it was the best of times
it was the worst of times
one of the most poignant starting lines in a book and perfect to describe my week.
my b'day week. i had my b'day a couple of days back and i gave myself the best gift possible. a complete hibernation from the world. i didnt check my email, didnt care about my phone. i didnt come online and didnt reply to emails. it was like i dropped off the face of the earth. and i have to admit , it was glorious !
strong words :-/ but i wasn't depressed or sad or didnt feel despondency.. oh hell i can't spell. i was content to read my books. to sleep, eat and read my beloved books. granted they had to be done online. i listened to peaceful music and i didnt have to deal with anything i didnt want to.
in a way it was a brief respite. i know i have to get back to it tomoro. the world. i cannot hide forever. but it was a good break. i know i need a longer.
sometimes i've thot assylums are probably the best places in the world for sane people. how can people ever get bored with solitude. if they have books that is?
i can say my 25th b'day was awesome. coz i spent all night reading and then all day sleeping. yes i can say that it was truly bless'd.
aaaw jeez i gotta go back to school tomoro... until the next break i can have ....
Monday, December 31, 2007
Wednesday, December 26, 2007
kiLlEr beEs
in exactly 3 days it will be one whole yr since i came to this .. place.
now i wish i cud pontificate ( a new word i learnt from another fav prof ) about how i never realized how time flew and all that. but the truth is. i WAS aware. every excruciating minute of it. every day i was aware of the minutes i spent away from home and as snoopy says, the mere comprehension of actually having spent a yr out here makes me wanna bang your head on the nearby wall.
ok ok snoopy didnt say that, but its just sounds way cooler if i quote him.. ya know?
i think i have reached the pinnacle of success in my life. why? coz i have started a blood feud with this annoying... person. actually i seem to have started blood feuds with many annoying... persons. except that this one is different. this one is hates me too. the rest are just nincompoop dodos who dont know a blood feud when it hits them in the face.
ha ! u blundering fools atlast i have an arch enemy worthy of my time.
ok i admit it. all the hibernation seems to have got to me. i'm wierder than usual. must be all the disney cartoons i've been watching lately.
yaaaawn , okies back to sleep. i tell ya. bears have got the right idea.
u shud read this comic strip everyday. agnes. its funny. i mean its as funny as calvin sometimes. kids that have a killer sense of irony. that and chocolate chip cookies make life worth living :P
now i wish i cud pontificate ( a new word i learnt from another fav prof ) about how i never realized how time flew and all that. but the truth is. i WAS aware. every excruciating minute of it. every day i was aware of the minutes i spent away from home and as snoopy says, the mere comprehension of actually having spent a yr out here makes me wanna bang your head on the nearby wall.
ok ok snoopy didnt say that, but its just sounds way cooler if i quote him.. ya know?
i think i have reached the pinnacle of success in my life. why? coz i have started a blood feud with this annoying... person. actually i seem to have started blood feuds with many annoying... persons. except that this one is different. this one is hates me too. the rest are just nincompoop dodos who dont know a blood feud when it hits them in the face.
ha ! u blundering fools atlast i have an arch enemy worthy of my time.
ok i admit it. all the hibernation seems to have got to me. i'm wierder than usual. must be all the disney cartoons i've been watching lately.
yaaaawn , okies back to sleep. i tell ya. bears have got the right idea.
u shud read this comic strip everyday. agnes. its funny. i mean its as funny as calvin sometimes. kids that have a killer sense of irony. that and chocolate chip cookies make life worth living :P
Monday, December 17, 2007
mOnrOViLle
so i try to go shopping. and what happens ???
we get lost.
well not lost.
but we got off the bus about i/2 hour away from the bus stop and ... and than wat !!
we trudged the rest of the way, singing wayward songs... and seeing our life pass us by.. boy was it freezing. and there we were walking in the middle of a snowstorm and trying to keep our limbs from falling off.
it was funny.
well the gud news is that i finally have a coat. woohoo.
and my fees for next sem will be paid off !
woohoo !
we get lost.
well not lost.
but we got off the bus about i/2 hour away from the bus stop and ... and than wat !!
we trudged the rest of the way, singing wayward songs... and seeing our life pass us by.. boy was it freezing. and there we were walking in the middle of a snowstorm and trying to keep our limbs from falling off.
it was funny.
well the gud news is that i finally have a coat. woohoo.
and my fees for next sem will be paid off !
woohoo !
i'M dOne
stick a fork in me, am done !!
whew its been a tough couple of months. like we said .. ( thats me and my multiple personalities.. yup they'r back )
wooohooo !! am done. and i don't even care a damn about the coming cold and long winter months !!! :P
so what if i got crazy morons around me who call me unspeakable names !! so what if i got work ahead of me and no chance of a break. so what if my colleague next to me in the lab is trying to turn me into a true blue christian ??? so what if my mother back home is desperately trying to off me. well not kill me, no. but trying to get rid of me. well u know...
so what ??/
a lesser person might despair ! but not me !! woohoo. am done.
ouch. i just tripped over the chair while i was doing the single-boy-am-i-glad-to-be-done dance.
