folks its none other than my MAAATHA.
yup she is the one. everytime i talk to her she gives such conflicting news/advice/suggestions.. no wonder am so lost !
Also i look around at the people around me... well whaddaya know ! theyr ALL confused... ok so granted that most are years younger than me... but still..
i dont think half of you out there know what your supposed to be upto or what you want.
the only difference i think is that i blab about it to everyone while you don't.
yup folks its none other than my MAAATHA.
yup she is the one. everytime i talk to her she gives such conflicting news/advice/suggestions.. no wonder am so lost !
Also i look around at the people around me... well whaddaya know ! theyr ALL confused... ok so granted that most are years younger than me... but still..
i dont think half of you out there know what your supposed to be upto or what you want.
the only difference i think is that i blab about it to everyone while you don't.
Friday, September 21, 2007
lAziNeSs
I was always curious
what made some people lazier than the rest ? i think i pondered this the most while my beloved maatha was yelling at me for not getting things done on time...
u know the kind who always pay the bills late, with ridiculous fines no less.. the one's who always forget to get things done until the last minute. those who pay a 1000 bucks in fines to the school because they did not pay the exam fees on time...
so while she yells .. i get lost in thought.. thinking how less complicated my life would be if only i would focus and get things done...
huh what did u say ?? oh ur still yelling about that application i forgot to turn in.. ok i'll be back in 15 min...
so where was i? oh yeah.. ther's this article you should read..
The Lure of Laziness
so apparently there are ppl who actually study this !! gosh why am i not doing THAT ????
oh are u still yelling ? my bad .. u can continue . i got some imp daydreaming to get back to ...
what made some people lazier than the rest ? i think i pondered this the most while my beloved maatha was yelling at me for not getting things done on time...
u know the kind who always pay the bills late, with ridiculous fines no less.. the one's who always forget to get things done until the last minute. those who pay a 1000 bucks in fines to the school because they did not pay the exam fees on time...
so while she yells .. i get lost in thought.. thinking how less complicated my life would be if only i would focus and get things done...
huh what did u say ?? oh ur still yelling about that application i forgot to turn in.. ok i'll be back in 15 min...
so where was i? oh yeah.. ther's this article you should read..
The Lure of Laziness
so apparently there are ppl who actually study this !! gosh why am i not doing THAT ????
oh are u still yelling ? my bad .. u can continue . i got some imp daydreaming to get back to ...
tEaMWorK
Once upon a time, I had an interview... and i was asked, what would you do if you were in a team and no one worked. what would you do, if you had to do all the work?
would you let ppl walk all over you ?
would you complain ? would you tell on your teammates ?
i think i blabbed something incredibly stupid of doing all the work ( trust me thats one job i didnt get ! and for good reason too ..). years and years later .. (actually only three) i'm still living those words. i always seem to end up in these projects where i seem to be the only one sitting in the lab early saturday morning and trying to figure out why the heck my processor insists on giving me such a hard time.
but inspite of all my bitchin i guess the only reason i still do it is that i have just too much fun. and i realized something else. my ability to work with stupid ppl has really gone down. i mean we had morons in the office before and i was pretty tolerant of it, else i'd atleast try to get things done...
but now? its like me doing the 3 partner course on my own.. and i rather prefer it that way !! i just find it way easier..
now imagine if i DID do my phd. i think i'd become down right unemployable !!!
never work with anyone at all !
would you let ppl walk all over you ?
would you complain ? would you tell on your teammates ?
i think i blabbed something incredibly stupid of doing all the work ( trust me thats one job i didnt get ! and for good reason too ..). years and years later .. (actually only three) i'm still living those words. i always seem to end up in these projects where i seem to be the only one sitting in the lab early saturday morning and trying to figure out why the heck my processor insists on giving me such a hard time.
but inspite of all my bitchin i guess the only reason i still do it is that i have just too much fun. and i realized something else. my ability to work with stupid ppl has really gone down. i mean we had morons in the office before and i was pretty tolerant of it, else i'd atleast try to get things done...
but now? its like me doing the 3 partner course on my own.. and i rather prefer it that way !! i just find it way easier..
now imagine if i DID do my phd. i think i'd become down right unemployable !!!
never work with anyone at all !
Monday, September 17, 2007
rEpoRTs oF aNoTHeR kiND
4:20 - phone alarm beeps ...incessantly... loudly.. annoying. throw the phone off the bed. alarm stops beeping.
6:30 - get up with a start. rem reason for 4:20 alarm. assignment due in 4 hours. not yet started. start reading and scribbling.
8:30 - get up with a start again. realize been drooling over the assignment sheet. fallen asleep over question paper. mentally kick oneself. start writing in full earnest.
10:30 - assignment done. (hurray !) submit. go chat with roomie. look at the sky outside. life is good.
11:30 - reach school. remember second assignment. had forgotten all about it. shit ! project partner missing.panic attack starts. life sucks big time...
12:30 - everyone around has jobs. applying for jobs , very busy. feeling very sleepy again. check emails, hit F5 128th time. no emails. depressed, no jobs. no project partner in sight.
1:30 - friend from india pings. love life problems. help friend out. feel good. check time. class in an hour. worry , not prepped for class. feel terrible.
2:30 - class
3:30 - advisor calls in middle of class from out of town. remember not done any research in last 2 weeks since advisor out of town. start thinking of excuses.
3:45 - wake up. prof still talking. had dozed off in between. crap !
4:00 - wake up from day dream with a start. prof droning on, wait wait wats all that math on the board??? i don't understand anything...why are there so many greek symbols there ??? back up a sec !
4:30 - class ending. start ruminating on pointlessness of existence. purpose of life. future of of all mankind. prof announces project proposal dates. project partner arrives after class is over.
5:30 - lab. not prepped since slept all saturday. what is happening. is there any meaning to my life? why am i here? who am i ???
7:00 - everyone talks of job interviews , applying to companies. everyone's doing homework. feel more depressed. go to research lab. wait for professor. call him back. says talk tomorrow. full scale panic attack....update blog as too tensed to work...
waste time in school till 4:00 in the morning , in full panic mode now. go home and crash.
rinse and repeat ....
6:30 - get up with a start. rem reason for 4:20 alarm. assignment due in 4 hours. not yet started. start reading and scribbling.
8:30 - get up with a start again. realize been drooling over the assignment sheet. fallen asleep over question paper. mentally kick oneself. start writing in full earnest.
10:30 - assignment done. (hurray !) submit. go chat with roomie. look at the sky outside. life is good.
11:30 - reach school. remember second assignment. had forgotten all about it. shit ! project partner missing.panic attack starts. life sucks big time...
12:30 - everyone around has jobs. applying for jobs , very busy. feeling very sleepy again. check emails, hit F5 128th time. no emails. depressed, no jobs. no project partner in sight.
1:30 - friend from india pings. love life problems. help friend out. feel good. check time. class in an hour. worry , not prepped for class. feel terrible.
2:30 - class
3:30 - advisor calls in middle of class from out of town. remember not done any research in last 2 weeks since advisor out of town. start thinking of excuses.
3:45 - wake up. prof still talking. had dozed off in between. crap !
4:00 - wake up from day dream with a start. prof droning on, wait wait wats all that math on the board??? i don't understand anything...why are there so many greek symbols there ??? back up a sec !
4:30 - class ending. start ruminating on pointlessness of existence. purpose of life. future of of all mankind. prof announces project proposal dates. project partner arrives after class is over.
5:30 - lab. not prepped since slept all saturday. what is happening. is there any meaning to my life? why am i here? who am i ???
7:00 - everyone talks of job interviews , applying to companies. everyone's doing homework. feel more depressed. go to research lab. wait for professor. call him back. says talk tomorrow. full scale panic attack....update blog as too tensed to work...
waste time in school till 4:00 in the morning , in full panic mode now. go home and crash.
rinse and repeat ....
Saturday, September 15, 2007
nEw fiNdiNGs
i found a new love.
a new group - enya..
the voice haunts me and follows me where i go.
i hope u like it as much as i do.
am not much for mushy doings... so thats all i'll say.
have a gr8 day ahead !
a new group - enya..
the voice haunts me and follows me where i go.
i hope u like it as much as i do.
am not much for mushy doings... so thats all i'll say.
have a gr8 day ahead !
loOkiN bACk
u know whats the best part of writing a blog right??
no no its not the millions of adoring fans u secretly hope to win {shhhh ur not supposed to let that out} or its not the book deal ur hoping to get which will make u as rich as **** oh well ass rich as anyone u can think of.
no those are the reasons u love your own blog. narcissism might be one. but not the prev listed one's.
well on a serious note, its actually when u go back and read it yrs later. when u see how stupid u once were and cringe. THOSE are the golden moments :D
its like a mental history map. come on.
doont u think your memories of yourself are biased? that u remember only the good times? that you tend to gloss over all your own stupidities ???
oh come on , u know it and if u want proof why dont u go back and read something that you wrote like 5 yrs ago ?? if u can find it that is.
yeah u'll see such a marked difference.
was reading my older blog {yes the one which is blocked from teh public due to public safety concerns..} and made me think of those times. when i was such an ass !
ofcourse not saying am not one now. in all probability i cud be a even bigger one !!
but well, some things sure have changed....
except for one thing. even a couple of yrs ago i was railing against the whole marriage thing. just made it painfully obvious how long i've been fighting this thing.
someone has to pay for all the trouble ive gone through.. wait i need to call my mother.....
no no its not the millions of adoring fans u secretly hope to win {shhhh ur not supposed to let that out} or its not the book deal ur hoping to get which will make u as rich as **** oh well ass rich as anyone u can think of.
no those are the reasons u love your own blog. narcissism might be one. but not the prev listed one's.
well on a serious note, its actually when u go back and read it yrs later. when u see how stupid u once were and cringe. THOSE are the golden moments :D
its like a mental history map. come on.
doont u think your memories of yourself are biased? that u remember only the good times? that you tend to gloss over all your own stupidities ???
oh come on , u know it and if u want proof why dont u go back and read something that you wrote like 5 yrs ago ?? if u can find it that is.
yeah u'll see such a marked difference.
was reading my older blog {yes the one which is blocked from teh public due to public safety concerns..} and made me think of those times. when i was such an ass !
ofcourse not saying am not one now. in all probability i cud be a even bigger one !!
but well, some things sure have changed....
except for one thing. even a couple of yrs ago i was railing against the whole marriage thing. just made it painfully obvious how long i've been fighting this thing.
someone has to pay for all the trouble ive gone through.. wait i need to call my mother.....
Friday, September 14, 2007
wHeRE's tHE fuN
I just stumbled upon an old old post on my prev blog which is barred to the general public...due to public safety concerns :-/
but i think this is harmless enuf. i'm not half as bad a poet as i think i am...
where's the fun if u don't smile ?
if u don't wink and shake a leg ?
where's the fun if you hear no song ?
if you don't love and twirl around ?
if you don't hop and skip and run,
laugh and shout, giggle and have fun
what's left in life except dreary days
if you don't find ways
then where's the fun ?
would you rather , moan and cry ?
spend your days in despair and so dry
isn't it better to be in love ?
than sulk that he isn't the perfect one ?
grow up honey
there's no such thing
as a perfect world and
a perfect life
wake up and do
what you've never done
go out and smile at a passerby
make your life brighter
spend your days well
else where's the fun ?
