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insomnia attacks.

jeez will you look at the time ? its freakin beyond midnight even in hawai.
the sun has long left my adopted temp country of residence.

i can't sleep. is it the meds? the stress? the weather? the emotional trauma???? { someone finished that last piece of cake i wanted... }
i just can't. and i get up real early too.... sigh.

man i'd give your right leg for some restful sleep. notice how generous i am in offering your leg.. see?

anyways, R notices a change in me. horror of horrors, i can actually stand kids now. infact what's even worse is that i actually find some kids cute. while she insists its my long dormant biological clock ticking, i insist its just a temporary aberration. come on. do YOU think its my biological clock ? do mutant freaks have biological clocks??

somebody please shoot me.

no i mean it. somebody please shoot me. right in the head. perhaps its the long summer i spent with my cousins. hey they weren't half bad. pretty cute too....

oh crap here I go again !!! panic attack !!! when did this happen??? when did i learn to entertain kids, and deal with them and not run screaming from them like a chicken with its head cut off ????

oh no
oh no
oh no.

now that you mention it, the other day when i went with R to the library, i automatically homed in on the child rearing section ....

oh no
oh no
oh no

quick .... somebody get the gun. quick, before it gets worse !