QoD
whew its been a tough couple of months. like we said .. ( thats me and my multiple personalities.. yup they'r back )
wooohooo !! am done. and i don't even care a damn about the coming cold and long winter months !!! :P
so what if i got crazy morons around me who call me unspeakable names !! so what if i got work ahead of me and no chance of a break. so what if my colleague next to me in the lab is trying to turn me into a true blue christian ??? so what if my mother back home is desperately trying to off me. well not kill me, no. but trying to get rid of me. well u know...
so what ??/
a lesser person might despair ! but not me !! woohoo. am done.
ouch. i just tripped over the chair while i was doing the single-boy-am-i-glad-to-be-done dance.
QoD
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
cOnVerT
its always strange, when a well meaning christian tries to convert you.
i mean has it happened to you yet ?? u shud try it sometimes.
they'r very friendly folk you know. and i think its part of they'r thing. u know get more sheep. all very noble ofcourse. but not helping the global balance at all.
its sad that these gentle people, are so mixed up. i mean i'm sure they'r a fine folk, but its ridiculous. them trying to convert everyone around themselves.
unfortunately for my shepherd friend, i am a lil too opiniated to be swayed. and besides i'm part agnostic, part fanatic when it comes to this one topic.
no way am i falling for some cockammammy story on how one religion is better than the other. if you want my opinion ( and am sure u do.. yeah right )
there's one god and if he didnt exist it wud be necessary to invent him. its just one giant coping mechanism , and if you got time and your interested i got this fabulous idea on how energy is concentrated and becomes god and how our brains control our reality...
thats what happened you know...
i ended up giving the poor guy a lecture, on how all gods are one. and the universe is just made up of energy. i did get a ride home though.
mebe that was time well spent for him..
i mean has it happened to you yet ?? u shud try it sometimes.
they'r very friendly folk you know. and i think its part of they'r thing. u know get more sheep. all very noble ofcourse. but not helping the global balance at all.
its sad that these gentle people, are so mixed up. i mean i'm sure they'r a fine folk, but its ridiculous. them trying to convert everyone around themselves.
unfortunately for my shepherd friend, i am a lil too opiniated to be swayed. and besides i'm part agnostic, part fanatic when it comes to this one topic.
no way am i falling for some cockammammy story on how one religion is better than the other. if you want my opinion ( and am sure u do.. yeah right )
there's one god and if he didnt exist it wud be necessary to invent him. its just one giant coping mechanism , and if you got time and your interested i got this fabulous idea on how energy is concentrated and becomes god and how our brains control our reality...
thats what happened you know...
i ended up giving the poor guy a lecture, on how all gods are one. and the universe is just made up of energy. i did get a ride home though.
mebe that was time well spent for him..
Monday, December 10, 2007
wiErD fRiENds
so a friend of mine pings me after a long time..
just to say hi.
i got an exam due the next day. right? so am a bit terse. i mean i'd LIKE to get all chummy with you pal , but hey take it up with my prof. or mebe my moronic project teammates who decide they'd rather party than do anything else ...
ok ok its just the frustration talking..
anyways
so he pings me. (yes its a he, we have now established that)
"hey"
me: "hey"
"how you doing?, by the looks of your blog, your not doing well"
me: eh what ?
"yeah your pathetic "
me: "whaaaat ?, excuuuse me". "oh are we doing that now??" "ok i think your a **&%^%* &*%^$ *&@%&&!"
lets just say you don't want the rest of the conversation. its def PG rated. :P
i mean whats with these wierdos??? ofcourse the more pertinent question is. what the heck are they doing on my friends list ?