- sheeths
;P my attempt at some whacko philosophy. i know i know it can be improved...
but then u gotta rem this was written in 5 min flat.
*** if the question is not understood ... then what of the consequesnce ? -- M B ***
but i think this is harmless enuf. i'm not half as bad a poet as i think i am...
where's the fun if u don't smile ?
if u don't wink and shake a leg ?
where's the fun if you hear no song ?
if you don't love and twirl around ?
if you don't hop and skip and run,
laugh and shout, giggle and have fun
what's left in life except dreary days
if you don't find ways
then where's the fun ?
would you rather , moan and cry ?
spend your days in despair and so dry
isn't it better to be in love ?
than sulk that he isn't the perfect one ?
grow up honey
there's no such thing
as a perfect world and
a perfect life
wake up and do
what you've never done
go out and smile at a passerby
make your life brighter
spend your days well
else where's the fun ?
- sheeths
;P my attempt at some whacko philosophy. i know i know it can be improved...
but then u gotta rem this was written in 5 min flat.
*** if the question is not understood ... then what of the consequesnce ? -- M B ***
Thursday, September 13, 2007
wRitTen sTyLE
i used to have a real fancy for graphology and sometimes old habits die hard..
after yrs of reading up on handwriting analysis, you never stop noticing a piece of paper with things written on it. I may not remember much, but then the brain instantly kicks into search and decipher mode...
after months of iris recognition , now everytime i meet someone , i look at their eyes. trying to estimate if their iris would make a gud test subject, if i can extract enough features from that iris ( though it has made more than one person uncomfortable.. i can imagine ... having someone like me peering intently at your eyes as soon as we meet CANNOT be a pleasant experience )
everytime i get a clear view of a palm , i have an urge to read the lines, everytime i see a snippet of a horoscope no matter how ridiculous i have the urge to go read all the planetry alignments and try to remember...
looking back i can see ive dabbled in some pretty wierd fields huh ?
for an engineer i mean.
u wud think that being in such a geeky place. surrounded by such nerds, i'd have turned into one of them..
no such luck !
the geekier my peers, the more eccentric i've become. almost like a desperate attempt to make sure i dont turn into a pure technocrat.
note : to all those geeks out there , reading this ( and i know all 4 of you'll well ... :P) - no offense.
but i dont mind all that time i spent in these areas... even if it came at a cost. sure i'm not exactly clear if my processor is a big or little endian machine.. but
then, atleast most ppl who meet me think i'm insane. (yes i consider that a plus. no i wont tell you why)
btw graphology IS a VERY interesting science and can be so much fun when it becomes intuitive :)
toodles.
pEopLE iN bUseS
on a totally different note -
u know who i find wierd ?? ok ok not myself. i meant OTHER people.. can we focus here for a sec please ... {rollin my eyes}
anyhooo i was talkin but was - { ok ok enuf already .. u know that joke has grown rather stale..} was bout those females you find in the buses who don't know how to stand in a bus. u know those esteemable(did i just invent a word here or does the dictionary not recognize this word ?) category who supposedly stand in the bus, but sway dangerously all over the place at the slightest movement.
ITS A BUS PEOPLE.
come on. how fast could it be going??? max 20 miles an hour. in this country ?? max.
so why do u have to be a public hazard to the rest of us who DO know how to brace ourselves against momentum ?
its not rocket science, just a little fancy knee bending at the right time and voila ! your steady and not potentially sitting on some dude's lap.
i think these are the same girls who hold on to the railing to show of their watches ... i mean what else could it be ??? its not your lovers hand for chrissake... its a RAILING. hold on to it if u cant get the footwork right...
but noooo i have to dodge ur infernal swaying so that i dont get hit in the eye by a 2 ton bag which is bigger than even me. and am sure the dude would mind u sitting on his lap either , except that that bag of yours would permanently damage the family jewels.
u know who i find wierd ?? ok ok not myself. i meant OTHER people.. can we focus here for a sec please ... {rollin my eyes}
anyhooo i was talkin but was - { ok ok enuf already .. u know that joke has grown rather stale..} was bout those females you find in the buses who don't know how to stand in a bus. u know those esteemable(did i just invent a word here or does the dictionary not recognize this word ?) category who supposedly stand in the bus, but sway dangerously all over the place at the slightest movement.
ITS A BUS PEOPLE.
come on. how fast could it be going??? max 20 miles an hour. in this country ?? max.
so why do u have to be a public hazard to the rest of us who DO know how to brace ourselves against momentum ?
its not rocket science, just a little fancy knee bending at the right time and voila ! your steady and not potentially sitting on some dude's lap.
i think these are the same girls who hold on to the railing to show of their watches ... i mean what else could it be ??? its not your lovers hand for chrissake... its a RAILING. hold on to it if u cant get the footwork right...
but noooo i have to dodge ur infernal swaying so that i dont get hit in the eye by a 2 ton bag which is bigger than even me. and am sure the dude would mind u sitting on his lap either , except that that bag of yours would permanently damage the family jewels.
hOw LoNG iTS bEen
the song that goes with the lyrics of the prev post
yest when i sat in class, the one with the prof whose voice sends me to sleep ..
I had an epiphany (hey i spelled it right !)
just struck me, how far i was from home sitting in a class with one of the best profs in the field and with the gall to sleep. now i cud get all mushy and philosophical and ruminate on how i never thought i'd ever be where i was.
i cud
i cud also gag
neither are pleasant so lets skip it.
but I cant resist. so ppl susceptible to gagging dont read on ...
:) and dont say i didnt give ya fair warning either ..
now
just think bout it.
stop for a minute and look around. haven't u come a long way from the kid you were?
from the kid that played without a care in the world, from the times which i wudnt say were simpler, but were so different ?
where we wouldn't think ahead beyond a few days, which grew to a few months, and then we started thinking a few yrs ahead..
stop and think. bout the journey. after all thats what's gonna add up to ur life in the end.
yest when i sat in class, the one with the prof whose voice sends me to sleep ..
I had an epiphany (hey i spelled it right !)
just struck me, how far i was from home sitting in a class with one of the best profs in the field and with the gall to sleep. now i cud get all mushy and philosophical and ruminate on how i never thought i'd ever be where i was.
i cud
i cud also gag
neither are pleasant so lets skip it.
but I cant resist. so ppl susceptible to gagging dont read on ...
:) and dont say i didnt give ya fair warning either ..
now
just think bout it.
stop for a minute and look around. haven't u come a long way from the kid you were?
from the kid that played without a care in the world, from the times which i wudnt say were simpler, but were so different ?
where we wouldn't think ahead beyond a few days, which grew to a few months, and then we started thinking a few yrs ahead..
stop and think. bout the journey. after all thats what's gonna add up to ur life in the end.
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
sOng anD A LaRK
ok this time its a poem instead of a song
May it be an evening star
Shines down upon you
May it be when darkness falls
Your heart will be true
You walk a lonely road
Oh! How far you are from home
Mornie utúlie (darknesss has come)
Believe and you will find your way
Mornie alantie (darknesss has fallen)
A promise lives within you now
May it be the shadows call
Will fly away
May it be your journey on
To light the day
When the night is overcome
You may rise to find the sun
Mornie utúlie (darknesss has come)
Believe and you will find your way
Mornie alantie (darknesss has fallen)
A promise lives within you now
A promise lives within you now
- Composed and performed by Enya
Lyrics by Roma Ryan
some of the most beautiful music ive heard recently. yup its from LOTR...
one of the best books i read... after listening to this , one could almost believe .....
perhaps its all worth it in the end.
i'll dedicate it to all the people i knew who had to pass away from this world before me. mebe i'll meet you again some day.
May it be an evening star
Shines down upon you
May it be when darkness falls
Your heart will be true
You walk a lonely road
Oh! How far you are from home
Mornie utúlie (darknesss has come)
Believe and you will find your way
Mornie alantie (darknesss has fallen)
A promise lives within you now
May it be the shadows call
Will fly away
May it be your journey on
To light the day
When the night is overcome
You may rise to find the sun
Mornie utúlie (darknesss has come)
Believe and you will find your way
Mornie alantie (darknesss has fallen)
A promise lives within you now
A promise lives within you now
- Composed and performed by Enya
Lyrics by Roma Ryan
some of the most beautiful music ive heard recently. yup its from LOTR...
one of the best books i read... after listening to this , one could almost believe .....
perhaps its all worth it in the end.
i'll dedicate it to all the people i knew who had to pass away from this world before me. mebe i'll meet you again some day.
toO LaTE
ok so its only been 3 weeks in school. u ask how bad can it be ??
u are SOOOOOO ignorent, and I can't spell for nuts.
deal with it.
like i said, i go home bout 4 everyday. but yest i went home early.. no no not becoz i had finished my work in school, it was coz both my roomies had their b'day yest and they were trying to scream at me to get my ass home so that they cud cut their cake.
seeing that its only 4 of us, even one person missing makes it a rather sad party.
but trying is the right word .... coz everytime she tried to threaten me to try and get me home, all i kept parroting was "i got lab. let me go."
but anyways since i'm so nice (yeah right), I did go home early (the real reason was that she let slip there was cake at home).. well fairly early. it was only 1.
but thats the time disaster strikes.
wat happens??
well my prof calls and asks me for some ppt slides on my research. ofcourse the fact that its middle of the night has no bearing on anything.
ofcourse.
so i have 10 hours to get something out.
plenty of time for anyone. ofcourse.
except that i got 2 homeworks (the word still makes me cringe btw) due and havent had a total of 5 hours sleep in the last 48+ hours...
welcome to grad school.
ofcourse u know what happens next.
no no , i don't stay up all night to finish everything.
i eat cake. i decide to shut my eyes for an hour and the next thing i know its 9 in the morning and daylight streaming through the windows.
^&%%$
^%$%# &^*(*&^
welcome to grad school.
u are SOOOOOO ignorent, and I can't spell for nuts.
deal with it.
like i said, i go home bout 4 everyday. but yest i went home early.. no no not becoz i had finished my work in school, it was coz both my roomies had their b'day yest and they were trying to scream at me to get my ass home so that they cud cut their cake.
seeing that its only 4 of us, even one person missing makes it a rather sad party.
but trying is the right word .... coz everytime she tried to threaten me to try and get me home, all i kept parroting was "i got lab. let me go."
but anyways since i'm so nice (yeah right), I did go home early (the real reason was that she let slip there was cake at home).. well fairly early. it was only 1.
but thats the time disaster strikes.
wat happens??
well my prof calls and asks me for some ppt slides on my research. ofcourse the fact that its middle of the night has no bearing on anything.
ofcourse.
so i have 10 hours to get something out.
plenty of time for anyone. ofcourse.
except that i got 2 homeworks (the word still makes me cringe btw) due and havent had a total of 5 hours sleep in the last 48+ hours...
welcome to grad school.
ofcourse u know what happens next.
no no , i don't stay up all night to finish everything.
i eat cake. i decide to shut my eyes for an hour and the next thing i know its 9 in the morning and daylight streaming through the windows.
^&%%$
^%$%# &^*(*&^
welcome to grad school.
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
wAitiNG
the videos of me in an elevator, would probably win some kind of comedy award.
i usually get home by 4 in the morning and by that time all i can think of is my bed...
so when i get into the elevator and then am impatiently tapping my foot ad cursing the ancient contraption.... thats when i realized that its been too long in the elevator..
hmmph something is not right.
oh yeah..... i've forgotten to push the button!
so there i've been, stationary, the last 10 minutes dreaming of my bed on the 9th floor, while the bucket of bolts was calmly waiting for me to come to my senses and push the button.
oh but what makes it truly ignoble is that this happens atleast twice a week.
i usually get home by 4 in the morning and by that time all i can think of is my bed...
so when i get into the elevator and then am impatiently tapping my foot ad cursing the ancient contraption.... thats when i realized that its been too long in the elevator..
hmmph something is not right.
oh yeah..... i've forgotten to push the button!
so there i've been, stationary, the last 10 minutes dreaming of my bed on the 9th floor, while the bucket of bolts was calmly waiting for me to come to my senses and push the button.
oh but what makes it truly ignoble is that this happens atleast twice a week.
Monday, September 10, 2007
whY sHoULd wE gO bACk?
would you consider it incredibly pathetic that a grown woman had to sit back in school and do HomeWork ?? at 2 in the morning???
yup, early morning, perfect for philosophy. perfect to ruminate, on your direction in life and chew a pencil trying to think what how many cycles my processor takes for read write operations.
any thoughts?
anyone?
probably not.
lets get on.
i read an interesting article recently. apparently what i thought was a local debate which i had with my friends, is not. that.
Apparently its something lot of people ask, and considering the sudden surge of traffic suddenly directed my way, i almost feel like tucking in my shirt and straightening my hair... almost.
honestly didnt expect that and now i just wish i hadnt left a loose link at that post, but if u want to read it , here it is
Staying Back in the US
it makes a gud case. though flawed ( I believe)
For a guy he's almost convincing that he knows a lot about females.
the operative word being almost.
and i also notice that the majority of people who find his article very thorough and logical are the males. all very gud.
but what IS the truth out there ??
while ofcourse its impossible to speak for a large number of females, we have never met ( neither you nor I ) and also largely to the reason that beyond this moment , I probably dont care much bout what you or anyone thinks they know enuf bout Indian females and the way they operate...
I forgot my point.
:-/
on another note, the only female actually ONLY ONE person i know hates the motherland enuf to want to run away from it. the rest? well the rest have a common consensus that the rest of the world is all very good for a gud jolly ride, for a while, for some money, basically for a song and a lark, but home is where they'd settle. god knows what they mean by that. mebe they'd get back after they turned 40. mebe they feel conflicted, mebe they'r just in denial. but ther's no doubt bout one thing.
Not one is completely closed to that idea. every single one agrees there are opportunities, and that life wouldnt be all that bad. if just a tad uncomfortable becoz of the traffic. i think the single most objection to returning was traffic and corruption. Pollution being a close third. not one even cared bout in-laws (with the exception of myself i think.. which should be painfully obvious from the prev posts)
or loss of freedom, or career constraints...
so THATS why i dont agree with half the things said here
Follow up on staying back in the US
oh well thats just my take and i see that i was a colossal ass when i try writing a serious post.
am stuck with a funny bone.. and for now so are u :-/
ps: Now i really have to be careful with my typos .. we don't want the guests to be be disappointed do we?? man ! its almost too much effort and being technically challenged as I am, its impossible for me to remove that link from that post...
yup, early morning, perfect for philosophy. perfect to ruminate, on your direction in life and chew a pencil trying to think what how many cycles my processor takes for read write operations.
any thoughts?
anyone?
probably not.
lets get on.
i read an interesting article recently. apparently what i thought was a local debate which i had with my friends, is not. that.
Apparently its something lot of people ask, and considering the sudden surge of traffic suddenly directed my way, i almost feel like tucking in my shirt and straightening my hair... almost.
honestly didnt expect that and now i just wish i hadnt left a loose link at that post, but if u want to read it , here it is
Staying Back in the US
it makes a gud case. though flawed ( I believe)
For a guy he's almost convincing that he knows a lot about females.
the operative word being almost.
and i also notice that the majority of people who find his article very thorough and logical are the males. all very gud.
but what IS the truth out there ??
while ofcourse its impossible to speak for a large number of females, we have never met ( neither you nor I ) and also largely to the reason that beyond this moment , I probably dont care much bout what you or anyone thinks they know enuf bout Indian females and the way they operate...
I forgot my point.
:-/
on another note, the only female actually ONLY ONE person i know hates the motherland enuf to want to run away from it. the rest? well the rest have a common consensus that the rest of the world is all very good for a gud jolly ride, for a while, for some money, basically for a song and a lark, but home is where they'd settle. god knows what they mean by that. mebe they'd get back after they turned 40. mebe they feel conflicted, mebe they'r just in denial. but ther's no doubt bout one thing.
Not one is completely closed to that idea. every single one agrees there are opportunities, and that life wouldnt be all that bad. if just a tad uncomfortable becoz of the traffic. i think the single most objection to returning was traffic and corruption. Pollution being a close third. not one even cared bout in-laws (with the exception of myself i think.. which should be painfully obvious from the prev posts)
or loss of freedom, or career constraints...
so THATS why i dont agree with half the things said here
Follow up on staying back in the US
oh well thats just my take and i see that i was a colossal ass when i try writing a serious post.
am stuck with a funny bone.. and for now so are u :-/
ps: Now i really have to be careful with my typos .. we don't want the guests to be be disappointed do we?? man ! its almost too much effort and being technically challenged as I am, its impossible for me to remove that link from that post...
Friday, September 7, 2007
gOnNA dO iT
I'm gonna do it.
i dont care what you think. and i dont care how irresponsibly i'm behaving. i have to do it.
i know i know. i shud be staying at home and studying. but when did i ever do that sincerely ??
i know i know i shud be behaving like the perfect indian female.. but when did THAT ever happen?
there will always be school. there will always be studies. but what bout life ?? when do i live??
i'm gonna do it. there's no use u trying to dissuade me from it. so don't even bother trying.
yup i've made up my mind.
i'm going to detroit this weekend. again. even though i just went there last week.
why ? what were u thinking??? yup i agonize so much over a single trip...
why u pervert !
i dont care what you think. and i dont care how irresponsibly i'm behaving. i have to do it.
i know i know. i shud be staying at home and studying. but when did i ever do that sincerely ??
i know i know i shud be behaving like the perfect indian female.. but when did THAT ever happen?
there will always be school. there will always be studies. but what bout life ?? when do i live??
i'm gonna do it. there's no use u trying to dissuade me from it. so don't even bother trying.
yup i've made up my mind.
i'm going to detroit this weekend. again. even though i just went there last week.
why ? what were u thinking??? yup i agonize so much over a single trip...
why u pervert !
Thursday, September 6, 2007
aN oLD stORy rEToLd
this was an old old mail back in the day when i was working and had too much time on my hands.. kinda like now...
********************
(yawn) am beat ....trainin..office...
hey vd forget bout the whole bottom thing ...
it was the whole baby's pictures thingy.... let me explain...
sorry N... but u gotta understand...
it all started this way...
my landlady (an old woman of 65..) had a visitor from mars !!
her grandaughter of 3 ... now ,wen the rest of the general population like N, V,A,etc,etc wud say ooooooh loooook how cute at the site of the little darlin....
warning bells were ringin in my head ....coz she was givin me these wierd sidelong glances...(no i AM NOT paranoid ppl)
well ok i thot how much harm can a 3 year old do...i'l just stay out of her way....she was there for 5 days where i managed to avoid her for 4. but one day....
the girl was cryin for bangles,chain, anything etc,etc everyday and that day her grandma i.e my landlady went n got her one ... a BLOODY 8 GRAND GOLD CHAIN....man talk bout doting grandma's...
plz hark back to u'r childhood days and tell me if u EVER got gold to stop cryin??
anyone ?? ever??? i remember being spanked when i asked for a new eraser...
nyway the 'cute lil one' is wearin it the whole day and soon as i come from office (at 9:30)...i plonk down on the sofa..and she scrambles on my lap...
dat's not so bad u say..[(snort) wat do u know?] ...well it wudn't be except she started pullin my chain,comparing it with hers for the next 15 min and then she declared mine was better n she wanted it !!!!!
i told her i cudn't remove it...so she started examining my earing from all angles !!!
now i was reaaaly in trouble as even she cud tell that i have easily removable earings...
let me say i have never shown greater self restraint in my life ...coz while i was smiling desperately..all i wanted to do .......was thro the critter off me and run screaming for my life :-/
ok then her mom comes to feed her and stuffs her mouth with rice and now i'm terrified she's gonna drool over me ,so i try to get her to straighten up.
her grandma tells her to get off me n eat in a decent manner like civilized people do and guess wat the "cute" girl does...
she sprays rice all over her grandma's face...
aaaaaaaaaaak !!
the blood drained from my face as i watched in horror, mentally picturing the same fate while her mom laughed..laughed !! (choke)
then she looks at me with a sweet smile (shudder) and digs into her nose.. now guys as she was still sittin on my lap ..i thot (very foolishly i can add) that i shud say somethin...so i told her that was not a very nice thing to do......(i SWEAR dat's all i told her) (sniff)
and she tries to wipe her hands on my face !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!(ugh)
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaak !!!!
i'm ashamed to admit dat's wen all courage left me and i just got up and RAN... i think i nearly flung her towards a nearby wall.
now i have nightmares......
am too emotional to continue but now u understand don't u....why i detest kids so much....
i have sworn the next time i see a kid maybe i'll pinch it hard wen no one's lookin ...maybe then they'll stay away from me !!!
and 4 all those who didn't care at all either way bout d whole thing
i solemnly hope u never have kids such as these ..ugh..scary thot...i'm never comin to u'r house if u do...
********************
(yawn) am beat ....trainin..office...
hey vd forget bout the whole bottom thing ...
it was the whole baby's pictures thingy.... let me explain...
sorry N... but u gotta understand...
it all started this way...
my landlady (an old woman of 65..) had a visitor from mars !!
her grandaughter of 3 ... now ,wen the rest of the general population like N, V,A,etc,etc wud say ooooooh loooook how cute at the site of the little darlin....
warning bells were ringin in my head ....coz she was givin me these wierd sidelong glances...(no i AM NOT paranoid ppl)
well ok i thot how much harm can a 3 year old do...i'l just stay out of her way....she was there for 5 days where i managed to avoid her for 4. but one day....
the girl was cryin for bangles,chain, anything etc,etc everyday and that day her grandma i.e my landlady went n got her one ... a BLOODY 8 GRAND GOLD CHAIN....man talk bout doting grandma's...
plz hark back to u'r childhood days and tell me if u EVER got gold to stop cryin??
anyone ?? ever??? i remember being spanked when i asked for a new eraser...
nyway the 'cute lil one' is wearin it the whole day and soon as i come from office (at 9:30)...i plonk down on the sofa..and she scrambles on my lap...
dat's not so bad u say..[(snort) wat do u know?] ...well it wudn't be except she started pullin my chain,comparing it with hers for the next 15 min and then she declared mine was better n she wanted it !!!!!
i told her i cudn't remove it...so she started examining my earing from all angles !!!
now i was reaaaly in trouble as even she cud tell that i have easily removable earings...
let me say i have never shown greater self restraint in my life ...coz while i was smiling desperately..all i wanted to do .......was thro the critter off me and run screaming for my life :-/
ok then her mom comes to feed her and stuffs her mouth with rice and now i'm terrified she's gonna drool over me ,so i try to get her to straighten up.