:)
its funny. oh come on u know its funny. just like that time you told me you had carpal tunnel syndrome, i thought it was a joke and i insisted you type out the entire chapter 3 back to me just for kicks... ok that was not that funny...
but then seriously. wats with guys ?? are they born morons??? and the explanation was
"you jumped the gun i was just saying your circumstances are pathetic."
yeah like that helps a lot.
with the mood i'm in right now. i could just kick someone's ass. mebe yours. mebe the chinese guy sitting next to me. i don't know. i could just do it ya know.
just to say hi.
i got an exam due the next day. right? so am a bit terse. i mean i'd LIKE to get all chummy with you pal , but hey take it up with my prof. or mebe my moronic project teammates who decide they'd rather party than do anything else ...
ok ok its just the frustration talking..
anyways
so he pings me. (yes its a he, we have now established that)
"hey"
me: "hey"
"how you doing?, by the looks of your blog, your not doing well"
me: eh what ?
"yeah your pathetic "
me: "whaaaat ?, excuuuse me". "oh are we doing that now??" "ok i think your a **&%^%* &*%^$ *&@%&&!"
lets just say you don't want the rest of the conversation. its def PG rated. :P
i mean whats with these wierdos??? ofcourse the more pertinent question is. what the heck are they doing on my friends list ?
:)
its funny. oh come on u know its funny. just like that time you told me you had carpal tunnel syndrome, i thought it was a joke and i insisted you type out the entire chapter 3 back to me just for kicks... ok that was not that funny...
but then seriously. wats with guys ?? are they born morons??? and the explanation was
"you jumped the gun i was just saying your circumstances are pathetic."
yeah like that helps a lot.
with the mood i'm in right now. i could just kick someone's ass. mebe yours. mebe the chinese guy sitting next to me. i don't know. i could just do it ya know.
Wednesday, December 5, 2007
iT's hErE
sigh , its here... the snow. too early.. much too early.
i got only one thing to say
whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
aaaargh, i need to sleep.
just finished the demo yesterday, it wasn't that bad, not as bad as i thought it would be...feel like my term hols have already started ! yikes hakf the day is already gone !! ok gotta get back to work... see ya in 2 weeks
^_^
its the home stretch...
i got only one thing to say
whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
aaaargh, i need to sleep.
just finished the demo yesterday, it wasn't that bad, not as bad as i thought it would be...feel like my term hols have already started ! yikes hakf the day is already gone !! ok gotta get back to work... see ya in 2 weeks
^_^
its the home stretch...
Sunday, December 2, 2007
fiNaLs aRe hEre
being a person with OCD , doesn't help at all... ok ... so i started the story from the middle , but isn't that the best way to tell a story ???
start at the middle, go any which way you please based on a random prob generator and then hit the beginning somewhere along the way....
if your lucky, your listeners will be so muddled you can then ask them for lunch, then they might just look dazed and hand you the money.. or bring you lunch. either ways your good. ;P
ok i've started rambling again, not a good sign..this is what happens , end of sem..
this week has been gud, all my old friends started pingin me , one by one.. u know .. friends from my old gang.. reminds me of how close we were. ok we used to bitch a lot. but its like the siblings thing.. u know like brothers and sisters.. have you watched that show? we're all like that...
yeah i miss them, and i don't know when i'd get to see them again ... everyone keeps asking me how come i'm not going home.. i don't know. the thought never crossed my mind. am sure when next summer i'll look equally puzzled. hey what do i do at home? when i got research piled up all around me out here.. mebe its coz i JUST CANNOT imagine booking a two way ticket to go home..
but all thats besides the point.. so everyone is going home..for the winter.. for the christmas.. hols and cheer and all that bunk..
thats nice.
even ppl who went 6 months ago are going home.. thats nice..
last 2 weeks of school and things are heating up. its great. but this sem was pretty slow compared to last sem.. don't even rem the last month of spring.. but here i am, excruciatingly aware of each minute...
well its the last sem of crazy subjects i hope.. nowhere closer to the answer than when i started out.. but then we don't want to start talking about that ! wrong time wrong place..
ok ok
am going
have rambled enough for today.
you'll get a disaster update after all the exams are done :P
have a gud dec folks.. 07 is almost over and boy was it a ride !