her grandma tells her to get off me n eat in a decent manner like civilized people do and guess wat the "cute" girl does...
she sprays rice all over her grandma's face...
aaaaaaaaaaak !!
the blood drained from my face as i watched in horror, mentally picturing the same fate while her mom laughed..laughed !! (choke)
then she looks at me with a sweet smile (shudder) and digs into her nose.. now guys as she was still sittin on my lap ..i thot (very foolishly i can add) that i shud say somethin...so i told her that was not a very nice thing to do......(i SWEAR dat's all i told her) (sniff)
and she tries to wipe her hands on my face !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!(ugh)
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaak !!!!
i'm ashamed to admit dat's wen all courage left me and i just got up and RAN... i think i nearly flung her towards a nearby wall.
now i have nightmares......
am too emotional to continue but now u understand don't u....why i detest kids so much....
i have sworn the next time i see a kid maybe i'll pinch it hard wen no one's lookin ...maybe then they'll stay away from me !!!
and 4 all those who didn't care at all either way bout d whole thing
i solemnly hope u never have kids such as these ..ugh..scary thot...i'm never comin to u'r house if u do...
wAit a sEC
most people think i obsess.
let me set the record straight. ur absolutely right. i do obsess. but then couple it with an attention span of a goldfish, and i think the problem takes care of itself.
so the net result is that i obsess in brief bursts of high intensity bout a topic or a person, and then a couple of weeks later, i've completely forgotten about it.
now that you know this piece of fascinating tidbit about me, doesnt that make you feel a whole lot better when i'm busy spamming you with a gazillion emails????
i don't look so much like a deranged stalker , now do i ??
u no longer have to worry bout seeing me outside your window ( creepy even for me!! ugh!!!) and no longer have to remember that call to the lawyer, bout the restraining order.
i notice this in milder doses in other ppl. just that being an intense kind of character, its just magnified in yours truly. now i find this extremely fascinating and if you do not... say no more !! i will continue writing and you can flip the page.. oh ok this isn't a book... but u get the bl***y idea.
so having as i do, a passing interest in myself, (who am i kiddin, i admit it! i'm self obsessed) i tried to plot the distribution span of my interest in the new things i stumble upon. usually follows a bell curve skewed heavily to the left..
so i peak early and then taper of gradually for some time and then its an instant drop to complete and utter boredom.
hmmmm not so much a bell curve is it ? if i was still in the i-love-geometry mode i cud have prob told you more....
now ofcourse this state of affairs is fine by me, but its a lil tricky when u meet new ppl. why ? coz its easy to freak them out by showing too much interest in them and then they start thinking of restraining orders and new locks on their doors.
but by the time they've ordered the locks and opened the box, i'd probably be long gone... peering at the next character i meet and figuring out what makes them tick.
well anyways, to get back to the point, this lil clarification shud set things straight with a whole lot of ppl..
give me a sec while i mail this to all 6 of them..
let me set the record straight. ur absolutely right. i do obsess. but then couple it with an attention span of a goldfish, and i think the problem takes care of itself.
so the net result is that i obsess in brief bursts of high intensity bout a topic or a person, and then a couple of weeks later, i've completely forgotten about it.
now that you know this piece of fascinating tidbit about me, doesnt that make you feel a whole lot better when i'm busy spamming you with a gazillion emails????
i don't look so much like a deranged stalker , now do i ??
u no longer have to worry bout seeing me outside your window ( creepy even for me!! ugh!!!) and no longer have to remember that call to the lawyer, bout the restraining order.
i notice this in milder doses in other ppl. just that being an intense kind of character, its just magnified in yours truly. now i find this extremely fascinating and if you do not... say no more !! i will continue writing and you can flip the page.. oh ok this isn't a book... but u get the bl***y idea.
so having as i do, a passing interest in myself, (who am i kiddin, i admit it! i'm self obsessed) i tried to plot the distribution span of my interest in the new things i stumble upon. usually follows a bell curve skewed heavily to the left..
so i peak early and then taper of gradually for some time and then its an instant drop to complete and utter boredom.
hmmmm not so much a bell curve is it ? if i was still in the i-love-geometry mode i cud have prob told you more....
now ofcourse this state of affairs is fine by me, but its a lil tricky when u meet new ppl. why ? coz its easy to freak them out by showing too much interest in them and then they start thinking of restraining orders and new locks on their doors.
but by the time they've ordered the locks and opened the box, i'd probably be long gone... peering at the next character i meet and figuring out what makes them tick.
well anyways, to get back to the point, this lil clarification shud set things straight with a whole lot of ppl..
give me a sec while i mail this to all 6 of them..
liSTeN tO mE
i give lots of advice to ppl. usually.
being a long suffering martyr in the area , yet witnessing so many love couplings happening around me... i always give advice, well... ahem.. mebe not always the best..
girl( who i know thru my roomie and not that well): i don't know wat to dooooo.. (long wail) i love my boyfriend, but my parents won't agree.
me: why not? where is he??
girl: he just got here.. and its an inter caste thing. i tell u if u wanna fall in love , u better make sure its within the same caste.
me: thnx will keep that in mind
(with as straight a face as i can manage without pulling some muscle in my face)i'm sure its gonna happen. me falling in love.
any minute now.
girl: ofcourse it will honey ( well she's nice enuf to try to console me, thinking as she is that i'm heartbroken at the lack of another complication in life.. yup thats all i need an intercaste interreligion love story to make my life more interesting. why don't i do one better and join a cult while i'm at it? )
me: anyways, so wats the porb. ur both here and ur parents r at back home...
girl: yes i know. they finally said yes, after all these yrs.. but u know theyr old. u know how they r , they may change their mind anytiiiiiiiime ( another long wail)
me: yes old ppl are generally senile. thats true. well since they've said yes this week u shud just go to Las Vegas and get married. after all u can tell them that, since they already said yes u found no sense in waiting and u thot they were senile and wud change their mind any minute.
( i look back serenely while she stares at me as if ive lost my mind..)
its at this point when i cud have really dug deep inside of me, for my latent debating skills to convince her of my excellent plan, while my roomie realizes what i'm upto and pounces on me before her impressionable friend actually decides i'm making any sense at all.
oh darn !! i was this close too .....
:D
yeah... devil spawn aint the half of it ...
being a long suffering martyr in the area , yet witnessing so many love couplings happening around me... i always give advice, well... ahem.. mebe not always the best..
girl( who i know thru my roomie and not that well): i don't know wat to dooooo.. (long wail) i love my boyfriend, but my parents won't agree.
me: why not? where is he??
girl: he just got here.. and its an inter caste thing. i tell u if u wanna fall in love , u better make sure its within the same caste.
me: thnx will keep that in mind
(with as straight a face as i can manage without pulling some muscle in my face)i'm sure its gonna happen. me falling in love.
any minute now.
girl: ofcourse it will honey ( well she's nice enuf to try to console me, thinking as she is that i'm heartbroken at the lack of another complication in life.. yup thats all i need an intercaste interreligion love story to make my life more interesting. why don't i do one better and join a cult while i'm at it? )
me: anyways, so wats the porb. ur both here and ur parents r at back home...
girl: yes i know. they finally said yes, after all these yrs.. but u know theyr old. u know how they r , they may change their mind anytiiiiiiiime ( another long wail)
me: yes old ppl are generally senile. thats true. well since they've said yes this week u shud just go to Las Vegas and get married. after all u can tell them that, since they already said yes u found no sense in waiting and u thot they were senile and wud change their mind any minute.
( i look back serenely while she stares at me as if ive lost my mind..)
its at this point when i cud have really dug deep inside of me, for my latent debating skills to convince her of my excellent plan, while my roomie realizes what i'm upto and pounces on me before her impressionable friend actually decides i'm making any sense at all.
oh darn !! i was this close too .....
:D
yeah... devil spawn aint the half of it ...
sTiLL aT iT
i dont know wat took me so long to post all these conversations..
this was another one. won't claim it as mine ....
ring...
poor chap: hello ?
his grandmother: hello beta... how u doing.. blah blah... so when r u comin back to get married ??
pc: arrey daadi,i'm only 24....
hg: what has that got to do with anything ? u finishing in dec?
pc: but i can barely complete my assignments.. wat the heck am i gonna do getting married????
hg: arrey beta u HAVE to get married.. so u fin in dec?? i'll start looking for girls...
pc: waaaaaaaat??? no no .. well , since ur insisting so much.... am a lil busy this weekend. but i think i can manage something next weekend.
hg: huh waazzzzat ?? wat r u talkkin bout??
pc: arrey shaadi. i mean , ur so insistent, how can i refuse?? don't worry granny, i'll do it next to next weekend.
hg: waaaaaaaaaat????? arrey beta wat r u saying?? i meant u have to come here to get married. back home..
pc: oh no granny, u said i gotta get married.. don't worry, now i wont come back home till i do. shaadi bina , ab muh nahin dikhaaoonga !!! ab yeh mera vachan hai !!!!
:D
(this has to be the best part, i cant imagine her plight at this point !! )
atleast pc is having some fun ..{chuckle} i was pretty much rolling on the floor laughing at this stage ....
hg: waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat?????? (absolute panic ensues as a million scenarios of blondes and latinos are conjured up... )
click. that shud be enuf sleepless nights for a couple of weeks.....
so you see, its not always the girls who are in trouble.. sometimes poor saps have to bear the cross too :)
makes me all warm inside to know that :D
this was another one. won't claim it as mine ....
ring...
poor chap: hello ?
his grandmother: hello beta... how u doing.. blah blah... so when r u comin back to get married ??
pc: arrey daadi,i'm only 24....
hg: what has that got to do with anything ? u finishing in dec?
pc: but i can barely complete my assignments.. wat the heck am i gonna do getting married????
hg: arrey beta u HAVE to get married.. so u fin in dec?? i'll start looking for girls...
pc: waaaaaaaat??? no no .. well , since ur insisting so much.... am a lil busy this weekend. but i think i can manage something next weekend.
hg: huh waazzzzat ?? wat r u talkkin bout??
pc: arrey shaadi. i mean , ur so insistent, how can i refuse?? don't worry granny, i'll do it next to next weekend.
hg: waaaaaaaaaat????? arrey beta wat r u saying?? i meant u have to come here to get married. back home..
pc: oh no granny, u said i gotta get married.. don't worry, now i wont come back home till i do. shaadi bina , ab muh nahin dikhaaoonga !!! ab yeh mera vachan hai !!!!
:D
(this has to be the best part, i cant imagine her plight at this point !! )
atleast pc is having some fun ..{chuckle} i was pretty much rolling on the floor laughing at this stage ....
hg: waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat?????? (absolute panic ensues as a million scenarios of blondes and latinos are conjured up... )
click. that shud be enuf sleepless nights for a couple of weeks.....
so you see, its not always the girls who are in trouble.. sometimes poor saps have to bear the cross too :)
makes me all warm inside to know that :D
Wednesday, September 5, 2007
tHE ciRcUS cOntiNUEs
so many ppl (all of 2) liked what i wrote yesterday, i thought i shud expand a bit more...
some more of my sat...
ring ...
me: hello ? (groggily)
her: are u still in bed ? its ur mother here... thers this guy .. (blah blah, the whole story just like the last post)
me: ok whatever. what do u want me to do now?
her: i wish you'd do something bout the way you look..
me: wat bout it. thers nothing wrong with it. i look fine..
her: (brightens up) so u look better than when u left home a yr ago ??
me: hmmm not really. a bit worse i think. i may have gained some weight..
her: ohh noooo. whyyy do u do this to me????
me: relax, it isn't all that bad...
her: it isn't ?? u mean ther's hope yet ?? mebe u can NOT eat for the next couple of weeks. that's gotta help..( her voice is hopeful)
me: sure anything you say. can i go back to sleep now.
her: not yet. can't u do anything else to improve ur appearence ?
me: ummm i cud comb my hair...
her: egad! are u trying to say u've been going to school without bothering to comb your hair again ???
me: not exactly... (dont wanna tell her , that i haven't been able to find my comb in 2 weeks..)
her: (her voice is getting shriller by the sec) WILL you PLEASE stop fooling around and take some basic care of wat ur doing out there. lady, ur coming back as soon as you finish your degree. and ur staying here where i can keep an eye on you.
me: sure ! ( i'm not telling her that i'm secretly trying to petition for a phd seat out here.. or mebe a job or mebe canadian citizenship...)
her: (voice still climbing..) now you just listen...
click.
this was going nowhere and i got bored.
sorry mum will call you when uve forgotten this conversation...
some more of my sat...
ring ...
me: hello ? (groggily)
her: are u still in bed ? its ur mother here... thers this guy .. (blah blah, the whole story just like the last post)
me: ok whatever. what do u want me to do now?
her: i wish you'd do something bout the way you look..
me: wat bout it. thers nothing wrong with it. i look fine..
her: (brightens up) so u look better than when u left home a yr ago ??
me: hmmm not really. a bit worse i think. i may have gained some weight..
her: ohh noooo. whyyy do u do this to me????
me: relax, it isn't all that bad...
her: it isn't ?? u mean ther's hope yet ?? mebe u can NOT eat for the next couple of weeks. that's gotta help..( her voice is hopeful)
me: sure anything you say. can i go back to sleep now.
her: not yet. can't u do anything else to improve ur appearence ?
me: ummm i cud comb my hair...
her: egad! are u trying to say u've been going to school without bothering to comb your hair again ???
me: not exactly... (dont wanna tell her , that i haven't been able to find my comb in 2 weeks..)
her: (her voice is getting shriller by the sec) WILL you PLEASE stop fooling around and take some basic care of wat ur doing out there. lady, ur coming back as soon as you finish your degree. and ur staying here where i can keep an eye on you.
me: sure ! ( i'm not telling her that i'm secretly trying to petition for a phd seat out here.. or mebe a job or mebe canadian citizenship...)
her: (voice still climbing..) now you just listen...
click.
this was going nowhere and i got bored.
sorry mum will call you when uve forgotten this conversation...
3 riNgED CiRcUS
my sundays...
ring ...
me: hello ?
hello .. hey this is ur mother
me: uh ok. wassup ? ( i am wary ...why the isd?? this can't be gud ...)
her: actually had to tell you something. (uh oh, doesnt sound gud at all)
me: bout what ?
her: ther's this guy. (isn't there ALWAYS ??? sigh..)
me: i thought u said u wudn't talk bout this till my sem ended. u know its distracting to deal with this.
her: yes but this is the absolute last. i promise. i didnt do ANYTHING.. just landed on my lap.. yada yada yada.
me: yes last one. thats wat u said for the last 3 guys u made me talk to.
her: no no this is absolute last. i promise.
me: fine wat do u want me to do now?
her: very little. u just have to lose 30 pounds in the next 10 days and when he emails, don't talk too much. don't say anything that will be considered cheeky and only answer to whatever he asks
(its at this point in the conversation that i regrettably lose my cool and explode )
what the &^%^&$$#*&Y *&^^$^%&* , what do u &^%^*&Y think of yourselves ???
absolutely not. i got class. and i'm not going this much out of my way.
now the woman starts wailing... bout how ungrateful i am..
next follows an hour of me being extremely pissed and she trying to convince me that i'm a no gud cretin who is duty bound to all my previous generations..
me: awright awright, i cant take this anymore. is the guy atleast worth all this pain ??
her: ofcourse he's an absolute angel..
me: wait a sec, and have u considered that most consider me THE devils spawn ?? no offense to you ofcourse..
her: none taken. but thats why i'm asking you to make this work. dont let on bout who u really are...
me: wazzaaaat???? this has the most fool idea u ever had. call me when u come to your senses. and for what its worth mebe i shud just drop in a word with that poor sod warning him against ppl like you !
her: why r u like THIS??? if u continue like this you will die ALONE... ( a long wail)..
me: thats not such a bad idea if everyone will promise to leave me alone...
her: but u wont have children ... (even longer wail.. )
me: lady i wudnt have them EVEN if i was married. pesky lot , all of them..
her: whyyyyyy r u like THIS. heyy ram.. what have i done to deserve such an ungrateful child.. (goes on for a while. i'll spare u the serpent child speech)
me: ok ok watever. quit whining. i'll do anything to make those loud pitched noises stop. what do u want me to do? talk to that chappie??? ok fine. let me at him.
her: oh ur an angel! i knew u'd listen. ( obv her moods change faster than u can say oprah.. i need to check her meds) .. but be sure not to scare him. ( she hasn't caught on that i asked her to let me at him. which obv means i intend to.. well u know..)
me: ha! obviously. no sane person cud withstand that much whining and nagging anyways and i cant promise that. can i go back to sleep now ?
her: ofcourse, just u wait. i have a gud feeling bout this.
me: don't u always ?? thats exactly what you said bout the last 2 guys too... or was that 3..
her: that was different. they didnt seem right..
me: funny how insistent you were that they were each THE ONE.
her: don't argue so much. u know how ppl don't like that. i wish u'd....
me: ok ok. quit it...
click.
its been 3 weeks, and i'm still sleeping peacefully. the angelic cherub has never bothered to contact and SHE has forgotten all bout it....
another sunday...
ring..
me: hello ?
her: hey , its ur mother. i got some news for u..
oh gr8 hear we go again ....groan..
ring ...
me: hello ?
hello .. hey this is ur mother
me: uh ok. wassup ? ( i am wary ...why the isd?? this can't be gud ...)
her: actually had to tell you something. (uh oh, doesnt sound gud at all)
me: bout what ?
her: ther's this guy. (isn't there ALWAYS ??? sigh..)
me: i thought u said u wudn't talk bout this till my sem ended. u know its distracting to deal with this.
her: yes but this is the absolute last. i promise. i didnt do ANYTHING.. just landed on my lap.. yada yada yada.
me: yes last one. thats wat u said for the last 3 guys u made me talk to.
her: no no this is absolute last. i promise.
me: fine wat do u want me to do now?
her: very little. u just have to lose 30 pounds in the next 10 days and when he emails, don't talk too much. don't say anything that will be considered cheeky and only answer to whatever he asks
(its at this point in the conversation that i regrettably lose my cool and explode )
what the &^%^&$$#*&Y *&^^$^%&* , what do u &^%^*&Y think of yourselves ???
absolutely not. i got class. and i'm not going this much out of my way.
now the woman starts wailing... bout how ungrateful i am..
next follows an hour of me being extremely pissed and she trying to convince me that i'm a no gud cretin who is duty bound to all my previous generations..
me: awright awright, i cant take this anymore. is the guy atleast worth all this pain ??
her: ofcourse he's an absolute angel..
me: wait a sec, and have u considered that most consider me THE devils spawn ?? no offense to you ofcourse..
her: none taken. but thats why i'm asking you to make this work. dont let on bout who u really are...
me: wazzaaaat???? this has the most fool idea u ever had. call me when u come to your senses. and for what its worth mebe i shud just drop in a word with that poor sod warning him against ppl like you !
her: why r u like THIS??? if u continue like this you will die ALONE... ( a long wail)..
me: thats not such a bad idea if everyone will promise to leave me alone...
her: but u wont have children ... (even longer wail.. )
me: lady i wudnt have them EVEN if i was married. pesky lot , all of them..
her: whyyyyyy r u like THIS. heyy ram.. what have i done to deserve such an ungrateful child.. (goes on for a while. i'll spare u the serpent child speech)
me: ok ok watever. quit whining. i'll do anything to make those loud pitched noises stop. what do u want me to do? talk to that chappie??? ok fine. let me at him.
her: oh ur an angel! i knew u'd listen. ( obv her moods change faster than u can say oprah.. i need to check her meds) .. but be sure not to scare him. ( she hasn't caught on that i asked her to let me at him. which obv means i intend to.. well u know..)
me: ha! obviously. no sane person cud withstand that much whining and nagging anyways and i cant promise that. can i go back to sleep now ?
her: ofcourse, just u wait. i have a gud feeling bout this.
me: don't u always ?? thats exactly what you said bout the last 2 guys too... or was that 3..
her: that was different. they didnt seem right..
me: funny how insistent you were that they were each THE ONE.
her: don't argue so much. u know how ppl don't like that. i wish u'd....
me: ok ok. quit it...
click.
its been 3 weeks, and i'm still sleeping peacefully. the angelic cherub has never bothered to contact and SHE has forgotten all bout it....
another sunday...
ring..
me: hello ?
her: hey , its ur mother. i got some news for u..
oh gr8 hear we go again ....groan..
Tuesday, September 4, 2007
viEw
its janmashtami today or mebe yesterday.
my most fav fest of the year. just back from my vacation and am glad i did it, no matter what happens.
oh btw i took this pic. its the view we have most evenings from our house :P
happy krishnashtami folks !!
Saturday, September 1, 2007
tHE qUeST
wow that was an awesome trip.
the 5 of us, from pittsburgh to detroit... we're on our way in a greyhound bus.
well so what do u think happens? first we are bumped off our scheduled bus coz there were ppl who were waiting in the terminal for the last 10-17 hours.. so they were given preference. well first of all its the weekend of the labor day. and its crowded.
so here we are sitting in a terminal, waiting for the next bus thats 3 hours later..
spirits are high , we're still laughing. no one really wants to think bout the long journey ahead of us..
ofcourse we are so brilliant that none of us are carrying water or any food. so basically we are sitting there with a bunch of potato chips and some chocolate milk (yup very healthy food choices !! )
ok, so we're waitng and then the 4 o'clock bus comes.. now this bus is gonna reach detroit at midnight..k cool we can manage that ....
till the bus drivers stops at a gas station and tells us she's lost !!!!
ROFL.
man thats funny !
we're lost somewhere in the state of Ohio !!!!
and she ahs no idea where we are.
thats why we reach detroit after 12 hours in the bus, after midnight and very very hungry :)
was an interesting trip to see the least ! but u had to be there :D
the 5 of us, from pittsburgh to detroit... we're on our way in a greyhound bus.
well so what do u think happens? first we are bumped off our scheduled bus coz there were ppl who were waiting in the terminal for the last 10-17 hours.. so they were given preference. well first of all its the weekend of the labor day. and its crowded.
so here we are sitting in a terminal, waiting for the next bus thats 3 hours later..
spirits are high , we're still laughing. no one really wants to think bout the long journey ahead of us..
ofcourse we are so brilliant that none of us are carrying water or any food. so basically we are sitting there with a bunch of potato chips and some chocolate milk (yup very healthy food choices !! )
ok, so we're waitng and then the 4 o'clock bus comes.. now this bus is gonna reach detroit at midnight..k cool we can manage that ....
till the bus drivers stops at a gas station and tells us she's lost !!!!