QoD
start at the middle, go any which way you please based on a random prob generator and then hit the beginning somewhere along the way....
if your lucky, your listeners will be so muddled you can then ask them for lunch, then they might just look dazed and hand you the money.. or bring you lunch. either ways your good. ;P
ok i've started rambling again, not a good sign..this is what happens , end of sem..
this week has been gud, all my old friends started pingin me , one by one.. u know .. friends from my old gang.. reminds me of how close we were. ok we used to bitch a lot. but its like the siblings thing.. u know like brothers and sisters.. have you watched that show? we're all like that...
yeah i miss them, and i don't know when i'd get to see them again ... everyone keeps asking me how come i'm not going home.. i don't know. the thought never crossed my mind. am sure when next summer i'll look equally puzzled. hey what do i do at home? when i got research piled up all around me out here.. mebe its coz i JUST CANNOT imagine booking a two way ticket to go home..
but all thats besides the point.. so everyone is going home..for the winter.. for the christmas.. hols and cheer and all that bunk..
thats nice.
even ppl who went 6 months ago are going home.. thats nice..
last 2 weeks of school and things are heating up. its great. but this sem was pretty slow compared to last sem.. don't even rem the last month of spring.. but here i am, excruciatingly aware of each minute...
well its the last sem of crazy subjects i hope.. nowhere closer to the answer than when i started out.. but then we don't want to start talking about that ! wrong time wrong place..
ok ok
am going
have rambled enough for today.
you'll get a disaster update after all the exams are done :P
have a gud dec folks.. 07 is almost over and boy was it a ride !
QoD
Monday, November 26, 2007
hArd tO sTAy aWaKE
pufff ... uffff
man either i am really outta shape, or I've lost it. i cudnt walk much today... from the bus stand to school. am not that bad usually. i can usually make it to class.
think its the old problem thats come back. i think i'm really sick. no no ! not that way u perverts.
i mean i think i'm ill. one of the worst things is i can't go running home to mommy now. i gotta somehow survive out here..
its not that bad. lot of ppl get sick. no am not trying out for the martyrs awards...
not being brave or anything. ofcourse i am incredibly stupid. never take my pills when i shud. just too forgetful. more imp things in life. like sleeping and gazing up at the ceiling. i need to get out of my room. had enuf of it...
yaaaawn am tired. i need to sleep. bunked classes today. to sleep. 3 more weeks ppl ... 3 more weeks..
man either i am really outta shape, or I've lost it. i cudnt walk much today... from the bus stand to school. am not that bad usually. i can usually make it to class.
think its the old problem thats come back. i think i'm really sick. no no ! not that way u perverts.
i mean i think i'm ill. one of the worst things is i can't go running home to mommy now. i gotta somehow survive out here..
its not that bad. lot of ppl get sick. no am not trying out for the martyrs awards...
not being brave or anything. ofcourse i am incredibly stupid. never take my pills when i shud. just too forgetful. more imp things in life. like sleeping and gazing up at the ceiling. i need to get out of my room. had enuf of it...
yaaaawn am tired. i need to sleep. bunked classes today. to sleep. 3 more weeks ppl ... 3 more weeks..
Friday, November 23, 2007
bLaCK FriDaY
i went shopping today and the whole mass consumerism ? it drove me nuts !
it was insane ! the place just sucked the energy out of me !! i cudnt believe the ppl running around , buying stuff as if it was paper clips.. no seriously !! u shud have seen the bags.. and am sure half the stuff they wudnt even need.
talking about stuff ppl don't need, you shud meet my roommate. i contend that ppl don't need half the stuff they own. and if you've seen her, you've probably seen it all... now seriously tell me. does anyone really care that i don't have more than 20 shirts and invariably repeat them after 20 days... considering that i go home only once in 3 days now.. i don't think it even matters....
i don't think i need that many clothes or shoes or jackets.. i don't need color coordinated stuff.. pink shoes for pink bags ? and matching earrings to boot ??? jackets in different shades of colors ?? and socks to match ??? who the heck cares !! and is that the only way to make yourself feel better?
having better stuff. applying gunk to our faces. wearing pretty jewelry ....ugh ! granted once in a while i DO like to dress up and feel nice. but thats more of a novelty. i wud rather feel better about myself if i solved complex code. or if i got a 100 in all my assignments .. THAT is more important right now. somehow. if i did a thesis worthy of some research.. that wud be way too cool..