ROFL.
man thats funny !
we're lost somewhere in the state of Ohio !!!!
and she ahs no idea where we are.
thats why we reach detroit after 12 hours in the bus, after midnight and very very hungry :)
was an interesting trip to see the least ! but u had to be there :D
Thursday, August 30, 2007
tRAiL miX
there are some scary nuts out there in the world !
go and read any forum, any public discussion or anywhere where a whole bunch of people post their opinions /suggestions...
u'll immediately see them crawling out the woodwork.. while i was always one who held out that there was yet some hope for mankind, even i'm hard pressed to admit that we're slowly losing our sanity in this age.
while there are a whole horde of ppl peacefully living their lives and making the best of what they can, ther's also a whole bunch of crazies out there. and i don't mean crazy in the haha ur funny crazy sort of way. i mean the scary crazy - we'll come to your house and chop u up kind of way.
brrrrrrrr
scary. sends shivers down my spine. imagine an outbreak of something like mad cow disease amongst humans. jeez , though some say it might have already happened :-/
go and read any forum, any public discussion or anywhere where a whole bunch of people post their opinions /suggestions...
u'll immediately see them crawling out the woodwork.. while i was always one who held out that there was yet some hope for mankind, even i'm hard pressed to admit that we're slowly losing our sanity in this age.
while there are a whole horde of ppl peacefully living their lives and making the best of what they can, ther's also a whole bunch of crazies out there. and i don't mean crazy in the haha ur funny crazy sort of way. i mean the scary crazy - we'll come to your house and chop u up kind of way.
brrrrrrrr
scary. sends shivers down my spine. imagine an outbreak of something like mad cow disease amongst humans. jeez , though some say it might have already happened :-/
toO sOoN
its been 4 days and i can't believe i'm already ill.
i just feel like sticking my head in the sink... and throwing up.
groan.... i know this feeling ... this feeling of the walking zombie. of the feeling of having more on your plate than i can probably handle...
but somehow after all the cribbing there's a strange exhilaration.. life is gud. it just is.
didn't i mention somewhere that i was disgustingly cheerful. :P
on another note, everyone who reads my posts. both of u that is, shud remember that all i write is written in my personal strange vein of humor. never meant to offend and if someone is offended, well....
well heck i'm not gonna apologize !! but .. really not much i can do to make u feel better now is there ?
:P
mebe u shud learn to laugh at yourself. mebe i can give u a couple of links where ppl have ridiculed me. oh trust me there are a few, and they'r hillarious and i was sooo pissed after reading them .. lol
a gud read anyday and guaranteed to cheer u up.
its a tough world , isn't it? anything u do or say may go op on someone's blog. scary !!
but life is ridiculously funny. and everyone is insane. and the sooner u realize that the sooner you'll get the joke.
i just feel like sticking my head in the sink... and throwing up.
groan.... i know this feeling ... this feeling of the walking zombie. of the feeling of having more on your plate than i can probably handle...
but somehow after all the cribbing there's a strange exhilaration.. life is gud. it just is.
didn't i mention somewhere that i was disgustingly cheerful. :P
on another note, everyone who reads my posts. both of u that is, shud remember that all i write is written in my personal strange vein of humor. never meant to offend and if someone is offended, well....
well heck i'm not gonna apologize !! but .. really not much i can do to make u feel better now is there ?
:P
mebe u shud learn to laugh at yourself. mebe i can give u a couple of links where ppl have ridiculed me. oh trust me there are a few, and they'r hillarious and i was sooo pissed after reading them .. lol
a gud read anyday and guaranteed to cheer u up.
its a tough world , isn't it? anything u do or say may go op on someone's blog. scary !!
but life is ridiculously funny. and everyone is insane. and the sooner u realize that the sooner you'll get the joke.
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
pOst iT
this is soooo stupid its funny.
i post a letter the other day and address it the way i've always been taught ..
to on top, from at bottom.
and guess what ? this freakin place MUST do it the other way around musn't it ?
so i ended up posting the letter to myself.
LOL
man its ridiculous. well there's something crossed of my must-do-before-30 list
:D
i post a letter the other day and address it the way i've always been taught ..
to on top, from at bottom.
and guess what ? this freakin place MUST do it the other way around musn't it ?
so i ended up posting the letter to myself.
LOL
man its ridiculous. well there's something crossed of my must-do-before-30 list
:D
tEn rEasONS
I'm just going to document this , coz i see myself sending this to a lot of guys over the next couple of decades...
this is solid gold advice for the guys... girls mebe next time..
so, your not interested. and you don't know how to wriggle out of another fixup.
well don't go around saying anything willy nilly and getting me into trouble.
there are parent certified and non parent certified excuses. the trick is figuring them out and then making sure u give the excuses that don't get ANYONE into trouble..
for some reason parents don't understand incompatibility. they just tell you to work harder.. work harder at what ??? really pissing each other off??? thats working reaal well already ..
but one thing they DO understand is if you tell them the girl is incredibly ugly.
now you have a prob if she's not, coz u obv cant tell them that. they immediately know ur upto something.
but if she's a normal lookin person, or like most of the population, prob has atleast one flaw, then there's ur answer. if its me. well there ya go !! u got ur excellant excuse ready :D
another one which fits all girls(sorry girls :D) is that u can just tell them she's wierd. thats it. nothing more. thats sufficiently vague and also something they cant argue around. its ALSO something they cant tell my mother who in turn will NOT chew me up for being an ass.
so don't tell them stuff like i said i didn't have time (i prob don't)...
actually don't tell them anything i said. thats just gonna come back and bite me in the ass and cause a lot of grief all around, coz then i gotta save my skin and deploy counter attacks :-/
hmm i did say ten reasons didn't i ?
well then ther's
boring
self obsessed
career oriented (most parents hate such girls)
too serious
doesn't have same future plans as me (neither prob has ANY plans but this cud work)
not serious at all ( u gotta use the one which is opp to u for this one to be of any use)
not career oriented enough (??!! not sure if this will fly so mebe we better skip it)
no personality
don't like her. (this is one of the simplest and one of the best. its so vague that no one can say anything against it. though if u have a thinking parent they may ask you to justify it.. then u gotta repeat any of the above)
and u get the idea...
now u understand that NONE of these have to be true. they just have to be convincing.
some of the things u shud NOT be tellin are
she's got a boyfriend ( even if this IS true, dude, ur just gonna have crowshit on ur hands, if not the boyfriend behind u)
she said ______________. (again don't repeat conversations.. its such a turn off guys. u really dont want to turn into a bitch)
she parties too much
she doesnt want to have kids (hey this may be true, but if my mom comes to know i actually said that she WILL have my head)
and etc....
so by now, u shud have some idea how to do this gracefully without sending everyone involved into a panic attack ...
the best way ever is ofcourse, to actually grow a pair of balls and tell the girl herself, instead of her finding out from a 2 AM angry call from her mother.
:-/ {grimace}
this is solid gold advice for the guys... girls mebe next time..
so, your not interested. and you don't know how to wriggle out of another fixup.
well don't go around saying anything willy nilly and getting me into trouble.
there are parent certified and non parent certified excuses. the trick is figuring them out and then making sure u give the excuses that don't get ANYONE into trouble..
for some reason parents don't understand incompatibility. they just tell you to work harder.. work harder at what ??? really pissing each other off??? thats working reaal well already ..
but one thing they DO understand is if you tell them the girl is incredibly ugly.
now you have a prob if she's not, coz u obv cant tell them that. they immediately know ur upto something.
but if she's a normal lookin person, or like most of the population, prob has atleast one flaw, then there's ur answer. if its me. well there ya go !! u got ur excellant excuse ready :D
another one which fits all girls(sorry girls :D) is that u can just tell them she's wierd. thats it. nothing more. thats sufficiently vague and also something they cant argue around. its ALSO something they cant tell my mother who in turn will NOT chew me up for being an ass.
so don't tell them stuff like i said i didn't have time (i prob don't)...
actually don't tell them anything i said. thats just gonna come back and bite me in the ass and cause a lot of grief all around, coz then i gotta save my skin and deploy counter attacks :-/
hmm i did say ten reasons didn't i ?
well then ther's
boring
self obsessed
career oriented (most parents hate such girls)
too serious
doesn't have same future plans as me (neither prob has ANY plans but this cud work)
not serious at all ( u gotta use the one which is opp to u for this one to be of any use)
not career oriented enough (??!! not sure if this will fly so mebe we better skip it)
no personality
don't like her. (this is one of the simplest and one of the best. its so vague that no one can say anything against it. though if u have a thinking parent they may ask you to justify it.. then u gotta repeat any of the above)
and u get the idea...
now u understand that NONE of these have to be true. they just have to be convincing.
some of the things u shud NOT be tellin are
she's got a boyfriend ( even if this IS true, dude, ur just gonna have crowshit on ur hands, if not the boyfriend behind u)
she said ______________. (again don't repeat conversations.. its such a turn off guys. u really dont want to turn into a bitch)
she parties too much
she doesnt want to have kids (hey this may be true, but if my mom comes to know i actually said that she WILL have my head)
and etc....
so by now, u shud have some idea how to do this gracefully without sending everyone involved into a panic attack ...
the best way ever is ofcourse, to actually grow a pair of balls and tell the girl herself, instead of her finding out from a 2 AM angry call from her mother.
:-/ {grimace}
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
tiMe fOR a cHaNGe
for a change !
for all the hindi fans out there. ofcourse only 2 people are probably reading this blog ....
so this is for you and me :P
and if your not a fan of hindi music, well u shud still listen. u never know when something has the potential to surprise you...
for all the hindi fans out there. ofcourse only 2 people are probably reading this blog ....
so this is for you and me :P
and if your not a fan of hindi music, well u shud still listen. u never know when something has the potential to surprise you...
wAt i'VE dOne
yeah yeah i know.
its overkill...
but i want this up here, so sod off !
on another note, since the sem has started , u see so many kids panicking, running around.. and worried. will they survive another gruelling semester ? will they be in hell on earth ? will they wish they were never born ?
have you read games people play ? by eric berne ?
u should, he has a very interesting hypothesis bout the roles people play in every day transactions...
yeah yeah i know i'm entering the geek mode, but say, if i'd rather spend an evening in the lab rather than in a club, doesn't that make me a geek ??
but look at the video. go on, take a look and mebe u'll think twice before u decide not to recycle or u throw away food, or before ur polluting the planet or before u pass by a hungry kid without doing anything bout it
"be nice to geeks, one day u'll be working for them."
- bill gates
its overkill...
but i want this up here, so sod off !
on another note, since the sem has started , u see so many kids panicking, running around.. and worried. will they survive another gruelling semester ? will they be in hell on earth ? will they wish they were never born ?
have you read games people play ? by eric berne ?
u should, he has a very interesting hypothesis bout the roles people play in every day transactions...
yeah yeah i know i'm entering the geek mode, but say, if i'd rather spend an evening in the lab rather than in a club, doesn't that make me a geek ??
but look at the video. go on, take a look and mebe u'll think twice before u decide not to recycle or u throw away food, or before ur polluting the planet or before u pass by a hungry kid without doing anything bout it
"be nice to geeks, one day u'll be working for them."
- bill gates
bUt i hATe miNe MOre
enuf of the slow mushy songs.
one of my favs, and if u've stuck with me so far. HAS to be one of yours too...
bAck tO heLL
what do you do when your prof tells you , he has submitted a paper in your name to some conference???
run screaming through the floor and jump out the window.
thats what you do.
am screwed.
no really. if i thought last sem was hard. this sem am done for.
forget friends. forget hanging out. forget everything. forget timepass.
am done for.
run screaming through the floor and jump out the window.
thats what you do.
am screwed.
no really. if i thought last sem was hard. this sem am done for.
forget friends. forget hanging out. forget everything. forget timepass.
am done for.
Monday, August 27, 2007
fiRSt dAy oF cLaSseS
am exhausted , but i think i love it.
and it reminds me why i came back.
i'm sure that before 2 months, i'll be heartily cursing myself. but then when this all is over and i know i'll walk the stage. i can be happy that i did it. after all the fighting, the pain.
to continue, its a penance. isn't that wat my prof had said so long ago. and if the fire is in us, we'll embark on a journey. long and painful. but in the end
we'll be able to paint all the colors of the wind ....
Sunday, August 26, 2007
aGaiN
so i did it again. worked my magic.
nope i aint telling u wat i did ;P and its not anything ur thinking right now
:D
on another note, sem starts tomoro and gud luck to all my classmates out there !!
this is a wildly inappropriate song ( as in a song that does not fit anything related to the starting of fall not inappropriate as in censored) dedicated to u !!!
can't wait till dec !!!
ciao :P
bEfoRE scHOoL sArTS
so we had a party yest at home.
it was cool fun. the first party we hosted at home, after i came here. realized that a party means a lot of cleaning !
well after the potluck we were supposed to go to a club. but we went there, its raining and then we see, that they need a age proof id. but most of us we don't have that.
and one of us wasn't even 21 !!!
lol
so after a lot of wandering on the street in the rain and dark. we come home. play games, chat a bit and then everyone goes home...
lol some party.
though for a bunch of geeks was pretty gud i think... am too hung over for a better post !
:P
it was cool fun. the first party we hosted at home, after i came here. realized that a party means a lot of cleaning !
well after the potluck we were supposed to go to a club. but we went there, its raining and then we see, that they need a age proof id. but most of us we don't have that.
and one of us wasn't even 21 !!!
lol
so after a lot of wandering on the street in the rain and dark. we come home. play games, chat a bit and then everyone goes home...
lol some party.
though for a bunch of geeks was pretty gud i think... am too hung over for a better post !
:P
Friday, August 24, 2007
LeT tHE gaMeS bEGiN
how do you approach your own doom.
how do u approach a long obstacle course where u know it involves swimming underwater for a really long time and potential drowning ?
you take a deep breath before you jump into the water ....
and mebe listen to this song.
a lot.
you just have a vague memory of the prev semester. your optimistic that you won't actually goof of so much this semester. that you'd have learnt your lesson and also some time management in the process....
hey its gonna be tough. no one promised a cruise , now, did they ?
i know i'm probably repeating this video in the blog. but what the heck.
don't crib, mute it for chrissake !!!
this is such a high energy song. and all you really need is loads of energy. for those late nights.
for those days ur brain is gonna hurt.
like physically hurt.
for all those moments when ppl around are losing their minds and trying to drag u in with them. u know like the zombies of the undead...
take courage.
take hope.
it'll be over before u realize it.
you don't know wats next ? you'll know when the time is right?
grades? jobs? marriage? life?
ships? gigantic iceberg? titantic? ocean?
oh i'm sorry i thot we were doing some kind of word association...
:P
oh come on. cheer up , its only gonna get worse ;)
tHaT's nOT a NicE tHinG tO saY
you know what tends to be surprising to me everytime. its how i forget that everyone is a story waiting to be told.
at any point in your life look at the people around you, and there's a story waiting to be told. if you only have the time and the patience to listen.
too many times i think we rush through lives barely glancing at the folks around us.
all too often caught up in our own lil lives, pretending we're the centre of the universe and our problems are probably wat the fate of the universe hangs on. but sometimes, just sometimes, we stop for a sec in our mad dash through the rat race which passes off for living these days and listen with astonishment when the person next to us ( also racing, but paused ) tells us a story. of a life that makes us think,
"well i'll be damned,....."
and i'm astonished not by the stories, (though they are sometimes stranger than fiction itself) , but at how often i have to be reminded bout what's real and what's important.
and ofcourse you get to meet well meaning friends who tell you in a very kind tone,
that they like hanging out with you , coz ur not a very threating person to their ego. u know... like not a very intellectually intimidating person.
oh thnx THAT really cheers me up :-/
just what i needed. to be told that half the people think my head is filled with vanilla. ofcourse then they did say i was not very boring also. which apparently was the other half of the reason they liked to hang out with me.
glad to be of service. oh noooooo. my feelings aren't hurt at aaaaaaalllll....
hmmmph i'm still miffed.... sniff....
ur lucky i didn't hit u with - what u kindly said - were my massive arms.
at any point in your life look at the people around you, and there's a story waiting to be told. if you only have the time and the patience to listen.
too many times i think we rush through lives barely glancing at the folks around us.
all too often caught up in our own lil lives, pretending we're the centre of the universe and our problems are probably wat the fate of the universe hangs on. but sometimes, just sometimes, we stop for a sec in our mad dash through the rat race which passes off for living these days and listen with astonishment when the person next to us ( also racing, but paused ) tells us a story. of a life that makes us think,
"well i'll be damned,....."
and i'm astonished not by the stories, (though they are sometimes stranger than fiction itself) , but at how often i have to be reminded bout what's real and what's important.
and ofcourse you get to meet well meaning friends who tell you in a very kind tone,
that they like hanging out with you , coz ur not a very threating person to their ego. u know... like not a very intellectually intimidating person.
oh thnx THAT really cheers me up :-/
just what i needed. to be told that half the people think my head is filled with vanilla. ofcourse then they did say i was not very boring also. which apparently was the other half of the reason they liked to hang out with me.
glad to be of service. oh noooooo. my feelings aren't hurt at aaaaaaalllll....
hmmmph i'm still miffed.... sniff....
ur lucky i didn't hit u with - what u kindly said - were my massive arms.
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
eVerYThiNG
in this crazy life, through these crazy times...
hey its a nice song, so sue me if i aint got no crazy ramblings to go with it
:P
oh well
this song is a tribute to actually doing absolutely nothing of value today. yup feels gr8 to be completely unproductive. the true meaning of a summer break and i guess now i'm really american !
have a gud day !
Monday, August 20, 2007
tHE sHOwiNg
u know i thought bout this for a while.. and it always puzzled me.
why do girls hate the whole guy-coming-to-see-her routine ?
i think i can now figure it out ..
have u ever been to one of those shows ?? chances are u haven't. i call it a show , coz that exactly what it is. it struck me today. the girls hate it so much coz they feel exactly like the poodle with a ribbon in its ear in a dog show.
u know.
the owners primp the poodle, give it a nice makeover. and very proudly strut around with the poor dog on a leash. take it thrice around the circle. and then ask it to perform some moronic tasks, to show its accomplishments.. if u do well , u may even get the prize !! the sappy propsect !
yup. thats precisely why girls hate those whole 3 ringed circus shows that passes off for guy-coming-to-see-the-girl thing. and does he come alone and only once?
nooooooooooo
first his parents. then his mom's sisters, then his dads sisters. then his grandma, then his siblings , then if they all go back to report that things are ok. the girl isn't some hideously deformed frankenstien , then the visually sensitive chap comes along. and u know, just KNOW that all of them come just to 'check' you out. they dont care what you think bout the russian presidents stance on chechnya, or what you think of the Israeli situation of the middle east.
and for all these visits , wat does the girls mom do? u know wat she's gonna be doing. cooking up a storm, embarrassing her daughter by insisting that the girl cooked it. (heck i cud swear my mum did that once, needless to say i think i gave her a look that wud freeze hell itself. prob why the guy said no, i might have included him in it too ..)
and all throughout they'll have this insane proud air coz the parents have toiled for 23 odd yrs and produced this prize specimen of a ....of a... wat ? cow? dog?
i'd say cow.
u know.... in a cow market ? where the farmer raises this calf and then goes to sell the cow. how proud he is?
yup parents look exactly like that.
and u know how the farmer endlessly tells you how gud the teeth and hooves are ??
yup yup
u know what i'm talking bout, don't you ??
oh no. i dont mind at all if u think i can make samosas and if u hallucinate that i'll be making them for you everyday after the wedding. don't mind at all.
yeah , i'm surprised it never struck me before. we don't really care if u wanna 'see' us. its just the creepy feeling of being a cow in a market or a poodle in a dog show that gets on the nerves sometimes.
i gtg now. i have to pretend to make tea. uh oh there goes the doorbell, quick where's my ribbon ?? .......
why do girls hate the whole guy-coming-to-see-her routine ?
i think i can now figure it out ..
have u ever been to one of those shows ?? chances are u haven't. i call it a show , coz that exactly what it is. it struck me today. the girls hate it so much coz they feel exactly like the poodle with a ribbon in its ear in a dog show.
u know.
the owners primp the poodle, give it a nice makeover. and very proudly strut around with the poor dog on a leash. take it thrice around the circle. and then ask it to perform some moronic tasks, to show its accomplishments.. if u do well , u may even get the prize !! the sappy propsect !
yup. thats precisely why girls hate those whole 3 ringed circus shows that passes off for guy-coming-to-see-the-girl thing. and does he come alone and only once?
nooooooooooo
first his parents. then his mom's sisters, then his dads sisters. then his grandma, then his siblings , then if they all go back to report that things are ok. the girl isn't some hideously deformed frankenstien , then the visually sensitive chap comes along. and u know, just KNOW that all of them come just to 'check' you out. they dont care what you think bout the russian presidents stance on chechnya, or what you think of the Israeli situation of the middle east.
and for all these visits , wat does the girls mom do? u know wat she's gonna be doing. cooking up a storm, embarrassing her daughter by insisting that the girl cooked it. (heck i cud swear my mum did that once, needless to say i think i gave her a look that wud freeze hell itself. prob why the guy said no, i might have included him in it too ..)
and all throughout they'll have this insane proud air coz the parents have toiled for 23 odd yrs and produced this prize specimen of a ....of a... wat ? cow? dog?
i'd say cow.
u know.... in a cow market ? where the farmer raises this calf and then goes to sell the cow. how proud he is?
yup parents look exactly like that.
and u know how the farmer endlessly tells you how gud the teeth and hooves are ??
yup yup
u know what i'm talking bout, don't you ??
oh no. i dont mind at all if u think i can make samosas and if u hallucinate that i'll be making them for you everyday after the wedding. don't mind at all.
yeah , i'm surprised it never struck me before. we don't really care if u wanna 'see' us. its just the creepy feeling of being a cow in a market or a poodle in a dog show that gets on the nerves sometimes.
i gtg now. i have to pretend to make tea. uh oh there goes the doorbell, quick where's my ribbon ?? .......
lAuGHing aT cLOUds
its been raining crazy from morn. while the rest of the world finds themselves going insane becoz of the rain, i find myself mentally tap dancing.
reminds me so much of home. of m'lore. of tea. of warm beds. of kittens who'll cuddle in ur lap.
oh hot bhajjis.
of sitting in ur courtyard under a canopy, sipping tea and looking out the green fields soaking in the rain.
of school children walking home in the rain, sloshing in their rainy shoes. of oxen ploughing the fields, in the rain.
of me and my best friend parking our scooter and walking home in the rain, waving at astonished shopkeepers. of sneezes and sniffles and snuggling under warm rugs.