THAT is important...
i have to admit. i caved. completely in a couple of hours. lost my bag. roamed half the mall searching for it... looking very forlorn , coz i had bought this ONE THING and then promptly lost it.found my bag. came home and slept for 5 straight hours. i bought one pair of shoes. woohooo my one victory against shopping :P
yeah yeah i know its pathetic ...
i think i'll go back to the time tested model ... get my mom to shop for me !!!
it can't go wrong.. ofcourse occasionally i do end up with bright purple tank tops ...or fiery green skirts...or shoes that i wudnt be caught dead in...or shirts that i wud rather see burnt, than worn by anyone... ( ok ok i know awright !)
sigh.. i really need to buy my own stuff don't i ? go to a shop and peruse through millions of racks of clothes .. oh curse the variety that exists for females !!! aah well mebe purple IS my color ??? mebe i cud learn to love yellow shirts ???
ugh !
hey my code in 551 now works !!! now i wonder if it wud work better if i moved from the pure eigensubspace to a discriminant subspace. or mebe i shud really try multiclass support vector machines...
ps: happy thanksgiving again folks.. hope u still have ur mind after the mind numbing shopping spree !!!
it was insane ! the place just sucked the energy out of me !! i cudnt believe the ppl running around , buying stuff as if it was paper clips.. no seriously !! u shud have seen the bags.. and am sure half the stuff they wudnt even need.
talking about stuff ppl don't need, you shud meet my roommate. i contend that ppl don't need half the stuff they own. and if you've seen her, you've probably seen it all... now seriously tell me. does anyone really care that i don't have more than 20 shirts and invariably repeat them after 20 days... considering that i go home only once in 3 days now.. i don't think it even matters....
i don't think i need that many clothes or shoes or jackets.. i don't need color coordinated stuff.. pink shoes for pink bags ? and matching earrings to boot ??? jackets in different shades of colors ?? and socks to match ??? who the heck cares !! and is that the only way to make yourself feel better?
having better stuff. applying gunk to our faces. wearing pretty jewelry ....ugh ! granted once in a while i DO like to dress up and feel nice. but thats more of a novelty. i wud rather feel better about myself if i solved complex code. or if i got a 100 in all my assignments .. THAT is more important right now. somehow. if i did a thesis worthy of some research.. that wud be way too cool..
THAT is important...
i have to admit. i caved. completely in a couple of hours. lost my bag. roamed half the mall searching for it... looking very forlorn , coz i had bought this ONE THING and then promptly lost it.found my bag. came home and slept for 5 straight hours. i bought one pair of shoes. woohooo my one victory against shopping :P
yeah yeah i know its pathetic ...
i think i'll go back to the time tested model ... get my mom to shop for me !!!
it can't go wrong.. ofcourse occasionally i do end up with bright purple tank tops ...or fiery green skirts...or shoes that i wudnt be caught dead in...or shirts that i wud rather see burnt, than worn by anyone... ( ok ok i know awright !)
sigh.. i really need to buy my own stuff don't i ? go to a shop and peruse through millions of racks of clothes .. oh curse the variety that exists for females !!! aah well mebe purple IS my color ??? mebe i cud learn to love yellow shirts ???
ugh !
hey my code in 551 now works !!! now i wonder if it wud work better if i moved from the pure eigensubspace to a discriminant subspace. or mebe i shud really try multiclass support vector machines...
ps: happy thanksgiving again folks.. hope u still have ur mind after the mind numbing shopping spree !!!
Thursday, November 22, 2007
sTuDentS oF tOdAY
i like this ...
its kinda creative ...
what is it ???? to be student today ???
i bet ya that cmu is whole lot different.. study only 3 hours a day !! and work only 2 !! thats unheard of out here..
me?
i completely cut my eating times. i eat at my desk when i find food...
i cut my sleeping time. i sleep bout 5 hours a day on average...
i spend atleast 15 hours studying+working+homework+meetings and the rest ofcourse just goes...
1.5 hours chatting on gtalk
3 hours class
0.5 hour email
3 hours on internet
1.5 hr commuting
do the math !!!
i got 29.5 hours in my day !!!
and trust me when i say this.. i dont work as hard as some people do...
now am so starved for time. that i stay back in school and save up on that one hour of commuting...
its kinda creative ...
what is it ???? to be student today ???
i bet ya that cmu is whole lot different.. study only 3 hours a day !! and work only 2 !! thats unheard of out here..
me?
i completely cut my eating times. i eat at my desk when i find food...
i cut my sleeping time. i sleep bout 5 hours a day on average...
i spend atleast 15 hours studying+working+homework+meetings and the rest ofcourse just goes...
1.5 hours chatting on gtalk
3 hours class
0.5 hour email
3 hours on internet
1.5 hr commuting
do the math !!!
i got 29.5 hours in my day !!!
and trust me when i say this.. i dont work as hard as some people do...
now am so starved for time. that i stay back in school and save up on that one hour of commuting...
hApPy pLaCEs
i'm in love
love with a song.
happens once in a while.
i think its the insane need of a human to be in love with something or the other.. i was thinking of all my posts.. naaah i don't have the patience to read them..
i was thinking of that one day when i was enjoying the sun and the skies...
and the blue blue sky and thinking of the song i was in love with.
hey, if ppl can irrationally fall for someone ... i can fall for a song can't i ?
no not the singer. just the song. not even the voice of the song, but the song. its existence in the world proves that beauty can be wrought out of nothing. and as long as ppl continue to cr8 such beauty there is hope yet for mankind :P
ok call me a hopeless romantic. but only in this regard !!! ha ! just coz i believe there is hope yet.
close ur eyes and listen to the song... and imagine ... blue blue skies...
and birds.. blue birds flying lazily across that sky. of white puffy clouds. and then imagine that you cud sing with a voice straight from the heavens and that u sat on a mountain top with a rusty ol' guitar and strummed to ur hearts content...
and there'd be a lake nearby where the sky wud be reflected perfectly ...
oh wait i think i got a picture which resembles this slice of heaven :P
so imagine ur there, u've got a cup of chai... and ur singin this song.
now u know i'm in love.
in love with a song .......
love with a song.
happens once in a while.
i think its the insane need of a human to be in love with something or the other.. i was thinking of all my posts.. naaah i don't have the patience to read them..
i was thinking of that one day when i was enjoying the sun and the skies...
and the blue blue sky and thinking of the song i was in love with.
hey, if ppl can irrationally fall for someone ... i can fall for a song can't i ?
no not the singer. just the song. not even the voice of the song, but the song. its existence in the world proves that beauty can be wrought out of nothing. and as long as ppl continue to cr8 such beauty there is hope yet for mankind :P
ok call me a hopeless romantic. but only in this regard !!! ha ! just coz i believe there is hope yet.
close ur eyes and listen to the song... and imagine ... blue blue skies...
and birds.. blue birds flying lazily across that sky. of white puffy clouds. and then imagine that you cud sing with a voice straight from the heavens and that u sat on a mountain top with a rusty ol' guitar and strummed to ur hearts content...
and there'd be a lake nearby where the sky wud be reflected perfectly ...
oh wait i think i got a picture which resembles this slice of heaven :P
so imagine ur there, u've got a cup of chai... and ur singin this song.
now u know i'm in love.
in love with a song .......
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
sOmEwHERe
perhaps you've heard this song before ... perhaps you've not.
but there's something in this guys voice that moves us..
apparently he's dead and died at a young age.. reminds me of a friend we lost over the summer....
reminds us that there is some beauty in the world after all , and anyone can create it..
god bless ya'll over the hols and be safe...
QoD
but there's something in this guys voice that moves us..
apparently he's dead and died at a young age.. reminds me of a friend we lost over the summer....
reminds us that there is some beauty in the world after all , and anyone can create it..
god bless ya'll over the hols and be safe...
QoD
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
laST stAnD
Its the last couple of days before the sem ends...
last 2 weeks to be exact. don't even know where the days went. i swear it was all a blur..
its time. to take a stand before the approaching enemy .. to stand firm and look at it in the eye and not give an inch...
OR throw your weapons to the ground, hold on to your hat for dear life and run as fast as you can. now is NOT the time for yapping, silly ! get going. run ! before he can get you...
:P
oh well i was born a coward.. i cudnt stand exams.. or final demos..
last night i slept in my lab. looks like i'm moving into the lab....
Prof was right, this is turning into a nightmare.
i don't know how much will get done... and i don't know if its worth my sanity. but am sure glad i dropped that course, though i wish i had taken a mini in the first half... then i cud have afforded to fund myself next semm and wudnt have had a course hanging over my head.....
but thats enuf of whining. i need to make sure my shoes are in order so i can make a dash for it....
:P
wish me luck ppl.. and gud luck to u too.. if uve got something major coming up as well...
last 2 weeks to be exact. don't even know where the days went. i swear it was all a blur..
its time. to take a stand before the approaching enemy .. to stand firm and look at it in the eye and not give an inch...
OR throw your weapons to the ground, hold on to your hat for dear life and run as fast as you can. now is NOT the time for yapping, silly ! get going. run ! before he can get you...
:P
oh well i was born a coward.. i cudnt stand exams.. or final demos..
last night i slept in my lab. looks like i'm moving into the lab....