:)
hmmmm singin... oh come on. dont be so grumpy. u have to admit this is a gud tune and a classic. oh come on. smile a bit, twirl that umbrella and the incessant rain aint so bad :P
let the stormy clouds chase ...
mmm singin... and dancing ...mmmm
Monday, August 13, 2007
wALkinG aWay
its a rainy day. this is a nice song and i'm in a fey mood.
enjoy the song !!
no random rambling today :P
Friday, August 10, 2007
u kNow
there's something wrong with you when -
its raining outside when u wake up , and u remember the umbrella when ur getting soaked on the way to work ...
someone's got it in for you when -
you buy an expensive sun screen lotion and the weather report says its gonna be raining for the next 6 months ...
its a disaster -
when you've been having a casual conversation off and on over the last 6 months with a person thinking it was person A, and yet you feel something doesn't add up...
and then one fine day realize the reason its not adding up, is coz its person B and you don't know person B that well...
its not meant to be -
when he says "i love you", and you think - "have I done my laundry this week ?"
its not meant to be -
when he says "i'm hurt, you were insensitive to my feelings" and you think -
"do you want matching bangles and nailpolish, now that you've had the sex change?"
its gonna be a tough course -
when your prof says, "i think 4 hours of sleep is plenty, come to me if your sleeping less than that"
this is gonna be a series post, i'll be adding to it with time. my fav u know.. an ongoing series...
DQ
its raining outside when u wake up , and u remember the umbrella when ur getting soaked on the way to work ...
someone's got it in for you when -
you buy an expensive sun screen lotion and the weather report says its gonna be raining for the next 6 months ...
its a disaster -
when you've been having a casual conversation off and on over the last 6 months with a person thinking it was person A, and yet you feel something doesn't add up...
and then one fine day realize the reason its not adding up, is coz its person B and you don't know person B that well...
its not meant to be -
when he says "i love you", and you think - "have I done my laundry this week ?"
its not meant to be -
when he says "i'm hurt, you were insensitive to my feelings" and you think -
"do you want matching bangles and nailpolish, now that you've had the sex change?"
its gonna be a tough course -
when your prof says, "i think 4 hours of sleep is plenty, come to me if your sleeping less than that"
this is gonna be a series post, i'll be adding to it with time. my fav u know.. an ongoing series...
DQ
Thursday, August 9, 2007
hEck wiTH iT
I had a busy week, but nothing spectacularly different ya know...
the same ol same ol...
talk with ppl, tell them what you think, get accused of being mentally unhinged....
have ppl suggest I get professional help.... call them retarded fuckheads... throw a tantrum .. nothing very new. the same ol same ol...
phew ! proving our sanity can be really very thirsty work. we could go for a drink right bout now. oh , u ask who is we??
well, since so many ppl already think we're off our rockers , there was no point in hiding all my multiple personalities... our multiple personalities... errr .. this cud get a lil confusing.. hang on while we figure it out....
oh fuck it.
bygones.
thats my new fav word. at anything i want to ignore. or forget. i'll say bygones.
and in case u didn't get the obscure reference to prime time TV its from ally mcbeal.. no i dont have too much time on my hands to bring up obscure tv ...
bygones.
ugh all this 'we' talk makes me feel like gollum from LOTR :-/ and trust me , even i can safely say i'm not THAT ugly.
anyhooooo wats new is that another one of the human race has declared me insane.
i believe the exact words were , and i quote verbatim -
"u have a history of disturbing behaviour. u look like ur bout to fall of the edge. u shud think of getting some professional help. have u looked at YOU recently"
oh and i believe the words extra terrestrial was also used somewhere....
uh-oh
HQ, our cover is blown.
now u know.
now i got not choice but to send Jeffrey after you.
the same ol same ol...
talk with ppl, tell them what you think, get accused of being mentally unhinged....
have ppl suggest I get professional help.... call them retarded fuckheads... throw a tantrum .. nothing very new. the same ol same ol...
phew ! proving our sanity can be really very thirsty work. we could go for a drink right bout now. oh , u ask who is we??
well, since so many ppl already think we're off our rockers , there was no point in hiding all my multiple personalities... our multiple personalities... errr .. this cud get a lil confusing.. hang on while we figure it out....
oh fuck it.
bygones.
thats my new fav word. at anything i want to ignore. or forget. i'll say bygones.
and in case u didn't get the obscure reference to prime time TV its from ally mcbeal.. no i dont have too much time on my hands to bring up obscure tv ...
bygones.
ugh all this 'we' talk makes me feel like gollum from LOTR :-/ and trust me , even i can safely say i'm not THAT ugly.
anyhooooo wats new is that another one of the human race has declared me insane.
i believe the exact words were , and i quote verbatim -
"u have a history of disturbing behaviour. u look like ur bout to fall of the edge. u shud think of getting some professional help. have u looked at YOU recently"
oh and i believe the words extra terrestrial was also used somewhere....
uh-oh
HQ, our cover is blown.
now u know.
now i got not choice but to send Jeffrey after you.
Tuesday, August 7, 2007
sLiCK aS oiL
ok now am really pissed.
i mean really really pissed.
why ? oh u wanna know? i'll tell u why ! oh u don't wanna know ? we'll i'll still tell you.
ther's this chap. well its always bout A chap isn't it? bane of my life. these chaps.
anyways. some chap.. call him 'AS'. one short of another 'S' pings me talkin casually. askin how i am.
now , I can't remember who he is. I don't know who he is. he cud be anyone. my college buddy/ office buddy/ highschool buddy ..wait a sec didnt i go to an all girls high school ??? ok scratch that last one. unless someone had a sex change and i was not told. hardly think i'd forget that .. ok ok back to this retarded story.
so he pings me. and i say something suitably vague which is wat i always do when i dont know who i'm talking to. and suddenly he calls me. on gtalk ya know. hey now THATS an invasion of privacy !! i dont expect ppl to call me without warning. I'm in the lab !! u dont call me when i'm in the lab. hey if i dont know who u are theres a very gud chance u shudnt be calling me at all.
so now i was annoyed. shut him up and told him dude back off.
but does he listen ????
noooooooooooooo
tells me some story that he's on an oil rig , feeling lonely ... yada yada yada..
ok ok. i get the point. ur in hell. my heart bleeds for u. but hey ur going home in 24 days. i'm going home in 240.
dude , grow a pair !!
ok ok i dont want to be mean so i listen to this for a while. and its been a slow season and i need the hunting practice..... but he goes on and on. and starts getting really whiney. now i have ABSOLUTELY zero patience.
ive slept for 3 hours every night for the past week. and my temper is sooooo close to a volcanic eruption.
hey
hey
hey you. yeah u. dont crib bout 12 hour workshifts to a person who works every waking hour and sleeps for only 4 hours on average.
12 hours is a luxury.
so he says "kill me"
honest to god. thats what he says.
"kill me"
wtf ??????
gladly dude, but unfortunately its physically impossible. we're thousands of miles apart.
hey, i'm not gonna sit and coo at a person i met online and i hardly know.
so he starts TELLINg me to be sure to get my headphones the next day so we can talk.
yeah right. why dont u hold your breadth ? thats gonna happen.
suuuuuuuuuuuuuure, it will...
ofcourse i told him no u nitwit ! waddaya take me for???
and now i was sooooooooo pissed. this was the limit. hey i'll give compassion a shot anytime but right now, i'd really like to sock someone on the nose. hmmmmph
hmmmmmmmmph is right. with one finger on the block button. i see he's asked me to wait a sec. now what ?
oh crap the same old drivel. am blocking this guy before i really loose my tem....
i mean really really pissed.
why ? oh u wanna know? i'll tell u why ! oh u don't wanna know ? we'll i'll still tell you.
ther's this chap. well its always bout A chap isn't it? bane of my life. these chaps.
anyways. some chap.. call him 'AS'. one short of another 'S' pings me talkin casually. askin how i am.
now , I can't remember who he is. I don't know who he is. he cud be anyone. my college buddy/ office buddy/ highschool buddy ..wait a sec didnt i go to an all girls high school ??? ok scratch that last one. unless someone had a sex change and i was not told. hardly think i'd forget that .. ok ok back to this retarded story.
so he pings me. and i say something suitably vague which is wat i always do when i dont know who i'm talking to. and suddenly he calls me. on gtalk ya know. hey now THATS an invasion of privacy !! i dont expect ppl to call me without warning. I'm in the lab !! u dont call me when i'm in the lab. hey if i dont know who u are theres a very gud chance u shudnt be calling me at all.
so now i was annoyed. shut him up and told him dude back off.
but does he listen ????
noooooooooooooo
tells me some story that he's on an oil rig , feeling lonely ... yada yada yada..
ok ok. i get the point. ur in hell. my heart bleeds for u. but hey ur going home in 24 days. i'm going home in 240.
dude , grow a pair !!
ok ok i dont want to be mean so i listen to this for a while. and its been a slow season and i need the hunting practice..... but he goes on and on. and starts getting really whiney. now i have ABSOLUTELY zero patience.
ive slept for 3 hours every night for the past week. and my temper is sooooo close to a volcanic eruption.
hey
hey
hey you. yeah u. dont crib bout 12 hour workshifts to a person who works every waking hour and sleeps for only 4 hours on average.
12 hours is a luxury.
so he says "kill me"
honest to god. thats what he says.
"kill me"
wtf ??????
gladly dude, but unfortunately its physically impossible. we're thousands of miles apart.
hey, i'm not gonna sit and coo at a person i met online and i hardly know.
so he starts TELLINg me to be sure to get my headphones the next day so we can talk.
yeah right. why dont u hold your breadth ? thats gonna happen.
suuuuuuuuuuuuuure, it will...
ofcourse i told him no u nitwit ! waddaya take me for???
and now i was sooooooooo pissed. this was the limit. hey i'll give compassion a shot anytime but right now, i'd really like to sock someone on the nose. hmmmmph
hmmmmmmmmph is right. with one finger on the block button. i see he's asked me to wait a sec. now what ?
oh crap the same old drivel. am blocking this guy before i really loose my tem....
lAtE aT niGHT
it's late. actually very early.
oh i cant make up my mind. what is it if u haven't slept and its 5 AM in the morning ?
got a demo tomoro. a lot rides on that demo. i'd like to be worried ya know. but am sooo tired , that i cudn't care anymore.
its funny. now that school starts, i may actually find it more relaxing? i don't think so, but i won't be spending more time in school than i already am.
thats for sure. so sure. thats for sure.
god i hope it goes fine tomoro. else am dead.
oh i cant make up my mind. what is it if u haven't slept and its 5 AM in the morning ?
got a demo tomoro. a lot rides on that demo. i'd like to be worried ya know. but am sooo tired , that i cudn't care anymore.
its funny. now that school starts, i may actually find it more relaxing? i don't think so, but i won't be spending more time in school than i already am.
thats for sure. so sure. thats for sure.
god i hope it goes fine tomoro. else am dead.
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