Prof was right, this is turning into a nightmare.
i don't know how much will get done... and i don't know if its worth my sanity. but am sure glad i dropped that course, though i wish i had taken a mini in the first half... then i cud have afforded to fund myself next semm and wudnt have had a course hanging over my head.....
but thats enuf of whining. i need to make sure my shoes are in order so i can make a dash for it....
:P
wish me luck ppl.. and gud luck to u too.. if uve got something major coming up as well...
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
iNtErviEW bEgOnE
i hate interviews. i don't perform well , as a general rule... I know something , i freeze up. and completely go blank. u know those interviews where they just want you to keep trying till u get somewhere? man those are soooo not for me ...
i keel over and fall apart. and its really a sad sight !! pathetic. a grown woman falling apart.
one of my worst interview questions was "what is a sine wave" and i started dumbly at the female. WAT A DORK !! ofcourse i knew wat a sine wave was. and by all means she was a biology major. perhaps that was her toughest math question. but for the life of me i could not come up with an answer. i just froze completely and to add injury to insult i had travelled miles for that interview. a couppla hundred.
so the saga continues out here. i hate interviews and normally would avoid them like the plague.
hey i can work dammit. with all my modesty , let me tell you that i can work. day and night and my results aint that bad either. i clip on at a decent pace.
but interviews? just had my first telephonic interview and i have to say, some of the questions were really silly if i had done my basic preperation. no no, thankfully i was not asked to explain a sine wave, but i was asked explain how the z transform is mapped graphically to a fourier transform
aaaaaack.
and i was like .... uuuuuuhhhhh what do you mean?
and obviously he explained and i was like.. man i shud know this stuff.
damn.
but then ... if i think about it a bit, its like i'm sabotaging myself at every
point.
mebe i DON't WANT a job. mebe all am doing is pretending to try and keep failing so that i got a legit excuse for not working.. so that i dont feel guilty..
ugh....too..... much... psychology.
brain... overloadin......
ofcourse the pathetic part is , if u really really wanted to get in. its pretty easy to get into half these places.. all u had to do was read a couple of things before the interview to get the brain working. and review some basics...
which ofcourse. am too lazy to do. think i gave about 8 interviews so far. it looks more and more like my undergrad.. the gud thing about mathworks is , they didnt ask me if i had a personal web page. thats the gud thing.
i hate companies that ask me if i have a personal web page...
i keel over and fall apart. and its really a sad sight !! pathetic. a grown woman falling apart.
one of my worst interview questions was "what is a sine wave" and i started dumbly at the female. WAT A DORK !! ofcourse i knew wat a sine wave was. and by all means she was a biology major. perhaps that was her toughest math question. but for the life of me i could not come up with an answer. i just froze completely and to add injury to insult i had travelled miles for that interview. a couppla hundred.
so the saga continues out here. i hate interviews and normally would avoid them like the plague.
hey i can work dammit. with all my modesty , let me tell you that i can work. day and night and my results aint that bad either. i clip on at a decent pace.
but interviews? just had my first telephonic interview and i have to say, some of the questions were really silly if i had done my basic preperation. no no, thankfully i was not asked to explain a sine wave, but i was asked explain how the z transform is mapped graphically to a fourier transform
aaaaaack.
and i was like .... uuuuuuhhhhh what do you mean?
and obviously he explained and i was like.. man i shud know this stuff.
damn.
but then ... if i think about it a bit, its like i'm sabotaging myself at every
point.
mebe i DON't WANT a job. mebe all am doing is pretending to try and keep failing so that i got a legit excuse for not working.. so that i dont feel guilty..
ugh....too..... much... psychology.
brain... overloadin......
ofcourse the pathetic part is , if u really really wanted to get in. its pretty easy to get into half these places.. all u had to do was read a couple of things before the interview to get the brain working. and review some basics...
which ofcourse. am too lazy to do. think i gave about 8 interviews so far. it looks more and more like my undergrad.. the gud thing about mathworks is , they didnt ask me if i had a personal web page. thats the gud thing.
i hate companies that ask me if i have a personal web page...
Monday, November 12, 2007
mY sChOoL
woweeeeeee
here's something i never knew !!
My dept. ok ok the ece dept of CMU ? is ranked 4th for phd !!!
WOW
i mean. think again. WOW we beat MIT.
read it here
College rankings
we came in 4th in the electrical and 8th or so in the computers section.
THIS IS AWESOME !
and we didnt do so bad in other areas also.. 6th in robotics. infact we are the only school that shows up twice in the computers list ??? (but mebe i had myopia :P)
I am sooo proud of my school today !
on another note i think i got some gud news...
i think i got a phd seat in florida. its a small school ...in many ways a complete opposite of cmu.. but then i think i won't lose my sanity there. AND i may not go bald.
now thats surely an incentive !!!
:P
here's something i never knew !!
My dept. ok ok the ece dept of CMU ? is ranked 4th for phd !!!
WOW
i mean. think again. WOW we beat MIT.
read it here
College rankings
we came in 4th in the electrical and 8th or so in the computers section.
THIS IS AWESOME !
and we didnt do so bad in other areas also.. 6th in robotics. infact we are the only school that shows up twice in the computers list ??? (but mebe i had myopia :P)
I am sooo proud of my school today !
on another note i think i got some gud news...
i think i got a phd seat in florida. its a small school ...in many ways a complete opposite of cmu.. but then i think i won't lose my sanity there. AND i may not go bald.
now thats surely an incentive !!!
:P
wiERdOs LikE mY fRieND
what kind of madness is this
you should read this - Arbit Articles
now sometimes we are overcome by some weird desire to embarrass the heck out of our fellow tortured creatures... and when that urge comes we shud just go and bang our heads against the wall... Dr acharya, thnx for the kind words.. and consider banging your head against the wall so that you don't repeat it !!!
:P
yeah yeah i cant take a compliment gracefully..
you should read this - Arbit Articles
now sometimes we are overcome by some weird desire to embarrass the heck out of our fellow tortured creatures... and when that urge comes we shud just go and bang our heads against the wall... Dr acharya, thnx for the kind words.. and consider banging your head against the wall so that you don't repeat it !!!
:P
yeah yeah i cant take a compliment gracefully..
Monday, November 5, 2007
eAt oUT
Its been a while since i actually wrote something..
all of one week.
seems like one my blessed mater stops annoying me, i don't have much grievance with the universe.
now what i did notice is this... there are some people and then there are some people..
amazingly vague isn't it? :P
well there is this guy. he's sitting next to me right now in class... and i feel amazingly clandestine, posting this with him right next to me .. :P
but i think in 2 months of school, he's spent every single day eating free food in school. every SINGLE day.
not bought food a single day. not cooked not shopped. every single day find out where you get free food, in school .. and then go have it.
amazing. u just have to appreciate some people who get around. you just have to.
all of one week.
seems like one my blessed mater stops annoying me, i don't have much grievance with the universe.
now what i did notice is this... there are some people and then there are some people..
amazingly vague isn't it? :P
well there is this guy. he's sitting next to me right now in class... and i feel amazingly clandestine, posting this with him right next to me .. :P
but i think in 2 months of school, he's spent every single day eating free food in school. every SINGLE day.
not bought food a single day. not cooked not shopped. every single day find out where you get free food, in school .. and then go have it.
amazing. u just have to appreciate some people who get around. you just have to.
Wednesday, October 31, 2007
cOmE oN oVeR
i like this song even if the video is a bit weird and more like the home video version
so i don't feel so great nowadays.. and i'm trying to make myself feel better by listening to such kind of music...
but its a nice song... was always a fan of rob thomas :P
so i don't feel so great nowadays.. and i'm trying to make myself feel better by listening to such kind of music...
but its a nice song... was always a fan of rob thomas :P
TrOuBLe wiTh a T
am exhausted would do anything for a good nights rest where i don't have to worry about grades homeworks projects the future , correction the increasing black hole that seems to be my future... yaaaawn
it seems like once you start staying late beyond 5 in the college then time just flies.
supposedly time flies when your having fun, but it also flies when your in deep deep trouble.
had another one of those today. think i royally blew it. i don't know what i was blabbering. i'm sure that's not what i want to do either. why do we even apply to these extremely inappropriate positons?
why do they even call us???
wierdness just scaled new heights in my life.
on the other side of the globe a friend of mine , L has gone nuts. she is in deep... DEEP trouble and boy did she dig her own grave.
this is just not good.
it seems like once you start staying late beyond 5 in the college then time just flies.
supposedly time flies when your having fun, but it also flies when your in deep deep trouble.
had another one of those today. think i royally blew it. i don't know what i was blabbering. i'm sure that's not what i want to do either. why do we even apply to these extremely inappropriate positons?
why do they even call us???
wierdness just scaled new heights in my life.
on the other side of the globe a friend of mine , L has gone nuts. she is in deep... DEEP trouble and boy did she dig her own grave.
this is just not good.
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